Chapter 889 - Be More Confident Of Yourself
Lu Zihao's expression turned vicious. "Like he'll we'll break up! Not until our 30 days are over! Did I cheat on you?"
"N-no," Long Jinjing whispered.
"Then you have no grounds to break up with me!"
"But you lied to me! I can't be in a relationship with someone I can't trust to tell me the truth! Nikolai, I'm sorry but I can't do that. I just can't!"
He ground his teeth hard, causing his jaw to stiffen. His nostrils flared and a vein throbbed in his forehead. Then he let out a string of explicit curses.
"I told you I didn't lie," he repeated.
Long Jinjing had the strongest urge to kick him. She already knew that he was a very stubborn man but not to the point that he would keep on insisting that a clear lie was the truth. What was the problem of just admitting that he lied? Was it that difficult for him?
She didn't mind the fact that he had girlfriends before. That wasn't it. In fact, she thought that it was unbelievable that he had never been in a relationship before and he claimed that she would be his first girlfriend. However, she believed him when he explained that he had several women before as bedmates but not girlfriends. It turned out that he lied. Even Grandpa Lu knew that he had real girlfriends before.
In all honesty, the situation didn't need to cause such a serious and emotional reaction from her. There was no harm done after all. They could just brush it off and continue playing their roles in their 30-day relationship.
However, Long Jinjing felt hurt. All kinds of thoughts started muddling her mind and overcomplicating her emotions. Her main issue was that he lied to her. It didn't matter if it was a big or small lie. She didn't want to be in a relationship with a liar. She just couldn't!
Lu Zihao released a long, frustrated sigh. He let go of the blanket and rubbed his face roughly with both hands. Since he was no longer holding on to the blanket, it loosened a bit. She tried disentangling herself but to no avail. Her embarrassing clumsiness was magnified due to her agitated state. Like him, she also released a long, frustrated sigh at being unable to free herself from the annoying blanket.
"Jinjing, listen to me," he finally said.
She couldn't look at him directly in the eye so she fixed her gaze on his strong, chiseled chin instead.
Then he told her what he and Grandpa Lu talked about earlier when she was busy heating up his dinner in the kitchen. After his explanation, her agitated expression turned to worry.
"What?! Selective amnesia!"
She tried reaching out to him but almost stumbled instead because of the annoying blanket wrapped around her entire body like a mummy. He caught her and used that chance to secure her in his arms, trapping her once again. However, she didn't notice because she was worried about his health.
"Nikolai, your grandpa is right. We need to have a doctor examine you! You didn't even know that you have amnesia. What if you've forgotten other things but haven't noticed it yet? This is serious. Please, Nikolai. Let's go to the doctor, okay?"
He scowled. "No need."
"But—"
"I'm fine."
Yes, she wanted to kick this man. How stubborn and frustrating! But at the same time, she was beginning to feel bad about her overreaction. So he really didn't lie to her. He had selective amnesia just like what her younger sister experienced after her car accident.
She heard that Lu Zihao also had quite a serious accident before that left him in coma and even paralyzed for some time. Perhaps these eerily similar experiences contributed to why Lu Zihao and her sister Xiulan became so close and treated each other like close siblings. They could relate to each other's first-hand experiences on a deeper level.
Realizing her misunderstanding, she felt ashamed of herself. He was right. She was indeed such a hassle to deal with.
"I'm so pathetic," she muttered.
"I dare you to say that again!"
She looked up at him, startled and confused at his furious voice.
"Nobody is allowed to disparage my woman, not even herself. Why the hell do you think so low of yourself? Your lack of self-esteem is unacceptable!"
Her face and neck heated up but something warm and sweet filled her chest. She blinked at him a few times, letting his words sink in.
"Look at you. You're young and beautiful. You just graduated from school but you're already a Chief Financial Officer of a new but successful company. You're not lacking in money because you have the ability to earn it yourself. You're in a position that the majority of young women your age would envy. So why the f.u.c.k do you always belittle yourself? I don't f.u.c.k.i.n.g understand!"
She bit her lower lip to control herself from smiling. Despite his harsh and scolding tone, the words he said sounded sweet to her ears. He already got her when he said that she was young and beautiful.
"Be more confident of yourself, woman," he said in a gruff voice.
She nodded, finally smiling.
"And don't always say sorry when you've done nothing wrong. My woman shouldn't apologize so easily."
Her eyes widened. It looked like she was realizing something for the first time. "I've always…been like this. It's not a big deal, really."
"It is to me." He grabbed her chin between his fingers and lifted her head so that they looked eye to eye. "Sorry is just a word but it is a very powerful one. Don't just throw it around like free candies to everyone."
"Oh."
"Understand?"
"Y-yes, Nikolai."
"Good."
Then he dipped his head and smashed his lips against her slightly open mouth. His tongue immediately entered inside, causing her to block out their surroundings and feel only his kiss. She m.o.a.ned, wanting to hold him, but couldn't because of the blanket.
When he ended the kiss, she actually made a whining sound. Her face turned even redder upon realizing it. So embarrassing!