CHAPTER 35.5: As Told by SadiaCade had insight on my relationship that I didn't. “He once told me that he assumed you didn’t expect
him to be monogamous before marriage. He made it seem like he only hiding it out of courtesy. I still
think it’s bullshit Sadia. He would have told you if you asked but he knew you wouldn’t ask. He could
have told you himself that he was still seeing other women.”
“Maybe…” It made me think that communication could have saved my engagement. If I knew from the
beginning that he’d see other women and would stop once we were married, I probably would have
been fine with that. Only because it’s not like we were together before. It’s better I wasn’t with Lexus
otherwise I wouldn’t have just had sex with someone who cares about me. “Anyways I had sex with
you because…”
“It’s okay, you don’t need to have a reason or need to tell me it if you do.” But I did have a reason that I
didn’t mind sharing, I liked Cade, but it felt too soon to be with him.
I turned over with my back to him. “You knew right?”
He hesitated. “Only towards the end, I tried to get them to stop. They planned to but then they wouldn’t
because they’re... ugh sorry I know they don’t deserve to have secrets because of what they did but-“
“It’s fine I don’t want to know.” Cade knew Lexus was cheating and that’s probably why he tried so hard
for me to see that I didn’t love Lexus and that he didn’t love me.
Pillow talk wasn’t something Lexus would do with me but it was nice that Cade would. I needed
someone to talk to. “I know you quit, I heard you yelling it at Lexus, where are you moving to?”
Cade turned onto his stomach. “I’ve been looking nearby. I have a lot I need to figure out. The king and
queen say I can stay without working until I find a place.
“I hope you find a nice place and better job.”“Do you want me to go now?” He referred to leaving my room.
I didn’t want him to leave. “No, you don’t have to.” I turned over to face him and he was smiling. Sex
with Cade was better than sex with Lexus. Lexus might have been more experienced and better in that
way but there was more emotion with me and Cade, so it meant more.
For the next couple weeks when I wasn’t hanging out with Lydia, Stella, or Cindy I hung out with Calvin
and Tam. When I wasn’t hanging out with either of those groups I was with Cade. He went on patrols
with me, we went on flights together, but we didn’t have any more sex. The sexual tension was always
there but we were taking things slow.
Cindy laughed. “When do you think, Cade is going to ask you to be his girlfriend?”
I shrugged. “I don’t think either of us is worried about that right now. We both got cheated on after being
in serious relationships. We don’t need the commitment yet.”
“I think that’s a good idea.” Lydia said. “I miss Hannah, she’s been so busy the past couple days and
we were already seeing each other less because of her new preparation to possibly become queen.” I
thought about how busy Lexus was but now I wasn’t sure if he was busy with preparation to become
king or with Aqua...
Later when I was hanging out with Cade I asked, “Are you okay?” We were in my room after he had
just come over.
Cade shook his head. “No one knows where Aqua is. The last time anyone saw her was two days ago.
If you don’t want me to talk about her, I understand.” We hadn’t talked about Aqua, Vella, or Lexus for
the last couple weeks.
“No, she’s your sister, it’s okay. Do you think she’s with Lexus?”Cade shrugged. “I don’t know, we don’t know where he is either. He’s not at any of the hotels in the
kingdom.” It sounds to me like they ran away together. “I tried to be there for her even though she knew
about Vella and Lexus. She was a mess the last week she was in the castle. The king and queen
worked her hard and she just didn’t seem mentally stable.” Aqua always seemed like a really sensitive
girl but it was hard to have any empathy for her. “The guards are out looking for her, but our Father and
Gray are really worried.”
I couldn’t help but be a little worried for her too.
I didn’t feel too good a week later. “Are you sick or something?” Calvin asked.
I shrugged. “I don’t know, I don’t get sick too often. Let’s just go for our run.”
“I don’t know Sadia, you’ve been like that for the last couple days.” Tam shrugged.
Calvin frowned. “Does it have something to do with Cade? Or…”
I shook my head. “No, I feel nauseous.”
Tam grabbed my wrist. “We’ll be back for the run, Calvin, hold on.” She pulled me into the pack house.
Next thing I knew she had me peeing on a stick. “I don’t think this is what it is Tam, I’m really careful.”
“When was the last time you had your period?”
I didn’t respond because it had been a while. When I finished, I pulled my pants up and Tam turned
around. “Now we wait, it’s important to know now…” Tam knew that well, the night of the festival she
had only got so drunk because she had miscarried. She didn’t want to feel the pain anymore.
novelbinWhen the results came in, I had her look first and by her expression I knew it was positive. She insisted
I take at least two more and they were positive. Unfortunately, my first thought was that I wanted to tellAqua. I’m glad Tam was here with me. I was pregnant but the problem was… I didn’t know for how
long, so I didn’t know by who...