Chapter 1811: Out of Reach (5)
Translator: EndlessFantasy Translation Editor: EndlessFantasy Translation
Lan Xiu did not say anything. He just looked at her silently, his large hand unconsciously clenching the teacup in his hand.
Dongfang Liuyun raised her head slightly and slowly leaned back—
“Sometimes, I really wish things were simpler. It’s good that this mind can selectively forget some things, but we’re not that lucky.”
“I know. Fujiwara probably went looking for you.”
Dongfang Liuyun’s gaze towards Lan Xiu was as indifferent as the wind.
“Yes, I went to see him on the first day he arrived in City Z. He didn’t seem to be doing well either. All these years…”
“I’m relieved to know that he’s not doing well.”
Without waiting for Lan Xiu to finish, Dongfang Liuyun cut him off, “Everyone is living a muddle-headed life. How can he live a good life? I don’t want to know anything about him. Lan Xiu, you don’t have to speak up for him. I know your relationship with him, but I don’t care what you think. Lan Qi is your big brother after all. I have to bear a lot of responsibility for his death. It’s the same for Fujiwara. There’s a bottomless abyss between us. We can’t go back to the past.”
“Liuyun, I think your obsession with this is too…”
There was a hint of pity in Lan Xiu’s eyes, but Dongfang Liuyun had already stood up slowly. She turned around and looked at the floor-to-ceiling curtains behind her—
“No, this isn’t obsession, Lan Xiu… This is a debt, a debt of love. You might not understand the hardest thing to repay in the world, but I still insist on my thought. If you played games, you might understand that feeling. In my eyes, your older brother wasn’t just an older brother. We were comrades and good friends.”
“Liuyun, what exactly happened back then? Fujiwara has always been unwilling to talk about this matter. When he returned back then, he was also injured…”
“The injuries on his body were most likely caused by me.”
Dongfang Liuyun lowered her eyes. Although she did not want to recall this heavy and unbearable period, since she had brought it up, she might as well say it, even if her face had instantly turned somewhat pale.
“You attacked him?”
Lan Xiu looked at her in surprise.
Dongfang Liuyun’s reaction was very cold, and there was not the slightest fluctuation in her emotions. “Yes, when Lan Qi was dying, I almost killed him. If he fought back, we might have both been injured.”
“He wouldn’t attack you, Liuyun!”
When Lan Xiu thought of this, he could not help but feel a dull pain in his heart.
“There’s no need to clarify that matter at all. Liuyun, have you ever thought that the reason why things ended up like this between the two of you might not be because of the two of you, but perhaps it’s also because of some external factors?”
“Lan Xiu, you don’t have to try to explain anything. It’s already too late to say anything now. He and I know the situation the best. We’re both too proud, and we can’t trust each other. If he doesn’t trust me, I don’t necessarily trust him either. Even if someone takes advantage of a loophole, it’s normal. There’s nothing to be sorry about. I’m used to it too.”
Dongfang Liuyun spoke with deep understanding.
“What about you and Qi Lei? Do you trust him? Or will you trust him?”
Lan Xiu frowned slightly and asked.
“Why must he be involved in the matter between the few of us? He’s got nothing to do with what’s between us. You don’t have to always target him!”
Once Lan Xiu said this, Dongfang Liuyun immediately flew into a rage out of reflex. She was a little dissatisfied.
Lan Xiu paused for a moment. Seeing that her back was a little cold, he sighed helplessly. “No, Liuyun. Since you’re already with him, then this will also concern him. You know this better than anyone.”
“At least, he’s cleaner than us. I’m willing to believe him. Besides, I have nothing to lose to him. In the end, you all know my past and my unhappiness, but you don’t really understand what I want. Lan Xiu, your doubts make me very unhappy!”
“Liuyun, I don’t have any intention of blaming Qi Lei, nor do I have any prejudice against him. I just want to know, compared to Qi Lei, where did Fujiwara and I lose?”
Lan Xiu suppressed the surging emotions in his heart, he could not help but ask silently.
“Because he’s Qi Lei. If it makes you feel better, just think of it as fate.”
Dongfang Liuyun held her forehead with one hand, and she could not help but feel a little dizzy.
She had always been against falling into such a whirlpool of emotions, but now, she could not escape this fate.
Lan Xiu was rendered speechless by her words, and he subconsciously tightened his grip on the teacup.
“I’m sorry, I’m not in a good mood, and my tone is a little harsh. Just pretend that you didn’t hear me. We’ll settle our own matters, and don’t implicate others. I just don’t want to bring the haze of the past into my life. You and Fujiwara are great, but you don’t belong to me.”
Dongfang Liuyun seemed to have noticed that her temper had gone too far. Only then did she slow down and explain.
Only then did Lan Xiu’s tensed expression ease up.
“I’m sorry. It’s my fault for not knowing my limits. Don’t be angry.”
After a moment of silence, Lan Xiu spoke up.
“Let’s calm down, Lan Xiu. This matter is already set in stone. You said that you would sincerely accept Qi Lei. I hope that you can keep your promise. As for Fujiwara, I don’t want to care about that anymore. We’ll probably meet, and I won’t run away from what I should face. Don’t worry. I won’t make things difficult for you.”
Dongfang Liuyun turned to look at Lan Xiu as she said this, “I hope that what I said today won’t burden you. If Qi Lei had said the same thing, I’d have defended you in the same way. You’re you, you don’t need to compare yourself to anyone. You know how I am, it’s always been like this.”
After saying this, Lan Xiu paused for a moment and could only nod his head. “Consider it a slip of the tongue. Thank you, Liuyun.”
“We will always be friends, the best of friends. What do you say, Lan Xiu?”
At this moment, the flowing light in Dongfang Liuyun’s eyes became somewhat unfathomable.
Lan Xiu was quiet for a moment before he finally smiled. “Of course. Alright, I’m just here to see you. If you have time, go over to visit. You haven’t been there for a long time. I’ll make a move first.”
As he spoke, he stood up.
Dongfang Liuyun thought for a moment, then turned around and followed him out—
“I’ll send you off.”
“No need.”
Lan Xiu said indifferently.
“Let’s go.”
Dongfang Liuyun was the first to walk out. Seeing this, Lan Xiu could only silently follow after.