Chapter 969: She No Longer Trusted Men
Translator: Larbre Studio Editor: Larbre Studio
He Xiyan set her chopsticks aside after she finished a small bowl of rice.
She didn’t know how she should break the news in such a way that it wouldn’t seem awkward.
She looked at Jiahang and her hands tightened around her clothes. She hesitated for a brief moment before she finally said, “Jiahang, I was an amnesiac while we lived together, so you did not get to know the real He Xiyan. After I regained my memories, I was no longer the same person you had purchased. My children are my top priority and not you, do you understand?”
She took a deep breath and she noticed that Jiahang had turned pale but she carried on nonetheless.
“Yan Yan..” Jiahang started but she interrupted him yet again.
“Listen to what I have to say first,” she said as she wiped her tears from her eyes and continued, “I lost my parents when I was still a young girl and my relatives didn’t treat me well either. Later, I married into Mo family, then the Ye family but their families looked down on me and none of them felt that I was a good match for their son who excelled in every aspect. Both Mo Yixuan’s and Ye Hao’s parents did not object to their sons marrying me despite their misgivings but they looked down on me after I married into their family and did not treat me as part of their own. Whenever I had an argument with their sons, they did not try to help us reconcile but instead, they secretly hoped that we’d get a divorce. Jiahang, I’ve already been through two such marriages, so do you really think I’d like to go through this a third time with your family?”
She collapsed into uncontrollable sobs and quickly took out a packet of tissue from her bag to wipe her tears from her face.
Each time she mentioned the past, she felt as though she was peeling the scabs away from old scars, revealing the pain underneath.
Chen Jiahang looked very grave and he felt very upset as he listened to Yan Yan recount the past. He knew what she had been through but when he heard the raw pain in her voice, he felt extremely bad for her.
“Yan Yan… don’t worry. My parents will not be like Mo Yixuan’s and Ye Hao’s parents. They will truly accept you into the fold,” Chen Jiahang was confident that his parents weren’t like her ex-husbands’ parents for he knew that they truly wished him well.
He Xiyan smiled wryly as she looked at Jiahang. There was no trace of trust in her eyes; she took a deep breath before she said, “Jiahang, I’m really sorry. Perhaps you might think that I’m a coward but I haven’t got the confidence to get married again, neither do I have the courage to marry another man with two kids in tow. You may promise me that your parents will treat me well and that you will treat my children as your own so we can live happily ever after but I’m sorry, I can’t say that I believe your words. I don’t want to hear another man making empty promises.”
These words flowed out of her mouth in her agitation. Then, she closed her eyes because she didn’t want Jiahang to see how upset and anguished she felt. She had truly meant what she said.
She was all alone right now and she found empty promises or sweet endearments from any man extremely detestable. She had been hurt time and time again because she had trust men too much, and this led to her being abandoned and betrayed.
If this man was the Jiahang she knew, she might have believed him when he said that he would truly care for her for life but this man was now Gu Shaoqian and she didn’t truly understand Gu Shaoqian.