Chapter 1912: Could It Be?
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Chu Boyang clenched his fists tightly. “You can hate me, but you have to give me a chance to make it up to you… The child… Without the child, we can…”
“Chu Boyang.” Ji Fengmian interrupted Chu Boyang calmly. She tilted her head slightly and lay on the bed, looking at Chu Boyang in the most harmless posture.
“I’m still a little relieved by the answer you gave me just now. Compared to the fact that you decided to shoot me at the last minute after seeing me stab Ji Qing, I’m relatively happy that you’ve already made the decision.”
Chu Boyang looked at her quietly.
Ji Fengmian continued, “I have a bad temper and I’m used to being unreasonable. When I’m reasonable, I’m even more unforgiving. I’m not magnanimous and I tend to hold grudges. I’m also a vengeful person. To be able to be involved with you for so long… I actually acknowledge that women in love are brainless and cheap. Because of you, I’ve indeed done many stupid and cheap things. Otherwise, we would have made a decision long ago. We wouldn’t have ended up like this.”!!
“It’s enough to teach me a lesson this time. So don’t think about doing anything with me. There’s no future between us.”
Chu Boyang felt that he didn’t have much strength left. He bent down and sat on the chair by the bed. He reached out to hold Ji Fengmian’s hand, but Ji Fengmian lifted it and placed it on his stomach.
“Do you remember the first question I asked you today?”
Chu Boyang recalled for a few seconds. “Ji Qing…”
Ji Fengmian replied softly, “If it was in the past, I probably wouldn’t have asked her to create trouble for me. This time… I don’t care so much, so I don’t think mentioning her will cause trouble for me.”
“I couldn’t figure out why I was punished like this even though I didn’t do anything outrageous. I think I probably ruined someone’s marriage, so I suffered retribution. Don’t be stubborn anymore. You’ve done everything for Ji Qing. Do you still want to say that you don’t love her?”
“No, I love you!”
Ji Fengmian chuckled. She took a deep breath and said slowly, “You love me?”
Chu Boyang repeated firmly, “I love you.”
“Then I’ll take it that you love me now,” Ji Fengmian continued. “But you shot me for her and caused me to lose my child. I hate you.”
“I hate you, so I don’t want you to have a good life. So Chu Boyang, you’d better love me now. Otherwise, I won’t be able to take revenge on you.”
Chu Boyang’s eyes darkened.
“I love you.”
Ji Fengmian smiled and nodded. “Okay…”
After a long pause, she took a deep breath and said, “The day I met you at the hospital with the pregnancy checkup, I didn’t go to stop you. I put down my dignity and called you after you left me hanging for a few days. I wanted you to accompany me to the checkup as a surprise. However, you weren’t free. The next moment, I saw you accompanying the pregnancy checkup. Then, Ji Qing fainted and you left me without a word…”
“I was kidnapped by Wang Chengwei to the cemetery. When I saw his son’s tombstone, I pitied him. There are only two types of snacks that his son likes to eat. However, there are snacks in this world that are more delicious than dragon whisker candy and fruit peel. I feel that I will give my child the best in the world.
Then, I thought that he couldn’t lack a father. So, I’ve thought it through. If you come to save me, I won’t argue with you anymore. I’ll live well with you and restrain my temper in the future.”
Chu Boyang had experienced the feeling of extreme heartache over the past few days.
His throat bobbed as the uneasiness, guilt, and pain in his heart overwhelmed him.
It turned out that she had thought about the child’s future and wanted to lead a good life with him…
Ji Fengmian smiled and looked at him. “You’re good to me, and I also think that you love me. That’s why I never thought that you would shoot me. Putting aside how innocent I am in this matter, just the question of who you choose between me and Ji Qing doesn’t make sense. Wang Chengwei and Brother Chen even told you clearly that you’d better take Ji Qing’s life for them… Is this a multiple choice question? Is this any different from forcing you to kill Ji Qing?”
She was trying her best to control her emotions. The grievance and sarcasm in her heart transformed into intense sorrow that spread throughout her body and flowed through her blood.
There was a faint tremble in her voice, but it was covered by a chuckle.
“Ji Qing told me that she could die for you, but I said that I wouldn’t. I’m not as stupid as her. Do I look like someone who can die for you?”
Chu Boyang shook his head sadly. “I won’t let you die for me either.”
Ji Fengmian smiled. “But do you know why I want to kill Ji Qing?”
Confusion flashed across Chu Boyang’s eyes. In that instant, something jumped into his mind. Before it could form, Ji Fengmian’s voice sounded again.
“At that time, I was thinking that since Ji Qing was going to die anyway, it didn’t matter who killed her…”
She laughed again and said sarcastically, “At that time, I was still thinking that your company is going to be listed and you’re still full of ambition. Since you can’t bear the crime of being a murderer in your life, why don’t I… I’ll be a better murderer than you… You don’t have to blame yourself, feel guilty, and regret for killing the woman you’ve protected since you were young. You might hate me, but I might be in prison then? Ha…”
She really had no right to say how stupid Ji Qing was. Perhaps she was even more stupid than her.
Chu Boyang’s pupils constricted and he felt as if his heart had been torn apart by something.
His expression was filled with intense pain. His eyes were bloodshot and his Adam’s apple bobbed violently.
He had never thought that Mian would be so considerate and willing to bear so much for him.
Back then, he thought that she hated Ji Qing and hated her. He also felt that killing Ji Qing at that time was the simplest and most direct way, so she chose to do that.
Even after the incident, before she woke up, he thought that she wanted Ji Qing to die and him to live because of the child in her stomach.
Only now did she realize…
“Mian, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…”
He still grabbed Ji Fengmian’s hand tightly.
Ji Fengmian’s beautiful neck bobbed and tears welled up in his reddened eyes.
She stared at the ceiling and pursed her lips. Her eyes widened as she let the tears seep back into her eyes.
“I’ve said it before. I won’t tell you that it’s okay.”
She tried to retract her hand, but it was futile.
Disgust welled up in her heart and her tears gradually disappeared.
Then, she slowly turned to look at Chu Boyang. “Are you sad? Do you regret it? Does your heart ache?”
Chu Boyang held her hand and placed it between his eyebrows. “I’m sorry.”
Ji Fengmian smiled. “It seems like you’re sad, regretful, and heartbroken… That’s good… I hate you, so I’m very happy to see you so sad, regretful, and heartbroken…”
“Let go of me, Chu Boyang. When the child was still alive, I wanted to live a good life with you for him. Now that the child is gone, there will be no future between us.”
“I won’t give you a chance to make up for it. You’ll either be sad, regretful, and heartbroken for the rest of your life, or you’ll live the rest of your life in debt to me. I hate you, so how can I let you live well?”
Or she could admit that the person he loved was Ji Qing and not her. Then, her so-called revenge would not affect his life.
“I won’t agree, Mian…”
Ji Fengmian closed her eyes. Saying so much had consumed too much of her energy.
She didn’t continue speaking and the ward fell silent.
Seeing her like this, Chu Boyang did not continue speaking. He could only place her hand gently under the blanket and sit by the side to watch her sleep quietly.
What did it mean to be at a loss and helpless? Chu Boyang had experienced it again and again. Every time, it was accompanied by despair.
In the past, when she wanted to break up with him, he could still shamelessly pester her and resort to any means. Although she would also say that he was shameless, annoying, annoying, and shameless, what else could he do?
He was in the wrong every time, but with Mian’s personality, he could only do that.
He knew a way to deal with Ji Fengmian. That was to put down his dignity in front of her and let her vent her anger. It would be fine when her temper was gone.
But this time, the mistake he had made seemed unforgivable.
She hated him.
She loved that child. Their child.
However, he had caused the death of their child.
He had shot her with his own hands and stabbed her again.
This time, he had made too many mistakes.
None of them could be saved.
But even so, he didn’t want to be separated from her.
She was so determined. If he really agreed to separate, then it would be over between them.
After confirming that she was sound asleep, Chu Boyang stood up slowly and left the ward.
The assistant had been standing guard outside the door. When she saw him closing the door softly, she hurriedly said softly,
“Director Chu, since Miss Ji is fine, you should go and rest…”
“I’m fine.”
The assistant couldn’t bear it and said, “Director Chu, your condition isn’t good. You know Miss Chu’s temper the best. How can you take care of her if you don’t have the energy?”
Chu Boyang pinched his eyebrows and turned to look at him. “Do you think… she will forgive me?”
The assistant was stunned. She didn’t expect him to ask such a question.
But this question…
“Given the situation back then, if we want her and Miss Ji Qing to survive, that would be the best solution… Miss Ji is so smart, I believe she understands you…”
“Does she understand that I caused her to lose her child?”
The assistant pursed his lips and remained silent.
Chu Boyang pursed his lips and gave a bitter laugh. “It can’t be, right?”
“…”
Chu Boyang leaned against the wall in the corridor tiredly. “In the past, she always couldn’t tolerate Ji Qing and always asked me to make a choice between her and Ji Qing. I said that they weren’t on the same page… However, I seemed to be destined to be unable to get rid of this problem. I wanted them to live, but I chose to hurt her… This time, she’s really in the right. Because of this answer, she paid a painful price.”
The assistant was silent for a while before she mustered her courage and said, “It’s hard to have the best of both worlds.”
[Haven’t I been filling up the pit all this while? Mian has been shot and the child is gone. There’s only Fanxing left. All of you know the outcome in advance. I’ve been chased around to vent my anger for the past few days and I’m really afraid [laughing and crying]. Oh my god, my mission is almost completed. Calm down, there’s not much left… I feel that I should… rarely… write about torture in the future…]