Chapter 1906: I Want To Give Duo Duo A Beautiful Future
“But if Duo Duo finds out about her identity in the future, what do you think Gu Zhengrong will do? Will he forgive you for using another man to agitate him?”
Mr Li sank into sorrow. He did not know who was more important in Tang Xiaoyu’s heart, Gu Zhengrong or Duo Duo, but reality gave him an answer that made his heart ache.
“Mr Li, don’t worry. I’ll take good care of Duo Duo. She’s my only child. Gu Zhengrong merely put in some effort and provided her with something that any man can provide.”
“Do you really think that he’s just putting in a lot of effort? In your heart, he’s not as simple as he looks. Xiaoyu, don’t lie to yourself. In your heart, his position is much more important than you think.”
Mr Li looked at Tang Xiaoyu with a hint of heartache in his eyes. Looking at Duo Duo not far away, he could not help but sigh. “Xiaoyu, let me tell you as someone who has been through this. Sometimes, a girl can be as ruthless as a man, but you have to believe that this man might not be as despicable as you think.”
“Mr Li, you really don’t know the story between me and Gu Zhengrong, but please believe me. I don’t want to cause so much harm to myself. I want to give Duo Duo a bright future. I want to be the best mother in the world. I want to give her everything that I have and everything that is beautiful in this world. She’s too cute. She’s so cute that I don’t know what to do with her.”
Tang Xiaoyu looked at Duo Duo who was in the pram. The way she tried to speak made one want to dote on her.
“Xiaoyu, I understand how you feel as a mother now. I once had a child who was also a girl and was as cute as Duo Duo. Do you still remember that I asked you something on the plane?”
Mr Li looked at Tang Xiaoyu’s motherly glow and sighed.
“What?”
Tang Xiaoyu turned around and saw the gentleness in Mr Li’s eyes. This man seemed to have the gentleness and charity of a father.
“I once asked you, why did you return to America?”
“I remember that I only returned to America to take revenge. So, you said that you would support you later, and it was also because of Duo Duo. So, what you saw was fate. I benefited from Duo Duo. I didn’t even know that you were taking care of me on the plane back to America.”
“These are off topic. It’s been so long, and we’ve already gotten along like a family. It’s just that when I look at you and see you running around for Duo Duo, I feel especially sad. For a mother to have such tenacity for a child, perhaps this is a very common situation. Perhaps this is just an old man like me sighing.”
Mr Li mocked himself as he looked at Tang Xiaoyu with his eyes filled with heartache.
“That’s why I want to thank you, Mr Li. When I needed help the most, you were always by my side. For such a long time, I didn’t even have the chance to talk to you properly. I was just living with hatred. I almost forgot that I used to love this Gu Zhengrong so deeply, but he only hurt me. I don’t want to be a useless woman anymore.”
Tang Xiaoyu lowered her head. Sitting beside Mr Li, she exuded a strong sense of sorrow. Tang Xiaoyu suddenly recalled how painful it was for her to choose to have a child alone in the delivery room, yet no one could replace her.
She suddenly understood how painful it was for Pei Ge to give birth to those three children in the delivery room.
Death was not painful or uncomfortable. On the contrary, living was.
“Gu Zhengrong, you bastard!”
In the delivery room, Tang Xiaoyu kept calling Gu Zhengrong’s name when she was in extreme pain. It was as if she could only continue giving birth to Duo Duo by calling his name.
The extent of how deeply you love someone was reflected by the courage you have to hate someone.
‘When I love you, even if you put the sword in my heart right in front of me, I will still ask you if you feel how heavy this sword is. But when I start to choose to hate you, I will only pull the sword out and stab it in your heart in front of you.’
‘As I endure the pain it brought me, I will also choose to let you experience the significance of this sword in my heart in front of you.’
‘When I love someone, everything you say is right. But when I don’t love you anymore, no matter what, you are wrong.’
‘It is precisely because of this that you would say that I am a fickle person. However, the truth is that I have never changed. You have never truly liked me either.’
“Miss, is this boy’s father the man called Gu Zhengrong? Why didn’t he come with you? When a woman gives birth, it’s like walking around the gates of hell. He’s not a good father.”
The obstetrician in charge of delivering the child did not know what kind of status Gu Zhengrong was for Tang Xiaoyu. He only regarded this matter as a mature person, but if she knew about it, she might not think so anymore.
“Gu Zhengrong, he…”
Tang Xiaoyu’s eyes were filled with tears, but she realized that she could not explain to the obstetrician what status Gu Zhengrong was for her. He was the child’s father, her husband, and a complete stranger.
“Alright, alright. You should work hard to have a baby and focus all your energy on it. It’s fine if you don’t want those men who don’t even want their wives to have children. It’s just hard on you two.”
The obstetrician said regretfully.
Other people merely commented a few words, but Tang Xiaoyu’s heart was in turmoil.
Gu Zhengrong, Gu Zhengrong, Gu Zhengrong, where were you when I needed you the most?
“How do I have a man? It’s just my own wish. What right do I have? Hehe.”
Tang Xiaoyu laughed bitterly, her voice sounding more aged.
“The child is mine, not his.”