I started telling him from the day when I talked with Tracy for the last time. We both had a deep
conversation about my education.
" How many times do you want me to say this, Maddy. You are talented. If you apply to this school, you
will be selected. You can study abroad for some years. This is a great opportunity for you. Please, don't
lose it. I want this for you." Tracy was convincing me for my own good. We will both miss each other if
this happens. But she's trying to do this for me.
" I'm not going anywhere. I want to be with you, mom and dad. I will leave you guys. I can't talk with
you over the phone, Tracy" I refused.
" I would feel the same, Maddy. I never got the chance when I was in high school. But you do. We can
talk over the phone every day for some years. I know you want this but you are hesitating. You are
afraid of leaving us. I will be with our parents. Then, one day you will come back, it will be great.
Please, agree. I will apply for it. I will do all other works to be done." She pleaded with me, with a
pamphlet.
I wanted this. I wanted to study abroad. And she knew it. If this is really good for us, I will do it.
" Okay. Fine. I'm convinced completely. But promise me, you won't miss a single day without talking
with me,"
" Never. I will call you every day. You are gonna tell me all about the new school, friends and even
boyfriend when you get one," She winked and went out of the room. I slept in the evening with
satisfaction that one of my dreams is going to come true (That was the last day I ever slept peacefully).
I woke up hearing a sobbing in the hall. I got out of my room to find my mom crying alone. She couldn't
even breathe properly. She had bloodshot eyes. When she saw me, she came to hug me. I didn't know
how to consult cause I have no idea about happened to her.
" What happened, mom? Why are you crying? Please, tell me,"
" Tracy...our Tracy died," I felt like I had a heart attack.
" What are you saying? She's fine. I talked with her an hour ago. She's..."
" She died in a car accident. Your father called me now. He's at the spot now. I couldn't go, Madison. I
can't bear it. I'm not capable of seeing her. I wish it's all a nightmare," She sobbed, hugging me tightly. I
can't consult her. I'm broken here after hearing her. Tracy's like my twin. We look alike. We always stay
together. Now, she went to apply to join me in a high school. She should have returned. Why didn't this
happen? If I know something would happen like this. I would have never let her out of the house. I
refused to study abroad. I should have stressed it and convinced her. Then I could have prevented this
accident.
Where is she now?
" What's the spot? Tell me the address, mom," I asked, without wiping the flowing tears in my eyes. My
mom told me the address and I slammed the door open, took my motorcycle.
" They must have already taken her body, Madison," My mom told as I left without a reply. I know I'm
already too late but I'm not giving up. I went as fast as I can until I reached the spot. I left my
motorcycle to fall on the road and ran towards my father. From the distance, I can see the terrible
crashed car. No. It's not true. Can't they save her? She can't be dead.
I couldn't see her anywhere near the car.
" Where is Tracy, dad? Tell me we can save her. She's not dead yet right. Mom should be wrong. Tell
me it's possible to save her." I shouted at me, waiting for the answer I want to hear.
" We can't save her, Madison," He replied with a single line, looking pale. I couldn't stop crying. I have
to see her one last time. One last time. I turned to find an ambulance near the car and someone is
closing a body and taking it inside the ambulance. I'm too late. My knees weakened. I was about to run
to reach before they close the door.
" Please, you don't have to see her, Madison. You can't bear it. Trust me, don't go," My dad caught me
without letting me see her. I'm too young to see death. Is that what he's trying to say. BUT IT'S MY
SISTER.
She's not supposed to leave me in this world alone. I will alone without her. She's one part of myself. I
can't lose her. I fell to my knees in the road, crying as they drove off the ambulance. I'm helpless.
A part of me died the day she died. And I know no one could fix it.
A day passed by. After that, the funeral happened. I couldn't dare to look at her face. I cried day and
night. My mom watched the news and cried and repeated the same thing for days. And I couldn't see
my dad. He didn't even come home for days and my mom didn't seem to notice that. Everything
became a mess in few days.
There are some parents been through this and recovered. I hope this will be applicable in my life too.
But it's not true.
" What are you doing, mom? How many times are you going to rewatch it? " I asked her as she's
seriously watching the news at midnight.
" I'm not watching the same news. The police couldn't find the truck driver who hit her. If they don't, I
will." She said with vengeance. This is clearly not going to be good.
" Stop it, mom. What are you going to do to the truck driver once you found him. You are involved in it
and forget about dad. Do you have any idea where he is? He hasn't shown up for days." I yelled at her
but she's unresponsive to me. She acted as if I'm not here.
I left her to do whatever she wants. I hoped she will return soon. But they both never did. My dad came
back drunk after some days and he's totally not capable to go to a job or take care of me. When a
month passed by, my mom didn't show up at door. I stayed alone bearing the pain of losing my sister
and losing my parents love. Whoever has been with me aren't here for me anymore. All I have is
myself.
But then I got a call from my Aunt. " Hello, Madison. Is it you?" Yeah, who could it be? I'm living alone
here for days. Day and night.
" Yeah, What's wrong, Aunt?"
" Did you hear from your mom? She found the driver who killed your sister and she killed him. She's in
jail now. I will come to take you there,"
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