Chapter 232: A Venerable's Thoughts
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She had to admit it, perhaps she acted a bit too aggressive there.
"Hm. Perhaps… I shouldn't have tried to attack them. Well, that girl's other mind attacked me, I was bound to get angry. Though, I suppose I should try a more peaceful approach this time around. Just going ham on them won't work."
She began to ponder what to do and recalled the power of Benladann and then Drake.
"She… her soul really did had chaos, and that thing within it, a strange element related to it… It was capable of easily melting my dream attribute… incredible. After the Venerables had sought such power as being able to assimilate chaos, someone finally did it… But how can she be born with it? Strange… Could her origins come from the outside of this world? The chaotic void that encompasses our world like an endless sea of all-consuming darkness?" wondered the fox girl, her tails waved around playfully.
"But then again, how is it even possible for us, otherworldly souls, to reach this place? We have to get through the Chaotic Void Sea, right? Or… The Reincarnation Wheel might be part of the ingredients necessary to escape…"
Escaping the world.
Since ancient times, since the beginning of all of it, the first Venerable had explored the confines of the world as the most unparalleled existence.
One of his strongest desires was to explore the beyond.
However, he could not.
And the next Venerables could not either.
All of them failed.
Why is it impossible to escape the world and met the outer universe?
The secret lies within the confines of the world, the Chaotic Void!
"The Chaotic Void would consume anything that cannot assimilate and become one with Chaos… Yet that girl's soul, she was already Chaos itself! She… She's my ticket to get out of here! I… no, I must calm down… I cannot screw this up."
She began to ponder about the dragon, whom the girl named Drake.
It seemed that both were related somehow.
She had offered him her entire inheritance, a Rank 10 Inheritance of a Venerable! Yet… he decided to keep the girl instead.
"Does he already knows about her ability? About the Chaos? Then… That Dragon is more knowledgeable than I first thought. Perhaps… he could be someone from before? Ah! The reincarnation of the will of a Venerable?!"
The fox woman began to ponder ridiculous theories because she didn't figure out something as simple as Drake having a romantic relationship with Benladann, the chaos girl.
"No, that would be way too ridiculous. Then what? Don't tell me a dragon is in love with her? Quite poetic… But then again, his ability with dream magic was outstanding. The very gift I gave to him to reward him ended going against me… Did he gain inner comprehension of the Dream Attribute through my dream? But even then, Dream Seal is a Rank 9 Divine Spell, how was he able to break it as a measly Rank 3! Perhaps the girl's chaos helped? Sigh…"
The fox girl continued to fly around the entire place, resting over pink clouds and sighing.
"This won't do, what should I do then?! Ugh… Ah! I have to just be friendly and try a peaceful approach then… Yeah, that might work… Or will it? I certainly just want to force my way into that Chaos girl, but even as I am now… Can I even do something with her? Fate is not allowing my full reincarnation, and theme as of now is but a mere accumulation of my mind and thoughts, a part of my consciousness which I divided into this dream long ago… I am very limited in what I can do." Sighed the fox girl.
For something as incredible as breaking Fate, the fox girl couldn't do it as she was now. The demon venerable of dreams was but a fragment of her former self.
"And who is more promising than that girl to destroy Fate though? Hmm… Fufu… Yeah, why should I try to forcefully make her my ally if I can just be friendly over it! I could even feed them everything they want so they can grow strong enough and break fate! But even with my resources… It wouldn't be enough, not at all."
The Dream Fox Demon Venerable pondered many questions as she walked in circles, wondering what she should do.
But in the end, she ended with a conclusion.
"All of this planning would end in nothing if he planned to never come back here… he has dream magic now, so… the possibility of him merely blocking this inheritance from letting him inside would be possible…" she sighed.
She began to regret her actions. Being so rude and aggressive didn't end being the best approach. Things could have been way better if she were nicer. But as a former venerable, she was arrogant and believed she could take anything she wanted with brute force, just as she always did in the past.
"I shouldn't be so arrogant; I am nothing but a fragment of my former self… I have become bored and insane; a little bit more than I already was… Now the only thing left for me is to pray for them to come back and prepare a good apology before they escape before I could say any other word…" she sighed.
"I blame this world for making me how I am now, but it wouldn't have been possible for me to become a Venerable without all of this suffering and hardships either… I suppose I am the one to blame for letting my power get the best of me. I've already lost everything that made me my former self. I do wonder, though… How is my soul doing? And where could she be right now? The Gates of Life and Death are tightly shut, only an event of cataclysmic proportions could open them again… And what will that be?"
She rested over a bed made of pink clouds, as she sighed.
"I might as well sleep until then…"
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