Chapter 066, Reappearance of Memories
Hearing Udir's voice hoarsely calling out his name over and over again, the rims of Ling Feng's eyes burst into heat. Udir's powerful embrace and his tender gaze mad Ling Feng unable to harden his heart to push him away. He could only stiffly allow him to hug him.
The hug lasted for a long time, only the sound of each other's breaths was left in their ears.
The temperature of the man named Ling Feng in his arms, the fragrance of shower gel, his soft black hair that his fingertips slid through, and that pair of clear eyes— everything is incomparably familiar, familiar enough to make him almost want to break down in tears.
The appearance of this person has finally filled in the blanks of his heart over the past many years.
Unfortunately, Udir can't remember those pasts— what kind of past they had between them, how much he once loved him.
These precious memories have been deliberately erased by someone.
Udir let go of Ling Feng and somewhat distressedly strokes the man's hair. He looks at him with a gentle gaze and asks in a soft voice: "Ling Feng, I don't remember what happened before, do you know what happened in those years?"
Ling Feng blankly stared and moved his line of sight away. He spoke in a feigned undisturbed voice: "I only know that someone made you undergo memory removal surgery."
Udir frowned slightly, "Memory removal surgery?"
Ling Feng nodded, "This surgery can remove a portion of the memories in the brain without causing any damage to the brain."
Udir fell silent. Obviously, this so-called "memory removal surgery" has to be connected to that group of "elders" in the Shaman family. Over the years, as he refused the Omegas they introduced, each time he mentioned "the person in his memory", their faces would become very strange, probably because of having a guilty conscience then?
Udir's gaze slightly sunk, he looked down at Ling Feng and said: "Can I take back those memories?"
Ling Feng looked over his head, he didn't know what to say.
Udir placed his hand on his shoulder and looked at him earnestly. He said softly but firmly: "Do you know? I've never had a day of peaceful sleep these past years, your shadow always appears in my dreams, but I couldn't see your appearance clearly at all. As far as I'm concerned...... For me, these memories are very important, I can't just lose them...... I don't want to forget everything about you, I can't forget."
The gentleness and the strong affection in the man's eyes, made Ling Feng's heart suddenly tremble.
He thought that Udir had already completely forgotten the past and had started a brand new life, but he did not expect that he had never once let go over these past years. Even if someone wiped his memories clean, he would still cling on, looking for those pasts in his dreams.
With only a necklace with a name inscribed and some vague dreams, he actually searched for so many years......
The man's extreme stubbornness is truly shocking and distressing.
Udir saw the somewhat swayed expression of Ling Feng, and hurriedly said softly: "Tell me, please? Tell me how to recover my memory."
Ling Feng was silent for a very long time before he whispered: "I know of a way, but...... this kind of method carries a big risk."
Udir said decisively: "It doesn't matter, I'll listen to whatever you have to say."
Ling Feng opened his mouth to speak: "You need to find neurosurgery expert to do a craniotomy, then conduct the most direct electrical stimulation to the cerebral cortex, if there is a deviation in the operation, it would very highly likely damage your brain, at worst, it will even make you enter a vegetative state."
Udir smiled, " I got it. "
Seeing Udir turning around to leave, Ling Feng quickly stopped him: "You want to go through with that surgery? It's no good, this is too risky...... "
Udir stopped in his steps and looking at him deeply, "Compared with forgetting you, I can wholeheartedly take this kind of risk." After he finished speaking he looked down towards his lower body then slightly pressed a kiss to Ling Feng's forehead and whispered: "Wait for me to come back."
—Wait for the past Udir to return to your side in full health.
Udir left Ling Feng's residence and called four of his most trustworthy subordinates to come here and keep watch. He was also very "considerately" helped Dr. Charley ask to take two days off from the Military District's Hospital.
Even though his mouth said "wait for me to come back", would Ling Feng wait for him to come back? He may be undecided in his heart.
He can't let Ling Feng sneak away.
When he remembers everything, he hoped for Ling Feng to be the first thing he sees.
***
Udir returned to the Military Reception Office and immediately contacted a trusted friend and had him rush over that very night.
Dr. Kent, an expert in neurosurgery at the Imperial Central Hospital, immediately set off after receiving an urgent confidential message from General Udir. He piloted his mech into two consecutive space jumps and arrived at Po Military Star at 8 o'clock the very next morning.
Udir pretended to be seriously ill from not being acclimated to the environment and had the Deputy Commander of the Legion continue to supervise today's training. He went to the operating room of a private hospital by himself and secretly met with Dr. Kent.
After Kent saw him, he couldn't help but smile and mockingly say: "Udir, not being acclimatized to the environment when coming to Po Military Star for your first time and falling seriously ill every day, isn't your body a bit too delicate?"
Udir said with a serious expression: "I am malingering, I just want to keep the informats that my grandfather has spread around me in the dark. I called you over this time because I want you to secretly perform a craniotomy on me and help me retrieve my lost memories."
Kent said in shock: "Retrieve memories?"
Udir nodded, "I have consulted several doctors before and they all told me that the memories that were wiped out could not be brought back again. I believed it back then, but now it seems that those people should have been ordered by my grandfather to deliberately lie to me." Udir frowned slightly and his eyes also became deeper, "Kent, you tell me the truth, this kind of memory loss that was removed by man, can you recover it?"
Kent hesitated for a moment and said in a low voice: "In theory, you can."
Udir immediately raised his head and looked at him, "Tell me."
*Kent explained carefully: "The principle of human memories is the connections of neurons between each other. The center of memories is similar to an information network composed of a large number of neurons. The hippocampus is the hub, and the cerebral cortex is the storage warehouse. The memory removal surgery obstructs a portion of the neuron transmission channel and leads to the inability to read the memory data as it normally would. Your cerebral cortex—that is the memory storage unit—has not been seriously damaged, and those memories still exist. As long as the cerebral cortex is stimulated, it will completely open the data information channel and those memories should reappear."