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Chapter 54 Listen to my explanation
The corner of her clothes that was grabbed by him couldn’t be pulled out. Zhao Zimu could only turn around, but she suddenly blanked out because there were two streams of tears on Lin Qing’s face.
The light from the fire made his expression very clear. Zhao Zimu suddenly felt as if her heart was being pulled by something. She sighed and fixed her gaze at the gray sky. Lost again…
Zhao Zimu was angry with Lin Qing because she was originally not a generous person. She kept trying to get close to him repeatedly, but this person always lamented about himself and blamed himself.
It wasn’t that she didn’t understand his misgivings and worry. It was just that she didn’t care, but he couldn’t let go. Then, the two of them really have nothing to say.
Zhao Zimu lowered her body, looked him in the eyes and whispered, “Do you still remember what I had said?”
Lin Qing shook his head. Puzzlement was in his lifeless eyes. It was like he had lost his soul.
“I want to find someone to accompany me to hell,” Zhao Zimu’s eyes seemed to penetrate his heart. “Are you (the one)?” She asked.
“Can I (be the one)?” His eyes were still lifeless, but it seemed to have recovered a bit of life.
“Of course, but if you can’t, I can search for someone else,” Zhao Zimu said with seventy percent helplessness and thirty percent earnestness.
She would really do that. If Lin Qing can’t, she could go find someone else. She could be faithful but that didn’t mean that he was her only one. The same was for feelings. She could give him that, but could also take them back and then give it to another person.
Because of the environment during her childhood, she developed the habit of always putting herself first no matter what. In the premise of not hurting herself, she could then be considerate of others. Once something happens that not only hurt her but there was also no point of return at all, Zhao Zimu would unconsciously pull herself back in the original position.
Just like now, it wasn’t that Zhao Zimu had no be with Lin Qing.
Lin Qing felt the earnestness of her words and grabbed her hand fiercely, causing Zhao Zimu to feel pain just like how the mood was at this time.
“I can!” Lin Qing said fiercely while looking at her firmly.
What this solved? Although, she was still worried that he would regret, she should just try her best and grab him a bit more firmly!
Zhao Zimu laughed again. She picked up the rabbit meat that had been thrown aside. She tore off the clean part and tore it into small strips to feed him. After all, it would be a pity to throw it all away. It had been roasted for a long time…
Lin Qing turned his head to a side sullenly. Although, the two had made up, but the atmosphere between the two was still a bit stiff. Zhao Zimu put the meat into her own mouth and chewed. Lin Qing turned and looked at her. She turned her head, took a bite of the meat and sent it to his mouth.
Unconsciously, their lips and teeth entangled and their breathing quickened. Zhao Zimu dropped the meat. She directly carried him to the carriage. She didn’t want to eat meat anymore, she wanted to eat people .
After getting into the carriage, she placed him on the spacious couch. Amidst his messy breathing and the violent up and down of his chest, she tore away the thick clothing on his body and put a cushion on his back to let him lean against the wall of the carriage.
Zhao Zimu asked him who had his eyes closed, “What do you feel?”
Lin Qing didn’t answer. So, she squeezed his chin and asked cruelly, “What do you feel?”
Cowering and with a bit of anxiety, he said, “Soft…”
“Still powerless?”
He nodded.
“Will you regret?” She asked.
“No,” This time, Lin Qing opened his eyes and looked straight at her. He put his ugliest self in front of her to let her see it enough. If she regretted it, Lin Qing laughed. The laughter was very mournful.
Then, let it be as she said. Let’s go to hell together…
After Zhao Zimu got the answer, she put her hand in the front piece of his clothes that had been long torn up. She let her hand slid over every place on his body, over every sensitive spot. Then, her hand moved down to his lower abdomen and stopped there.
Lin Qing’s body began to stiffen. Zhao Zimu played with the skin there carefully. Feeling the tremor of his body, she finally said, “If you regret it, I can stop now.”
Lin Qing’s body was still stiff, but he still shook his head. Zhao Zimu sighed secretly in her heart. She knew that she was cruel, but he had to pass over this and she had to personally help him pass over it. Otherwise, he would always live in the darkness of his low self-esteem. She didn’t want Lin Qing to alienate her because of this reason.
Her hand followed along his lower abdomen to the place he had always been resisting. It was warm there, but there was nothing but emptiness there. Zhao Zimu’s hand stopped on a huge scare. A huge sorrow almost drowned her. Her fingertips trembled and she forcible resisted her tears, but her tears were already unstoppable falling down. Drop after drop, filled with pity for this man.
Lin Qing had his head lowered and was looking at her at the moment. His eyes were like that of a dead person; dim and lifeless.
“Now, you’ve seen clearly. Now you understand, the person in front of you is indeed a eunuch! He can’t give you the passionate love between man and woman and also wouldn’t have offspring. He is a person that had been abandoned by the humans. He is just an ugly defective good!”
“He is not Jiu Qiansui…”
Lin Qing’s voice was soft, fleeting and weird. His eyes were filed with darkness like a monster climbing up from the bottomless abyss and wanting to choose someone to eat.
Zhao Zimu knew that if she didn’t deal with this well, the person in front of her would really become a monster and cause calamity to the whole world.
“Mm, I know. You are Lin Qing,” Zhao Zimu smiled with tears and continued with her actions.
Lin Qing’s eyes slowly returned from the darkness. He closed his eyes and let her be.
“It must be very painful,” She said with heartache.
“…” What do you think? Having nothing to lose, Lin Qing ignored her.
“Is the guy who castrated you already dead?” She asked coldly.
“…Dead.” He didn’t feel hatred because everyone was the same. He was just one of those misfortunates.
Zhao Zimu no longer spoke. She knew that was a kind of rule that one had to implement. Lin Qing was just cut by this rule. She couldn’t blame anyone.
She continued to move her hand back and forth on his scar. There was a slight reaction, but it wasn’t enough. Lin Qing trembled once and clamped her hand with his legs. He said in a hoarse voice, “…What do you want to do?”
“Do you…,” After spitting these two words, Zhao Zimu went on with what she was doing.
Lin Qing was speechless for a moment. Forget it, since she likes it, then let her be. It would be alright if she has no more illusions…
Lin Qing let go of the grip he had on Zhao Zimu’s hand. His legs were stiff and he let her play with his body.
However, soon Lin Qing felt that something was not right. Zhao Zimu’s hand stopped on a smooth place. She gently slid and rubbed. A strange feeling came from there and like an electric current, it came up. Lin Qing almost lost his composure and screamed. His feet tightly clasped on the couch. Soon, a thin layer of sweat broke out on his forehead.
Lin Qing said flustered, “Don’t…don’t touch there…”
His voice had already gone out of tune. He couldn’t hide the joy from it no matter what.
The scar was slightly moist. Zhao Zimu no longer lingered on the smooth place. Her hand slid to the place between his thigh and explored. Lin Qing was already dumbstruck. When Zhao Zimu’s fingers plunged into the narrow place, Lin Qing immediately clamped his legs. His whole body was tense. He refused to let her go any further.
Seeing his bashful and angry face, it looked like a red apple. Zhao Zimu moved her hand back to the original place wittily and continued to tease the soft spot where here hand had just landed.
Lin Qing’s breath gradually became chaotic. He didn’t know what kind of feeling this was. He only knew that it was very stimulating and pleasurable. His throat gradually became dry.
When Zhao Zimu put her hand on that place in the beginning, he didn’t feel anything strange. However, as the time went by, he felt very comfortable and wanted her to…to do more…
Until his body slipped off the couch unconsciously and his waist felt limp and painful did Zhao Zimu let him off.
At this time, his legs were opened wide. The lapels of his clothes were also unconsciously opened. The skin of his entire chest was exposed. His face was flushed and confused with a bit of sweat. His whole person exuded a fatal temptation.
Zhao Zimu didn’t dare to look. She was afraid that she wouldn’t be able to help herself from doing more overboard things to him. Even if he stopped her, she would use stronger force to suppress him.
When Lin Qing had recovered, he slowly closed his legs. Suddenly, he sat up and grabbed her neck. He shouted vigorously, “How many men have you played with?!”
“Cough, cough, cough…” The man suddenly went mad. Zhao Zimu coughed uncontrollably after being grabbed by the neck and quickly broke away from his hands. She said anxiously, “Experience, ah, no, oh, I have learned it!”
“Where did you learn it?!”
“Spring Wind House, White Flower House, Male Pavilion…”
Probably names of brothels and the last one is for homosexuals.“How is the taste of the men there?”
“It’s okay, ah, no, not okay, no, not at all…”
“Zhao Zimu, get out!”
“Let me explain!”
The sounds from the carriage rang in the open field. The group of subordinates stood around with a strange and stiff expressions. Also, that Ling Er seemed to have become silly. Her small face had a blank expression.
What the hell?!
This was the mood of everyone at the moment. Their pitiful brains could no longer keep up with the rapid development of the affair between Lord Qiansui and madam. Moreover, it seemed that madam had bullied Lord Qiansui…
F***, should they run to far away now? The storytelling books said that those who had seen the main characters’ affairs would be killed!
Thinking till here, everyone disappeared in a blink of an eye and was far away from the carriage. They only wished that they could go farther away. Helplessly, they were limited by their duties. They could only pretend with difficulty that they hadn’t noticed anything. Poor Ling Er seemed to not have regained her senses yet. She was still standing there dumbstruck…
Not long after, Zhao Zimu came out of the carriage in a sorry state. She was surprised when she saw the little girl standing at the front. Then, she kindly said to Ling Er, “Tonight, I will sleep with Ling Er.”
Having said that, she left with a smile, leaving only Ling Er flustered in the wind…
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