Alan was confused by Nora's question. He stared at her for a while and then asked.
"What are you talking about? What do you mean?"
"I mean, what will you do if I do what Mike did?" Nora breathed deeply. Since she had already
mentioned about it, it would be easier for her to tell him all.
Alan froze, not knowing Nora's thought.
He mussed his hair and sat down anxiously. "How could that be? You will never do what Mike did.
Honey, I trust you."
"You trust me, but I don't trust myself." Nora said with her head down. "Alan, I'm a person just like Mike.
What will you do?"
"I have said you're nothing like him." Alan raised his voice. "What-ifs are not existed. Just don't put me
and you in this awkward situation. You're my wife. I love you and I will treat you right."
"Alan, I know you treat me well. But I don't think I deserve it." Nora blamed herself in heart. After what
happened with Oca, she was the one who cheated in their marriage. "Alan, let's get divorced."
Alan looked up suddenly and widened his eyes, staring at Nora in confuse.
"Honey, stop kidding me." Alan said with sadness. "Saying too much these words will hurt our
relationship."
"Alan, do we have relationship?" Nora's eyes turned cold. She was like a different person.
Alan looked at Nora, but it seemed like she was not the one that he knew. Although she was standing
in front of him, she was far away from him. He didn't know how she suddenly turned into this.
"What's wrong?" They were happy just now for finishing a task together.
"Alan, I'm serious." Nora looked serious. It didn't seem like she was making a joke. "I feel guilty for you.
I have to do this."
"Nora, do you get sick?" Alan began to be nervous, touching her forehead and face to see if she got
fever. But her body temperature was normal. "What's wrong?"
"I'm not sick." Nora shook her head. "I just can't forgive myself."
"What happened exactly? Why do you have to get divorced with me?" Alan frowned and felt bitter. "Did
I do something wrong? Or I'm not enough for you? Nora, please tell me. I will be a better man. I will do
what you ask. Is that okay? Please don't get divorced with me."
Alan was begging her, using his shivering hands to hold hers.
"Is it because of children? If you don't want to raise children, I don't want them neither. We can just lead
a life in the heaven of the two of us. And you're my only princess in this heaven. OK?"
Listening to Alan's sincere words, Nora was suffering. Her heart was shaking and her eyes turned red.
She also wanted to lead a happy life with Alan. But she didn't expect what happened with Oca,
messing up her plans and breaking her wishes.
She wanted to forget that, but she couldn't pretend nothing happened and accept Alan's love without
feeling guilty. She couldn't keep the secret from him. It made her suffering.
Until today, she finally plucked up the courage and had the chance to tell.
"Alan, you're not the one that makes mistakes. I'm." Nora didn't want to see Alan blaming himself.
"You're an excellent man. But I'm not a good woman."
"I'm an excellent man?" Alan sneered. "If I'm an excellent man, why does my wife want to get divorced
with me? If I'm an excellent man, should I deserve happiness?"
"Don't say that, please." Nora was in pain seeing him heart-broken.
"Then what should I do? Agree to get divorced?" Alan was livid. "Nora Cooper, I won't agree to get
divorced."
"Alan, I..." Nora bit her lip, gathering courage. "I'm not the pure Nora Cooper as you imagine. I'm not a
virgin anymore."
Alan stunned. His eyes indicated his confusion.
"What?" Alan asked, "What did you say?"
"I have lost my virginity." Nora said it again, making sure that he heard it clearly.
Alan fell silent, with his head down and eyes closed. It seemed like he was thinking.
It was silent in the room, because Nora didn't say a word either.
"Is it because of it? That' why you want to get divorced?" Alan broke the silence. His voice was deep.
"Nora, I knew about your past, but what's past is passed. I don't care about your past. Otherwise, I
wouldn't marry you.
Nora, I have prepared myself before getting married. You are taking me as a superficial man. Am I a
man like that? Only care about if you're a virgin? Nora, do you know you're insulting me and yourself.
Nora, marriage is not a play. Getting married or divorced is not a casual thing. Now that we're husband
and wife, no matter what happened, I won't let you go. We will reach happiness together.
Nora, don't have any burden in mind. I really don't care. The imperfect you is the realest existence and
is the one that I fall in love with. Don't say getting divorced easily again. I won't get divorced with you,
unless I die.
Nora turned her face. Tears appeared in her eyes. She felt touched by his words.
But she didn't want him to see that. She held back her tears, trying to be cold and indifferent.
She couldn't be softhearted now. She didn't her weakness hurt him, since she might work out her
demon inside.
Oca was around her and they often met each other.
That thing twined her like vine and was getting tighter, leaving her breathless.
She couldn't imagine the result and the hurt brought to Alan and Hazel if the thing was known.
"Alan, you don't have been like this." Nora sighed. "Let's stop torturing each other."
"I won't let you go even if it's a torture." Alan said firmly, "I believe absolute sincerity will move a heart of
stone. And your heart is not a stone. You'll be touched. Nora, I believe in me and you."
"I do have a heart of stone." Nora said something malicious. "I won't fall in love with you in my whole
life."
Alan looked sad and his heart hurt, but he pretended he didn't care. "It's okay. I have my whole life to
accompany you."
"But I don't need it."
"That's my choice."
"Alan, why don't you understand? What's the meaning of lying to yourself?"
"It doesn't have any meaning, but I don't want to be apart with you."
"Alan!"
"I'm here."
"I'm not cracking a joke!"
"Neither do I!"
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