She could remember indistinctively from reading his diary that she saw an entry that read, "She cried again. I went to dry her tears."
His dairy had recorded more than ten years of their time together. She had finished it in one afternoon, so it was inevitable that there were details that she had missed. She needed to go look for his diary and read through it again. Perhaps there was information inside there that could help her explain this illogical situation.
Song Qingchun found Su Zhinian's diary in his study. The first entry began when he was eight, the year he was sent into the sanatorium. The first ten years mostly recorded his effort to search for and how he missed 'Tingting'.
Song Qincghun flipped through the pages until she reached the point where they graduated from high school and went their separate paths. Finally, she found some clues between the lines.
"2010, March 6th. Today is a weekend. The spring is coming back. Missing her so desperately, I flew to Shanghai. The moment I stepped into the school, I heard her crying. I looked for her for about ten minutes before finding her squatting behind the school's abandoned building, crying like a child."
In the year 2010, I was crying at the back of the school's abandoned building?
Song Qingchun titled her head to the side to jog her memory.
During the university years, I did shed many tears for Brother Yinan, but the amount of time I hid myself up and cried like a child can be counted on one hand… Mom passed away at the end of '09, so this incident in early '10 probably had something to do with Brother Yinan.
Right, I remember now, I was crying because I just found out about the news that Tang Nuan spent a night out with Brother Yinan… That was probably the first time in my life that I experienced memory loss. When I came to, the tears were already dried. I straightened up to look around, but the place was quiet and empty other than myself…
Song Qingchun lowered her head to continue to flip through the diary. Every few pages, she would discover entries about how 'she had cried'. Some incidents she could still remember the reason for, but others she only had fuzzy recollection of. However, all of them shared a similarity, and that was… they were related to the memory loss. So, perhaps her speculation was right. Su Zhinian was there when she was crying.
But how did he manage that without leaving a trace?
Song Qingchun couldn't come up with an answer. She continued to read through the diary until the entries from last year, and she read an entry that was even more shocking.
"It was today that I found out Tingting has secretly given me so many nicknames: Maniac Su, Sanitary Su, Silent Su, Cold-blooded Su, Diary Su, Poet Su… I love them all equally."
She had never dared to use the nicknames she gave him openly; she always whispered them under her breath. How did he manage to hear her?
Before the question regarding the memory loss could be answered, another new question had appeared.
Song Qingchun flipped through the diary, and she realized with a start that he had known about all of the nicknames that she had given him!
Furthermore, she found an entry that truly gave her the shock of her life. It recorded her argument with Tang Nuan inside Station TW's bathroom. He obviously wasn't there, but he had overheard their argument!