Seeing him after five years I smile with sincerity as there was no pain or hurt anymore between us.
I don't loathe or regret him. The only thing I'm feeling right now is pure happiness.
Today I didn't expect him to be here in this meeting as usually Jay and his son Jona attends. If I knew
he would be here I wouldn't have brought the twins today.
Yes, there wasn't anyone who could handle them back at home. I swear I called Tricia who came over
and take them outside as they were whinny and wanted to stay here with me but I just couldn't do that.
This meeting is important to me, as I will announce my resignation as a substitute luna to the
Owslebury Pack.
Yet seeing him today changes my mind and maybe I'll do that when I get back home.
A lot of things happened to me when I left him that night. I was able to go back to my grandma and took
Wesley with me then we move to Owslebury Pack.
It was a new Pack at the time and basically Alpha Jordan and his Luna Kristen was recruiting anyone
who wants to live a normal life instead of becoming lone and rogue.
So I settled there as it was a new start for me and over the years the pack extends and now we have
the largest number not bigger than Dante and Aaron.
Today I'm here as a luna because Luna Kristen is now bedridden and requested for me to be her
substitute for the meantime.3
It was either that or I have to mate Alpha Jordan fully and become their official luna.4
He's been a good and great Alpha but he wasn't the one I want, neither the one made for me. He
wasn't the twins father and I could never do that to my babies.1
It's something that I would never do since I am sincerely happy with what and where I am now
especially my two bundle of joy.
Having two pup is a blessing in to my life by the moon goddess after all the pain and hurt I went
through.
So yes they are Matt and mine.3
When I left I found out the later day that I was carrying his pups. I almost went back to him after a week
but I decided not to as I have my own reasons.4
I look from across the room and saw him looking at me and I swear his sons and mine, the ones he
never knew of are a copy of him.
Except one has dark green forest eyes like his and the other has sapphire like mine.
So they were kind of both our mixture when it comes to eyes. Other than that they both look like their
father.
Sometimes I complain that I was the one who carry them and in the end they have his look.
Nevertheless I love my pups as they are my saving grace.5
There are times that I always wander if I had made a right choice by not going back to him. Yet deep
down inside I always knew why I chose what I thought was right and it was the right choice.
Legacy is something I wanted to give to our pups without competition. I didn't want them to compete
with her son for their father's title or his love.
I didn't want them to ever grew up with thought like 'which is the most favourite and which is less
favorable? whom to inherit and whom to not?
What I did was for my pups and myself. I didn't want them to be torn between love and hate. Watching
them grown up with all the love and care I give along with their uncle's support was indeed the best
thing to do.
They knew who their father is cause I told them in vague details with no negative story line. Only to
replace it with the word complicated as I didn't want them to be grown up filling with hate and holding
grudges.4
I have also shown them his photo, that one photo we have together on the night of the Gala and our
mating which was given to me by Elle.
After the meeting I quickly got up to attend my sons. I found them both playing outside with Tricia
watching over them.
"Addasah" I turn around to find him standing not to far from me.
Like I said there was no hate or pain there but I would say my heart did race a little but not as badly as
it was when we were together.
"Hello Matteo" I gave him a smile but something was pulling on the edge of my skirt.
I turned down to find Matthew and Mason tugging on my skirt while both pointing at Matteo.
"Daddy" they both said more like screaming in unison. I swear these two are going to be the death of
me one day.
His eyes set on his sons with surprise. He then look back and forth between me and the twins who are
now running in his way.
As if he just notice and came out of his shocking state he sat down on his hunches spreading his arms
wide for them.
The boys run in to his arms hugging the life out of him. He laugh a little holding on to them with a look
as if he's about to cry.
Actually he is crying as he held them tight before pulling back and kisses on their forehead. I knew this
day would come.
Watching them as they have their own moments made me wish that we were a family but I know I
wouldn't go back or maybe that is just my thoughts for now.
He released them and I motion for Tricia to takes them away as I know Matteo has some questions. Yet
the two refuse to leave his side and so I have to convince them that their father will always be here and
he won't go away.
They pouted their lips folding their arms. Warning me that he better not disappear which I roll my eyes
at them promising that he won't.
They gave us both a kiss on the cheek before they happily left with Tricia.
He wipe off his tears "how long?"
"I found out a day after I left" I lick my dry lips nervously.
"I'm sorry" he apologise and stood up with, his eyes now filled with tears again but I only gave him a
smile, the ones that hid the sad and pain behind it.
"You know I won't stop you from seeing them" I said and he thanks me.
I know that he should be livid like other mate when they found out their mates have hidden his pups
from him. Yet I know Matteo so well.
He will never be mad at me,especially when he knows he has done so many wrongs towards me.
We both stood there watching our sons as they both play with Tricia before we turn and gaze into each
others eyes.
Looking at him this upclose did not bring anymore pain to me. I am happy but I am reluctant when I
truly saw that he is not the same old Matteo.2
My thoughts now keeps running through my head and in my head I was repeating every words that I
practice to tell him but never get the chance to after everything that happens.
Even now I don't have the courage to say it out loud except to replay it in my head while gazing up at
him.
'we could be one of the couple like Elle and Eric or Dante and Dani.
We could have been a happy family together with our kids both grown up.
Unfortunately we could not have all of it.
And this distance between us was all because you lie to me Alpha."
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