Lily sees the vulnerability in his eyes. She sees a proud man who longs for her understanding and
another chance.
Lily never expects him to do all these tonight and is totally unprepared. She looks at the rose petals
and candles and the exquisite surroundings, she is moved. This man has been used to being high and
mighty and so each time he lowers himself, she will soften her heart and concede. She was like that
five years ago, and she is the same now.
She composes herself and then says, “I didn’t expect to bump into you five years later, much less to
return to J city with you. All these happen so fast and I don’t know…”
“I know, I know.” His voice was quivering as he can feel the ripples in her heart. “I don’t expect that you
completely forgive me and not hold a grudge against me. I just hope that you’ll give me a chance and
let me take care of you and the child.” Rex says sincerely. Thinking of them being alone all these years
without him by their side to take care of them, he feels very guilty.
Lily couldn’t resist her tears and the crystal-clear tears start to flow. She shakes her head and is afraid
that she is mistaken, “I don’t want your pity or you to make amends. I don’t need them.”
“I didn’t pity you and it’s not out of pity that I’m doing this. We are the ones hurt by this. So what right do
I have to pity you?” Rex looks towards her tear-soaked face and frail demeanor. He couldn’t resist and
goes forward to hold her into his embrace. His fingers lovingly hold her tear covered face and he
slightly bends forward with his forehead against hers while looking into her eyes.
Lily is dazed and couldn’t control her sobbing. She almost sinks into the loving embrace when she
remembers when she was imprisoned five years ago. Lily feels a chill running down her spine.
“What’s the matter?” Rex notices her changing expression.
Lily sobs and says, “Rex, you kept asking me why I’m unwilling to be with you, it’s not that I’m unwilling
and there isn’t someone else. I have never been with anyone else. There isn’t anything going on
between Ryan and me. But I can’t forget the feeling when you sent me to prison. When I went to
America, I was pregnant with Adair. I couldn’t sleep well because I kept dreaming of the damp bed and
the four white walls of the jail cell. It was frightening. I felt as if I was a murderer. I trusted you so much
to ask you for help but you made the decision that I feared the most. It took away my last glimmer of
hope in my most desperate moment. I can’t forget those…”
This is the first time she mentions about what happened five years ago. Rex knows that she is
exposing all these to let him see how hurt she is.
“It’s my mistake and my fault. I was too conceited and thought that it was for your own good and made
the decision regardless of your will. In the end, you had no choice but to leave. I know that saying
because all these are too late. What was wrong was wrong. That’s why now I want to do my best to let
you and Adair have a comfortable life.” Rex holds Lily’s face with both of his hands and sees her tear-
soaked face. His heart aches but his love for her rages strongly. “There’s something that I never had
the chance to say.”
Lily looks into those deep eyes and almost is ignited by his raging feelings. Her heart pounds hard for a
moment and quickens the next, causing her four limbs to tremble. She feels as though something is
about to erupt from inside her.
Everything around them quiets down and she can only see him and nothing else.
After a while, she hears his slightly choking voice, he trembles as he says…
“Lily, I love you.”
Her entire strength is sucked away by this announcement and she has no means to resist. She looks at
him in a daze.
He loves her, regardless of the intensity they had five years ago, or presently, the conditions have
changed but the feelings never changed.
We bring nothing to this world and we take nothing along when we leave. If you think about it, life is like
an autumn rain and a dream. The only one that can change and stay behind is the person that loves
you.
She doesn’t live a vain life. At least she had him and these five years were not for nothing. She had
him.
Lily knows how important “Love” is to this man. And because of this she is so shocked right at the
moment. He never says this easily because it meant too much to him. Now that he has expressed his
feelings so sincerely, how could she not have any reaction to his sincerity?
Rex sees her dazed look. He is like a person on the dock waiting to be sentenced. He has said what he
had to say and wanted to say; now he can just await her decision.
Time ticks by but the petite woman in his embrace doesn’t react. The romantic atmosphere starts to
lose its magic due to the pause. Rex’s arms start to stiffen while continuing to hold onto her.
He is nervous and unsettled. He is dying for her answer but does know if she will reject him. He doesn’t
dare to ask or to hasten. He can only wait.
The candles next to their feet flicker. They were all good-quality scented candles. As they burned, the
room was filled with a faint lavender fragrance instead of wax odor. But Lily couldn’t smell as she is
overwhelmed by the man’s scent.
A scent of familiarity and comfort.
After a long while, Lily regains her senses and she is enveloped by the manly embrace. The countless
images of intimacy flood her mind. Her blood flows through her limbs while stirring in her heart. Her
pulse beat wildly and then gathers on her left chest. Now she realizes that his touch and
announcement of his love for her are things that she can’t ignore.
Actually, rationally she should get as far away from him as possible. She should do it like she did these
five years to maintain a clear separation. But she couldn’t control herself. She realizes that it isn’t
because she was strong that she maintained her silence for these five years. But she never had a
chance to disclose it all out.
It’s useless because in her heart she still loves this man.
When she thinks about this, the tears began to pour again. Lily cried pitifully. The suppressed feelings
of these five years erupt, “Oh Rex, you scoundrel, do you think that your apology and proposal will
settle all matters? Do you know how difficult it had been these five years? I bore you a child, take care
of him, and I gave you a big part of my youth. I did these for you even though there was no response.
All because of you scoundrel…!”
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