Lily's tightens her hand under the table. She can feel there are two pairs of eyes from the opposite side
staring at her.
She turns her face away not to looking at Ryan, and then says softly and unnaturally, "No, I won’t leave
uncle."
"Great!" Adair claps his hands happily, and then, goes back to eat the meat on the plate.
Because of this little conversation, Lily feels a little uncomfortable afterwards. She is a little absent-
minded when speaking, and most of her attention is on the little kid.
After finish eating, she coaxes Adair back to his room to play toys. Then she comes back to the kitchen
to clean up the remnants.
Ryan doesn't like seeing any strangers in the house, which is similar to that man’s habit. That’s why all
the cleaning things naturally become Lily’s job.
She brings the dishes and chopsticks into the sink, and is about to bend down to wash. Suddenly a hot
man body covers her from behind.
"Ah!" Lily gets shocked and screams out. She quickly turns around and sees a very familiar face behind
her, "You scared me to death!"
Ryan glances at the bowls and chopsticks in the sink, lowers his head closer and frowns, "You smell
like hot pot."
Lily feels dumbfounded. She pushes him, "Who asks you to smell it."
"Why did you think of preparing these today?"
"Isn't it Christmas? I wanted to cook something to eat."
The man curls his lips and looks at her with a meaningful smile, "That's it?"
Lily is not good at expressing her feelings. She nods her head with a little embarrassment when he
asks, "Recently, I have been too busy at work to take care of family affairs. I finally have time..."
"Lily." Ryan interrupts her with helpless smile, "Can’t you admit that you do all of these because you
want to compensate me. Don’t you feel tired to find so many excuses?"
Lily's head gets even lower now with shame.
"Don’t you know that you are not good at hiding your emotions from your face except for work?" Ryan
understands everything since he walks in the room seeing her being so active with housework.
Lily is annoyed by what he said, "It’s ok that you know it. Why do you say it out loud..."
"If I don't say it, I'm afraid you won't admit it." He retreats slightly, "What do you think about what Adair
said today?"
Lily doesn’t know what to say when he suddenly mentions Adair. "The kid talks nonsense. It’s because
he likes you with his heart, he doesn't want to be separated from you."
"Don't change the concept. What he said is that he wants you to be with me." Ryan wants to talk
straight forward. "It's been five years. Even the kid wants us to be together. Do you want to do so?"
"What nonsense are you talking about..." Lily feels hot suddenly and a little bit contemptuous. She
struggles to move a small step back, staying away from him.
"Okay. Do you want to run when we just start talking about it? Where can you go?" Ryan completely
loses his grip. The light in the kitchen is not on, but the light in the dining room comes in. It’s not too
dark, also not too bright, it is just right to say something personal. The man looks at her with
tenderness in his eyes, "This is the happiest Christmas I have ever had, thanks."
Lily whispers, "You don't need to say thank you to me."
This man is not only a benefactor for her. He has done too much for her, like Harry and Bree.
Thoughts flash by; she starts thinking of Harry and Bree. It is New Year after today. She doesn’t know
how they are...
Over the years, Ryan has been helping her pay attention to her parents in China. Fortunately, neither of
them has any major physical problems.
Ryan notices the changes of her emotions. He remembers she has been in a daze at the photos of her
parents on the phone screen several times before. He understands, "Homesick?"
She was ok before. Once he says it, she can’t help feeling sad. She can't stop the feeling; soon her
eyes get red, "Well, kind of."
People get homesick more in festival season. She didn’t have any deep feelings before she comes to
the UK. After five years of separation, she now deeply understands the meaning of this sentence.
Among these things, the most innocent people are the loved ones. They feel the most pain.
Sometimes in the night, Lily would think if Harry and Bree knew that she is still alive and even have a
child of this age, how would they react?
They will be happy. There is nothing more comforting for them than knowing she is alive.
But the more she thinks about it, the guiltier she feels.
Suddenly a dry palm covers her hand. Lily abruptly raises her eyes and sees his eyes. She feels
drowning into this pair of eyes, He says slowly, "Do you want to go back to check?" "
Her heart pumps so fast.
In the past five years, they have been switching away from domestic topics consciously or
unconsciously. Harry and Bree are exceptional. Other than that, they have not discussed anything else.
Like what she said when she came. She ‘forgot’ everything about that place. Although they are in her
heart, she never mentions anything initiatively.
Although Ryan has never had excessive demands on her, the people and affairs in J City are definitely
a big forbidden zone for him.
Now he suddenly mentions it. Lily gets a little shocked and also confused, "Why?"
"Go back and have a look, so that you can let go of the thoughts in your mind." She understands what
he means by his look and his tone.
She gets serious, "I have nothing to let go, I just miss my parents."
Ryan stares at her deeply, and doesn't say anything more, "You can decide yourself."
"Uncle, uncle! I have finished the puzzle. Come and take a look. Don’t you say I can’t do it well? I won!"
Adair opens the door and shouts.
Ryan glances at her, turns around and walks towards the kid's bedroom, leaving Lily alone here.
Go back?
Forget it; she is not ready for this yet.
In the past five years, she avoids all domestic current affairs news deliberately or unintentionally, just to
avoid the information about that person. She is afraid that she will want to know more. In her
relationship, she was trapped. To come out, that’s all she can do.
The wounds that were once left will not be healed with time. It is just covered up and put on a strong
shell. Once the scar is taken off, there will be a blood running out again.
It may not be a good thing for everyone if she comes back now. It has been so long. There is Adair
now. There is no need to make more troubles. When the time is right, she will take Harry and Bree
here. That’s a good idea.
Thinking of this, Lily can't help but think of that man in her memory. After so many years, she doesn't
know what he is doing, whether he has a family, or whether he is accompanied by other women.
But no matter what, they are already the most familiar strangers to each other.
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