Without thinking, I directly say to David, "If we fight for probation, Frances will definitely know that I'm
pregnant. I don't want him to know about the child. I want to keep the baby, but can you think of a way
to keep Frances from knowing that I'm pregnant?"
Thinking that Frances’ going to marry Hilda soon, I'm so sad.
I love Frances, but what's the point?
The shot ends everything between Frances and me.
If Frances and I continue to tangle with each other, we will feel terrible pain.
"Are you not going to let Frances know? Do you mean that you want to stay in prison?" David frowns.
I nod.
Although there are things that scare me, the prison is the safest place for me.
At the very least, I won't know the news about Frances. And I won't know that he's going to marry
another woman and that he no longer loves me.
As long as I can't hear it.
I can deceive myself that nothing has changed between Frances and me.
"When the doctor examined you, he said that you have bruises. They are from the people in the prison,
aren't they? Those women are all criminals, so they're ruthless. If you insist on doing so, I can arrange
a separate room for you. Then you don't need to do the labor activities in the prison. So no one will
know that you're pregnant."
David makes good arrangements, so I nod.
Mindy walks over and pokes me hard in the head.
"Jane, are you stupid? You clearly have a chance to get out of jail and get back to Frances. Why do
you give up and go back to prison to suffer that kind of torture yourself? Look at you! You're really out
of your mind!"
I know Mindy takes pity on me.
Mindy won't understand my desire to escape.
Most of all, I shoot Frances.
I can't forgive myself.
I want to atone for my crime.
"Perhaps."
With a bitter smile, I look at the time and say to David, "It's getting late. I have to go now."
"I'll have David send you off." Mindy holds my hand and says reluctantly.
"No. I can go back myself."
I smile faintly and gently stroke Mindy's hair.
Mindy looks up at me with tears in her eyes, hugging me tightly all of a sudden.
"Jane, can you not be this tough? Can you not shoulder everything by yourself? You're obviously very
sad, but why do you still insist on going back? Do you know how distressed I feel when I see the
bruises on your body? Besides, it's only half a year since you give birth to Earl. Your uterus hasn't
recovered yet. What if you suffer from massive bleeding later? Do you have to risk your life for a child?"
Life?
I don't care about my life long ago.
If it weren't for the child in my belly supporting me, I thought that I may have been completely
disappointed and chose an extreme way to end my life.
Others will never know how much I love Frances.
Frances has merged into every part of my blood and bones. I laugh and cry for Frances. I miss him
every second I breathe, and my life is all about him.
But now, Frances doesn't love me anymore, which is like sucking my blood out of my bones. What's the
difference between me and a walking corpse?
I let go of Mindy's hand and smile at her.
"Mindy, it's my fate. I can't escape it."
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