Chapter 476: You're Clearly Not Fine
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Shouta remembered quite well how it went.
The man he had killed… he still regrated it greatly.
Even though he had done it not without a reason.
It wasn't because he was arrogant…
It was more because it was a situation of life and death.
Or so, he thought, as he didn't took kindly of the intense bullying he had begun to suddenly receive from people he had never meet in his entire life.
This boy… this young man's name was Zephyr Jade Snake, the future husband of the sect master's daughter of the Jade Snake Sect.
He was a handsome young man who had inherited a strong part of the powerful Jade Snake Bloodline, and was deemed as a genius.
He was seen as the future sect master by many already, and his great talent with magic and also exceptional innate abilities of the Jade Snake Bloodline, combined with his incredible physical strength, made him someone memorably amazing.
But he was also a cocky bastard.
He was taught by his father to never pity the weak, and to always show how strong he was compared to them, so the weak would never dare to revolt and to always worship him as the strong.
This flawed teachings only polluted his mind as he grew older, and he became a stereotypical bully and arrogant young master.
He had seen in Shouta a target of his frustration and the stress he had been accumulating by being put into so many expectations, everyone wanted him to do this and that, and this only tormented his mind the more.
He liked to stress out by bullying others and tormenting them, sadistically seeing them break and cry in front of him, so he could reassure himself that he was stronger than these weaklings, reinforcing his ego, which maintained his fragile interior, filled with sorrowful emotions that were connected to the death of his mother and his harsh father's teachings.
Shouta had ended running away from the party and was going back home as the party was held in the Winter Lotus Sect.
But Zephyr followed him from behind with his three other lackeys, caught him, and threw him into a corner of the palace. They all began to insult him, to kick him, and to call him a loser that didn't deserved to be a descendant of such a prestigious family as the Winter Lotus Family…
Shouta who was royalty wasn't used to being treated like this, even though many spoke behind his back and looked at him badly, he has never been physically abused, making him go rampant in fear and desperation.
In an unexpected fit of horror and desperation, he ended piercing the chest of Zephyr with an icicle spear, ending the life of the talented young man who never expected this little boy to fight back, and had lowered his guard severely.
But instead of feeling like a winner, Shouta only felt guilty, what he had done was a sin. He belonged to the righteous sect's union, killing an innocent without any good reason was seen as a crime, and a crime that might even be punished with being hanged or spending hundreds of years in prison.
Of course, because he was royalty, he ended not being thrown anywhere, and was protected by Mikohime instead from the angered Jade Snake Sect Members that wanted his head on a stake.
A war ended breaking out later on, as any friendly term the two sects had quickly came to an end…
Shouta thought that if he had resisted the fists more, if he had tried to simply close his eyes shut and let Zephyr have his way with him… nothing of this would had happened.
If only he would had let him beat him to almost death, nothing of this would had happened…
It was all his fault, or so he thought.
He began to feel more and more depressed, as if his entire life was falling apart.
He even began to have nightmares after a while, dreaming about Zephyr's soul wailing at him, angrily shouting to him that he was his assassin…
This only tormented him more and more… he couldn't do anything.
He closed himself on his room, and had suicidal thoughts every day.
He wanted to kill himself.
Perhaps that might resolve the problem, and everyone would be happy again.
But that wasn't the case…
Kokoro, his mother, and Mikohime, his grandpa's sister, didn't wanted him to die. They loved him more than anything… seeing the little treasure of their life die would hurt them beyond belief.
Shouta was beloved by them, and he couldn't bring himself to suicide because he loved them too.
But he had ended escaping after he heard that some strange people came here looking for him.
Perhaps they were really going to kill him now.
Desperately, he jumped out of the window and escaped.
The fall was around 10 meters, but he had sued magic to float a bit over the air and his fall wasn't hurtful as there was snow below.
He ran and ran faster, reaching the forest nearby.
He gasped for air.
Despite how suicidal he was, he really didn't wanted to die…
"Sniff… Ungh… Mama… Papa… Grandma… Auntie…" he began to cry his family's names as he curled up near a tree, hiding from the world that had only treated him horrendously his entire life.
"Huh? Are you okay?"
However, the angelic voice of a little boy woke him up from his nightmares.
"Eh?"
A little boy, way smaller than him but almost of his same age. He was white-skinned, with cute emerald eyes, and black as the night hair.
He had a long cat-like tail, and also cat-like ears atop his head.
He looked very cute.
"Are you okay? Why are you crying?" asked the little boy, he seemed worried about him, despite having never meet him in his entire life until now.
"I-I am… fine…" cried Shouta.
"No… you're clearly not fine… Papa always said that it was fine to cry to let out your sadness, but if you cry alone, you'll never find anyone to pat your back and tell you that everything will be okay." Said the little boy.
"W-What…?"
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