Chapter 399: Why Is It Him
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
The next day, Xia Ling went to the Imperial Entertainment office building as usual and saw Feng Kun.
Feng Kun told her that he had already settled everything with the old doctor. Next Wednesday, he would be the only one present in the specialist clinic, so if she picked that time to visit, he would definitely be the one treating her.
Xia Ling felt as if a huge boulder had been lifted off her shoulders.
However, not long after, she was worried again. “What about the medication that I used…?”
Feng Kun frowned this time. “Xiao Ling, this is also something I have to tell you. You have to think carefully about whether you want to keep this child. I’ve checked the medication list in the hospital you stayed at and realized that you used antibiotics. Although the ones you used were not the most harmful to pregnant women, there is a chance that they may hurt your fetus.”
Xia Ling’s face turned ashen.
This was the result that she was the most worried about and did not think that it would be the reality. This child was hard to come by, and to protect its life, she had already put in a lot of effort. Now, she was being told that perhaps it could have defects?
She started to regret not listening to Lin Yunan’s advice at the start. Why didn’t she use a substitute? If the paragliding accident did not happen, she would be happy and safe with Li Lei, and they would look forward to the smooth birth of their baby together. However, that accident changed everything.
She was separated from her beloved, and even their unborn baby was in danger.
She was increasingly convinced that Xia Moyan was right. It seemed that she really was destined to have a life of a widow, which was why even her unborn baby was affected. She felt that she was the world’s worst mother. Other mothers were able to take care of and protect their children, but she caused it pain from the start.
She looked mournful as she gently stroked her lower abdomen with her slender fingers.
Feng Kun was distressed after looking at her appearance, but he could not do anything about it. He only whispered. “You should think carefully; this child may have defects. However, it can also be very healthy if it’s lucky.” Should she abort the child or give birth to it? This was a very serious decision, and no one could help her make it. Only she could think carefully and decide. However, it was cruel for a girl who was already suffering immensely to make such a serious decision.
Xia Ling did not speak. She sat on the soft sofa and kept stroking her lower abdomen. She remained in that position for the entire day. She was helpless and hesitant. How could she bear to abort her child? However, if she did not abort it and it had defects, what should she do? If the child was ridden with illness once it was born, how could she bring it into this world to suffer? Just for her own desires?
There was a burning fire in her heart which scorched her.
She was in a trance and did not know how she returned home. She ate dinner as usual and did not even hear what Pei Ziheng said clearly. Like a sleepwalker, she went to shower and laid on the bed to sleep.
Pei Ziheng undid his tie and walked to the bed beside her and then touched her forehead. “Are you sick?”
She uncomfortably turned around to back-face him.
Pei Ziheng gently said, “I’ll call the family doctor over.” Her recent physical condition was not quite right, and he felt that he could not let this drag on any longer. He needed the doctor to check what exactly was wrong with her.
Xia Ling heard what he said and became a little more awake.
She turned her body around, sat up and said to him, “Pei Ziheng. Don’t call a doctor.”
“No matter how much you don’t like injections and medicine, you shouldn’t take your health as a joke.” Pei Ziheng frowned. “You promised me that you would rest well, but it seems that you’ve become more lifeless.”
She half-closed her eyes. “Pei Ziheng, I hate you.”
Her voice was very soft.
If it weren’t for him, she would be lying in Li Lei’s arms discussing the baby. Regardless of whether they were going to keep the child, there were people facing this difficult decision with her. As long as the child’s father was beside her, even if the world fell apart, she would still feel safe. However, now, she had no one to lean on and could only huddle in this lonely and dangerous cage while asking herself over and over again on what she should do.
Pei Ziheng got up to take his phone near the bed.
“I don’t care if you hate me.” He said, “I only want you to be healthy.”
Suddenly, she got up from the bed and dragged him back, refusing to let him make the call. “I hate you, I hate you!” The accumulated resentment in the last few days was suddenly released all at once. “Pei Ziheng, do you think you are invincible? Do you think you are very impressive and can dominate everything?! What gives you the right to force me to stay by your side? What gives you the right to make me do things I don’t want to do?! Pei Ziheng, you’re a beast! Let me go! Let me go!”
She bawled hysterically.
Pei Ziheng’s expression suddenly darkened and his facial muscles tightened, but he did not say anything.
She screamed at him with tears streaming down her face and punched him continuously. He was unprepared for her sudden outburst. It turned out that the peace over these few days was just a superficial act.
He lifted his hand and squeezed her chin tightly, forcing her to look at him. “Xia Ling, what gives me the right? I have the right because I saved your life, and that means your life belongs to me!”
She shook her head. Her pale face was covered in tears. She sobbed as she hit him until she lost all her strength and finally collapsed in his arms.
Pei Ziheng slowly closed his eyes.
After a long time, he gently laid her flat on the soft and comfortable bed and covered her with the quilt.
After that, he got up and went to the study.
There was a box of cigarettes in the study. He opened them and lit a cigarette. Soon, he lit them all one by one. Smoking was a bad habit he picked up only after her death. That period of time was too painful. If he did not find something to numb himself, he would not be able to get past it. Then, she returned, and he thought that he would be able to quit.
However, he smoked even more ferociously.
“Xiao Ling…” He bent down and buried his face in his hands. “This isn’t fair.” He loved her for 18 years. A total of 18 years in two lifetimes. What about the other man? Only two years.
How could she viciously turn her back on him and find a new lover?
The ash between his fingers fell to the ground. A dim red spark glimmered in the distance. In the silent room, no one answered him.
The next day, Xia Ling woke up and realized that the space beside her was empty, neat, and cold. It seemed that no one slept there last night. She was a little worried and did not know what the result would be after treating Pei Ziheng like that last night.
Uneasy, she washed her face, changed her clothes, and planned to go out.
Nanny Zhou stopped her. “Miss Ye, Mister told me to call the family doctor after you wake up to give you a full body check.”
Startled, Xia Ling frowned. “I don’t need it.”
“However, I have to be accountable to Mister.” Nanny Zhou was in a difficult position. “Furthermore, you really do need to see a doctor.”