He Shu E sounds like she is mocking him.
“Little girl’s words? I just regard it as true.” Jing Zong clutches He Shu E’s hand. “That day the time you said it, I was very happy. I never be that happy. Since that day I really think of you as a woman that I want to marry when I grow up.”
“The year you turned eighteen you entered University. I was happy for you. But a month later, you told me that you like a senior in your university called Su Mu Chen. You told me that he had a girlfriend that made you so heartbroken. I also felt heartbroken for you. Yet I was so happy that I could take you to play to let you forget about Su Mu Chen.”
“Then a month later you called me happily and said to me that Su Mu Chen broke up. Now he was so dejected and you were very worried about him.”
“That year winter holiday, you were with him. You told me that day he didn’t like you.”
“You hugged my arm and said that Su Mu Chen wasn’t as good as Jing Ge Ge. You just said to me that you regarded me as your Ge Ge. But I never regard you as my Mei Mei.”
The young He Shu E wasn’t cold and proud like now, she is cold and proud when she married into Jing family.
“Jing family and He family wanted to connect by marraige. He family didn’t have only you as an unmarried woman, Jing family didn’t have only me as unmarried man. I purposely showed my Ma that I like you. My Ma just mentioned it to your Ma to let you marry into me. You cried and begged me to reject it. That time I agreed to do it in front of you. But I just went home and said to my Ma. That I don’t marry with you, this lifetime I’ll not marry.”
He Shu E looks at Jing Zong. She feels complicated.
“I never want to hurt you. For real. If I can, I will use my lifetime to protect you well. But…. Su Mu Chen made suggestion to you to use kid to threaten your parents to compromise. You promised him dumbly. I was so angry.”
She closes her eyes and remembers the time Jing Zong forced her. His eyes were red, he didn’t listen to her wail and cry. He just tore up her clothes one by one. Without any pity, he just possessed her.
Her tears fall down. She says: “So you just forced me and you let him to watch it in the next room?”
“Watch?”
“How can I let any other man watch your body? I just play the sound next door.”
He Shu E is startled.
She suddenly remembers the day Su Mu Chen broke up with her. He said that he knows that she slept with Jing Zong. She explained to him that she is forced.
“Forced? That time I was in the next room, I saw everything. I saw you were moaning under his body. You enjoyed it so much. You made me felt sick!’
Su Mu Chen’s words are hurtful.
It’s very humiliating. That day after those explosive and rough way, Jing Zong turned gentle and let her enjoyed it. Her body cannot control it so she cooperated with Jing Zong.
Just like before.
He Shu E closes her eyes.
Did Su Mu Chen lie to her, or Jing Zong lies to her?
She is confused. Then she somehow realizes that she actually believes Jing Zong’s words.
Though they are married for more than twenty years and though she cannot accept him. But he always treats her well and authentic. He cares about her, how can he let anyone watch their intimate moment.
But, why did Su Mu Chen say those words?
He might know that by saying those words, she will hate Jing Zong even more. These years, she never lives well. Every time she remembers Su Mu Chen watched her and Jing Zong, she always feels humiliated and in pain.
He Shu E looks at Jing Zong.
Jing Zong looks at her. He strokes his most beloved woman. He says: “Xiao e, we are not that young anymore. You hate me for what I did to possess you. I have tried to compensate it, but all along you cannot forget it. The time Su Mu Chen is dead and you went abroad. I let you go to calm down. Now you should go home.”
She has travelled around for fifteen years, she should go home now.
“Don’t forget. Fifteen years ago, I conceived his kid.” He Shu E reminds him codly.
“Then so what.” Jing Zong kisses her forehead. “As long as it’s you.”
He Shu E’s heart is touched. She really wants to promise him but at last she just says: “I’m tired.”
Jing Zong is disappointed but he keeps on being gentle. “Let me carry you to have a shower. Then you can sleep.”
Jing Zong carries her up, He Shu E is shocked and hugs his neck. “Put me down, don’t boast your strength.” With his age, how can he carry her up?
“Don’t worry. You’ll not fall down.” Jing Zong says.
She seems to somehow regret of what happened in the past.
She closes her eyes and let Jing Zong cleans her up.
She thinks about it. Thirty five years ago, she was forced by Jing Zong. Su Mu Chen was so angry and said hurtful words toward her; Fifteen years ago, she indulged with an affair. She was pregnant. That time she was happy. She went to Jing Zong and told him about it. She wanted a divorce. Jing Zong looked with his disappointing gaze. Yet he just held her hand and asked her to stay. He keeps on waiting for her these years.
Who really does love her?
Who does she really love?
She cannot think clearly.
Jing Zong stands in front of the window and looks outside.
He might this lifetime cannot tell He Shu E. That year when Su Mu Chen broke up with her. It’s not only because they slept together. But because Su Mu Chen’s father was terminally ill. He gave Su Mu Chen’s father five hundred thousand as his surgery fee.
Su Mu Chen is poor. He was bullied when he was young that makes him look more arrogant and strong. Yet actually he is self-inferior. Though He Shu E also can lend him money for his father but he rather looks for his love rival for money. He even listened to Jing Zong’s order to leave He Shu E.
He also didn’t want to accept He Shu E’s father’s help.
He felt that he would be looked down.
Afterwards for five years, Su Mu Chen worked very hard. He returned Jing Zong’s money and also the debt he had. He was a very serious man.
Jing Zong takes out his cigarette out and smokes it again.
That year he let Su Mu Chen heard the noise from next door, for cutting off Su Mu Chen’s thought. No man will tolerate his woman being tarnished by another man.
They are not young anymore. He doesn’t want to waste any time to wait till she accepts him.
The next day morning.
Ye Qing Xin wakes up in Jing Bo Yuan’s embrace. She opens her eyes and smiles. Beside two of them, three little guys are laying down while wearing different color onesies. Their eyes are open big and round. They are eating hands, one of them is daydreaming.
Her back is leaned on Jing Bo Yuan’s chest. The nearest baby from her is Mu Mu, who is wearing deep blue onesie. Mu Mu is glaring at the ceiling. He seems to have something on his mind.
Ye Qing Xin strokes Mu Mu’s cheek and pinches it lightly. Then she comes closer to kiss him.
Mu Mu turns his head to look at her. His gaze shows that he is curious like he is saying. “Why are you kissing me?” It melts Ye Qing Xin’s heart.
She hugs Mu Mu.
“Mu Mu, I am Mama.” Ye Qing Xin lets Mu Mu’s little hand holds her index finger. “In the future, if you can speak, then you should say “Papa” first okay? That way if you are hungry at night, you can call Papa to cook delicious one for you, right?”
“You are really lazy.” Jing Bo Yuan says behind her.
Ye Qing Xin turns her head and smiles at him. “Is it bad to be able to say “Papa” first?”
Jing Bo Yuan holds her face and kisses her lips.
Ye Qing Xin also returns the kiss for a while, the time she turns her head. She sees the little guys, without her noticing, are looking at their Papa Mama. Their eyes are round, big and full of curiosity. Though they are not yet two-months old baby. She feels embarrassed.
She turns her head and glares at Jing Bo Yuan. “In front of the kids, mind your words and actions. It’s not good that they see this.”
Jing Bo Yuan laughs.
Ye Qing Xin turns serious and teaches their kids. “Papa and Mama kiss because we are husband and wife. When you guys grow up, you guys cannot randomly kiss other girl, okay? If you want to kiss them, then you guys need to earn money, buy house and marry that girl first okay? Then you guys can kiss her as you wish? Okay?”
Mu Mu just looks at the ceiling, Zhao Zhao and Nian Nian eat their hand.
Jing Bo Yuan holds his young wife’s waist. “They just two-months old baby, your words are too early for them to understand.”
“Not early. We should educate them well since they are baby.” Ye Qing Xin kisses all of the kids.
Thinking of today is the big wedding day for Jing Yi and Wen Ren Xi, Ye Qing Xin asks Jing Bo Yuan. “Today is Er Shu’s wedding, should we go there earlier to help?”
“No need, there’re my Ma and San Shen (Ji Yi). There’re maids too. They should have enough hands to help.” Jing Bo Yuan says.
“I remember that Nai Nai said that during picking up the bride, all Jing family’s male family member should go along to show that we respect Xi Jie.” Ye Qing Xin says. “That way shouldn’t we go earlier.”
“What time is it now?”
Jing Bo Yuan just says: “07:45 a.m.”
“You have showered right? I will go freshen up first. You take care of the kids.”
Ye Qing Xin is done freshen up and goes downstair together with Jing Bo Yuan and kids.
He Shu E and Jing Zong are not home anymore. Ye Qing Guo and Ye Lin are watching animal world in the living room.
Wang Yi, Li Yi and Sun Yi immediately take the strollers for the babies. Li Yi takes Zhao Zhao from Jing Bo Yuan.
Jing Bo Yuan always carries two babies together, he doesn’t feel that it requires a lot fo energy. When the babies are in his embrace, they are too quiet and peaceful.