He suddenly asks this question. Eunice is amazed. Her mind goes blank for a few seconds. After
thinking for a while, she realizes that he is referring to what she said when she was eating.
She looks at the man beside her in surprise and says, "I don't have a boyfriend. I deliberately said that
because I didn't want Adair to continue the topic."
At that time, she is afraid that it will be embarrassing to continue, so she says that she has a boyfriend
already.
The man's gaze is fixed on her fair face. The doubt in his heart quietly faded, but his face is still tense.
"Since you don't have a boyfriend, don't lie. I don't want to make Adair sad."
"Sad? Eunice blinks her eyes. She doesn't think that she has done anything wrong. "He...isn't sad, is
he? Besides, he doesn't know what it means to like someone at his age. I was just afraid that we might
be embarrassed."
Unexpectedly, Ryan doesn't care at all, saying, "I'm not embarrassed, and I won't think too much."
Eunice does not know what to say.
'Is he saying that he doesn't like me at all, and I shouldn't take it seriously?' Eunice talks to herself.
She doesn't think there is anything wrong at first, but she is somewhat distracted by his inexplicable
words. She can't help but complain to him, "Since you don't care, so what if I say I have a boyfriend?
Adair's just a child. How could he be sad about something like this? I'm also afraid of being
misunderstood, OK?"
Ryan frowns again, "Being misunderstood?"
"That's right. There is nothing between you and me. I said that I had a boyfriend, so that Adair wouldn't
think too much about it." Even Eunice does not notice that she is saying these words with a tone of
blame.
It is as if her own feelings had been rejected and ignored by others. She wants to pretend to be Okay
and fight back.
If Ryan was just a little depressed just now, then he really doesn't want to waste any words now. He
directly walks past her into the hotel lobby.
Eunice grits her teeth and follows him closely. When she arrives at the elevator entrance, she steps in.
Behind her, the elevator door closes. She and Ryan are reflected on the mirror wall of the elevator.
Thinking of what happened today, Eunice whispers, "You like Adair very much, don't you?"
Ryan puts both of his hands into his pants pockets and stands there casually. He's still very charming.
He only indifferently gives her a glance and does not reply.
Eunice is accustomed to his silence. She asks again, "How long has he lived with you since he is
young?"
"Five years," Ryan gives his response to her this time.
He blurts out this "five years" without hesitation. Eunice realizes that he must be very happy to recall
the past five years. Otherwise, he would not have said "five years" so straightforwardly.
Those five years must have been a rare time for him to be together with that woman named Lily.
He has loved her so deeply, but why hasn't he been able to win her heart in five years? Why is Lily
thinking? Why is she completely unmoved by such a man?
Ryan's figure is tall and upright. When all the noises fade, it is so quiet again. He often stays alone, but
who will really fall in love with loneliness? He doesn't want to be alone, but he has no other choices.
Thinking of this, Eunice feels a little sympathetic towards him. Ryan seems heartless, but he is actually
snoopy.
The elevator bell rings.
It has reached the floor, and Eunice's meditation is broken. They walk out of the elevator. Ryan's room
is opposite to hers. Seeing that he is going to walk to the other side, Eunice quickly takes a step
forward and calls out to him, "Ryan."
She rarely calls him by his given name. Normally, she calls him Mr. Ryan, which is polite but distant.
However, as a matter of fact, she has cursed him more than a hundred times secretly.
"You like Adair because he is Lily's child, right?" she musters her courage to speak. There is a voice in
her heart that keeps urging her to say what she wants to say, "Lily has already had a family. What's the
point of doing all these things for her in vain?"
Hearing her words, Ryan stopped. Under the dim yellow light in the corridor, he slightly tilts his face.
His solid handsome facial features are even sharper carved under the light. "You don't understand," he
says.
"No, I don't." Eunice lets out a deep breath and says unconvincingly, "I have never been in love before,
so I'm not qualified to teach you a lesson. But shouldn't you stay with her if you really like her? Other
than satisfying your own sadness, what's the point of sacrificing so much?"
She doesn't think that the princess needs a Black Knight. The princess has a prince, and the Black
Knight should move on and pursue his own happiness. Otherwise, sticking to the princess will only get
him upset for nothing.
Ryan suddenly clenches his hands tightly, which are hanging at his side. He tries his best to keep calm.
No one dares to talk to him about Lily, including his subordinates. No one has ever said a word.
Everyone knows that Lily is his taboo, but Eunice actually asks him such questions.
He thinks that he will be furious because of her words, but he doesn't. He doesn't expect that he would
just stand here and say to her word by word, "What do you think feelings are? Can you just take them
back anytime you want? Me and Lily—we used to rely on each other. There is something more
precious than love between us. You think I'm the only one who gives, but she gives more than you can
imagine. I'm not a good person, but I'm not heartless."
To outsiders, he is always indifferent, like ice. However, to those who he treasures, he is always warm,
like a burning piece of iron.
The first time he and Lily met, she saved his life. After that, he has been repaying her. He is repaying
her kindness, but he is also being selfish. He used to be a marginal person without emotions, but in the
past five years, he had been moved by Lily. Lily brings him liveliness and real emotions, which have
turned him into a normal person at last.
Eunice bites her lips. She does not know anything about their past, nor does she have any right to
comment on his behaviors. However, looking at just how depressed Ryan is now, she feels an
indescribable bitterness. It is as if she has seen a mirror image of herself, struggling and yet giving up
again and again.
After a long time, she loosens her lips. She says firmly in a yet light voice, "Don't you want to be
happy? Don't you feel sorry for yourself?"
Unexpectedly, Ryan does not hesitate to say, "I was happy before. That's enough."
Eunice has no words to say.
Some people have been in love several times, and even have more than one marriage. However, they
may not be able to meet the person who truly understand them or the person who they love deeply.
Ryan has not won Lily's heart, but he is lucky enough to meet her—the person who he really loves. He
says that this is enough.
Eunice's heart seems to have been hit by something. It doesn't hurt, but it can't stop trembling. Looking
at the figure disappearing at the end of the corridor, she feels somewhat excited yet breathless.
Her heart keeps beating wildly. She lifts her hand to cover her left chest, where her heart is. She tries
as hard as she can to restrain the throbbing. It is like a storm pouring on her.
She turns around, opens the door, and enters her room. Leaning against the door, she throws the room
card on the table. The room is quiet, and the dazzling night outside the window meets her eyes through
the white gauze.
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