After Chu Kong got the news that he’s pregnant, I didn’t know where he ran off to. I was in bed all day long. Suddenly, I felt that even if I can’t figure anything else out, I need to get to know the place I’m living at. I endured the pain in my chest, lifted the quilt, wore some clothes and went outside.
When I opened the door, I saw my servant, who has been guarding outside the door. When he saw me, he said: “General, you’re wound isn’t healed yet. You need a lot of rest.”
I cleared my throat and said with a serious look: “Tired of lying in bed for so long. I’m going for a walk.”
“So, that was it. Let this servants make the arrangements for general……”
I rubbed my chest. In my heart I thought that humans really have many problems. Will I die if I walk a few steps with this injury? I waved and said: “No need, just lit a few lanterns for me will be good.”
This servant really respects the former general. Although on the surface, he hesitated, but he didn’t dare say anything. He only lit the lanterns for me.
“Where does general want to go?”
I rolled my eyes: “A quiet place.”
He walked quietly in front of me and took me through many confusing turns before we stood outside the wall of the garden. I nodded and said: “You wait here; I want to walk by myself.”
He naturally has no objection. I went into the garden alone. I regretted it immediately. It’s really quiet here. There isn’t the slightest noise. Because it was night, I couldn’t see anything. Only a pond shone in the moonlight.
Wait, wait……who is that person standing near the pond?
I narrowed my eyes to take a closer look and was shocked. That’s actually the princess with Chu Kong’s soul! What….what is he doing? Could it be that it was a too big blow for him and he wanted to commit suicide? This can’t happen! If he dies, wouldn’t it be more difficult for me to fight alone?!
“Princess Kong! You’re not allowed to jump!”
I shouted: “You need to love every life!”
Chu Kong faintly turned around to look at me: “Ah?”
The power of words is not always useful. I rushed to him and hugged his waist. I held her tightly in my embrace and said: “You calm down a bit. We can talk!”
“What are you doing?!”
The person in my arms kept struggling. But now he is a woman, he isn’t strong as me, a rough man. I let him punch me a few times on my broad chest, then I let go of him. I grasped his shoulder and shook severely. His whole person seems to be falling apart with my shake. His body went soft and I held him by his waist and said with a pained voice: “I know that you feel wronged, but you can’t treat yourself like this. Besides…..you’re someone who’s pregnant!”
Chu Kong trembled in my arms: “You……”
My ears were carefully listening to his words. He raised his fist and severely hit me in my face.While I was distracted, he took advantage and pushes me away. He pointed at my nose and scolded: “You fucking bastard, don’t get too deep into your character!”
I rubbed my face. Because of the gap between our physiques, his fist didn’t cause me much damage. I can understand his feelings, so I didn’t fuss with him about that fist.
I stared at Chu Kong for a very long time, before I asked: “You didn’t want to commit suicide?”
“Suicide, your ass!”
He was stomping angrily.
“Do you think I’m anxiously wanting to rush down and be affectionate with Yanwang?! Am xiaoye, I, stupid?!”
I pointed at the pond and asked: “Then what were you doing?”
Chu Kong immediately paled and seemed to aged a thousand years.
“I was thinking that it was hard to disobey the life bestowed by the heavens. Heavenly emperor Lee has a hard heart and a black hand.”
I was speechless and stayed silent together with him.
“That…,”I hesitated. “That child, do you still want it?”
Chu Kong’s thin shoulder flickered. I looked up. My eyes were fluttering.
“Actually, I really want to see you bear children…..After all, parenthood is something that I’m experiencing for the first time.”
Chu Kong’s shoulders shook uncontrollably. I seemed to be hearing a “gege” sound coming from his gritted teeth.
I made a “haha”sound and said: “Of course, the woman should call the shots on this matter.”
The words just left my mouth, when a stone severely hit my head. My head felt dizzy, I staggered two steps and fell on the ground. My chest felt painful, I felt warm blood flowing out. I dazedly touched it. In the moonlight, I saw my hand full of blood. I gasped: “Help, help! I don’t want to see Yanwang!”
Chu Kong was also scared. He stared at me blankly and then rushed to my side. He kneeled beside me.
“Is all alright?”
His hand covered my wound. It seems like he wants to heal my wound with a spell. But he covered for a while, not even a fart did come out. Chu Kong face went green: “Go to die these mortals!”
I grabbed his hand: “You can’t say the word “die”! Twenty years haven’t passed yet!”
A sound came from Chu Kong’s throat. He tightly shut his mouth. He dug in his sleeve and pulled out a silk handkerchief. He covered my chest with the handkerchief. I have no other way, so I obediently let him put the handkerchief on my chest and waited for the bleeding to stop.
The moonlight is so bright. I can clearly see Chu Kong’s frowned eyebrows. The breeze of the wind is so slow; I can hear two mortals without power breathing together. They’re so close to each other. In my mind many vague and clear imaged flashed. There’s Lu Hai Kong looking up at me and quietly smiling. There’s also Chu Kong patting silly Xiang to sleep. I came to the realization that this is the first time that we’ve been in harmony with each other and helping each other.
“Hey……”
“Hey.”
We spoke at the same time and also at the same time we went silent.
“Alright, you can go first.”
“You go first……”
We went silent again and looked at each other. Chu Kong took a deep breath and said: “……I’m sorry.”
My breath stifled. I immediately looked at the moon, to see if somebody has put a fake moon in the sky. What surprised me was that the moon was real. What’s more surprising is that Chu Kong just apologized to me……is also true!
I was dumbfounded.
Chu Kong’s eyes flashed and he seemed to be thinking about something really far away: “In the second lifetime, although slaughtering Yang family wasn’t my intention, but I didn’t get in time to stop it. When I arrived, Shengling sect has already finished the job. After that I didn’t tell you the truth, perhaps I also…..”
“Wait,” I interrupted him. “You apologized for this?”
Chu Kong raised an eyebrow: “Then for what did you think?”
My heart roared. Shouldn’t he apologize for beating a woman regularly? Shouldn’t he apologize for causing me to spend seven lifetimes with him?! Shouldn’t he apologize for all the mean things he did to me? He isn’t even apologizing for causing my wound to bleed again. Just for……
He did so many things to me and he specifically held onto that one!
I understood and nodded: “You like that type, ah. You actually like fools!”
Surprisingly, Chu Kong wasn’t angry when he heard that. He stared at me for a while. His eyes continued to drift away.
“Heng, don’t you also like that type? That fool called Lu Hai Kong. Besides, he’s a blind one.”
This sentence made a nerve in my heart move. I forgot my chest was still bleeding. I didn’t feel pain and grabbed Chu Kong by his collar, forcing him to look at me. I looked at him and said seriously and solemnly: “You listen to me clearly. Lu Hai Kong is not stupid. His eyes were not good, but his vision is better than anyone’s. His heart is clearer than anyone. Don’t say any bad things about him.”
Chu Kong looked at me in daze. In his black pupil was my face, which has been turned white by the moonlight. After a long time, he said: “You really, really……”
I felt that there was nothing to hide. Besides, Lu Hai Kong already died. He died in Chu Kong’s past. I nodded and looked straight at Chu Kong: “That’s right, I like him, really like him.”
After saying that, my eyes turned sad. Unfortunately, in this world, there won’t be anyone who’ll treat me as good as Lu Hai Kong anymore. I also will not experience heartache again or like a person again.
After organizing my emotions, I looked up again. The moment I looked at Chu Kong, I was dumbfounded. His face was red, even his ears were a bit red.
I was surprised: “Hey……”
“Shut….Shut up!”
Chu Kong threw the bloodstained handkerchief angrily at me. He stood up and took a few steps back.
“Xiaoye……xiaoye doesn’t want to hear you speak!”
He turned and ran with a shy expression.
I blinked my eyes. I was still in daze when I saw blood flowing out of my chest. I turned pale. I picked up the handkerchief quickly and blocked the wound, while I struggled to walk to the door of the garden.
I was calling: “Help! Help!”
I haven’t seen Chu Kong give birth yet, how could I go kiss Yanwang’s cheek! Heavenly emperor Lee, how can I be willing to go?!
After the night in the garden, I barely escaped death. Time flies. In a blink of eye, two months have passed. In these two months, my wound is almost healed. I also have a better understanding of my surroundings. I know that my name is Chu Qinghui. He relied on his outstanding military skills to get the position of general. My loyal servant is called Chu Yi. He is the general’s right hand. Qingling princess’s name is Fu Ying. She is the emperor’s younger sister, the most favored daughter of the empress dowager.
The bad fate of the princess and the general began when the general turned from a soldier to a general. The general went to the palace to receive the grace. The princess got a glimpse of the general. She didn’t want to marry anyone if it’s not the general. The emperor wrote a decree and the general was forced to marry her.
And then there’s the woman whom the general promised his life to. It’s that lady named Xinyun, whom my servant mentioned that day. That lady is a female physician and had saved the general’s life. The general and she have deep affection for each other. However, because the emperor had ordered, he had to marry the princess. But the general couldn’t sever the ties with Xinyun lady. He doesn’t come home as a way to protest against the emperor’s order. Every day he lived in the house of Xinyun lady. Later, Xinyun lady got pregnant with the general’s child, but miscarried. It is said that the princess caused it. In the end did the princess did it still remains an open question.
Xinyun has lost the child is a reality. The general vent his anger on the princess, not knowing that the princess was also pregnant. The proud princess couldn’t tolerate such a failed marriage and chose to die together with the general.
This is what I learned that happened. But I still have many doubts. I always felt that things aren’t as simple as they seem on the surface.
I and Chu Kong’s goal is to get rid of our current status of royalty and nobles. Then we’ll go hide in the forest. But under the current circumstances, the princess is pregnant, the general had an affair. The princess’ brother surely will not let us leave. Besides the affairs of the court is not so easy to understand as the affairs of my own home. To get rid of the identity of princess and general is really hard.
I sat in the pavilion. I watched the autumn scenery, drink a gulp of wine and sighed. The servant Chu Yi, who stood beside me, immediately poured wine into my empty cup. I nodded in satisfaction. Aside that the situation is not yet clear, my life is still quite pleasant. No worries about eating and drinking. There are many people who serve me. It’s better than the days in the first lifetime.
I glanced at Chu Yi. I thought that after I go into seclusion and still want to live a free life, I need to find a way to deceive this guy to go with me. Fetching water and firewood, cook, watching over the house; he can do it all. If I deceive him some more, I may even not have to pay him wage. This is really a perfect plan. I need to draw him to me now.
I coughed twice: “Chu Yi, sit. Drink a couple of wine with me.”
Chu Yi was surprised: “This servant doesn’t dare.”
“Sit. You’re a close brother. We should not bother about or status. If I have a cup of wine in the future, you’ll also have a cup of wine.”
“General……”
Chu Yi was about to continue speaking, when a guard came and said apologetically: “General, Xinyun lady asked to see you.”
By the way, I almost forgot. In this love triangle there still one person alive. This Xinyun lady is still alive and is now asking to see the general. Presumable she had not seen him for many days and began to miss him…….
I am a little worried. To speak words of love to a woman; isn’t that difficult for me? I can only nod: “Let her come in.”
The guard hesitated slightly: “But……the princess also seems to be walking in the direction to the garden……”
Chu Yi immediately said: “General, should I go and bring Xinyun lady to the inner room?”
I reckon that Chu Kong will not fight with a woman and get jealous, so I waved and said: “Do I need to dodge her? Let them all in.”
There was a chill autumn wind in the pavilion. I drank a few mouthfuls of wine. A woman in pink clothing knelt in front of me. This is presumable the girl called Xinyun. But when lovers meet, why is she kneeling……
I stared at her for a long time. She bowed her head and didn’t speak. I touched my face and wondered if I have put a too serious expression. I curved my lips and said laughingly: “Arise.”
Xinyun began to tremble. She bowed and shuddered: “General……this concubine…….”
Hearing those two titles, I was a little surprised. It seems that the general did see Xinyun lady as a wife, but he is also strict about status.
I waved my hand and said: “You rise up first.”
Xinyun looked up at me. Her eyes seemed to want to look through me.
“General……will you not punish me?”
There’s an inside story!
I raised an eyebrow and make an inscrutable expression: “What wrong did you commit?”
Xinyun buried her head and pondered for a while. Slowly she stood up.
“General.”
She softly called me and sat on the chair beside me.
“This concubine missed general for many days. Today……”
She blushed.
“Missing turned into more missing. In desperation, I asked to see general. If it embarrassed general, please order a punishment.”
I scratched my head and was about to tell her to not keep putting it all on me while speaking, when I heard someone hmpfed coldly. I looked up and saw Chu Kong walked into the garden with several maids. I looked at him blankly. After that day, I felt that Chu Kong was always avoiding me. It’s not easy to see him. Now that I’m staring at him, I don’t know why, he suddenly blushed……