Chapter 764: To The End (23)
‘It’s done now. Right?’
Actually… I didn’t know what happened.
my head, the hot sensation I felt in my stomach interfered with my attempts to think properly. It definitely wasn’t a pleasant sensation. I constantly sensed a foreign object in me, which was seemingly pouring hot lava into my stomach.
As I looked down slowly, I finally saw the sword clearly penetrating my abdomen.
The clothes I was wearing were soaked in red, and I could feel something wet even in my bottoms.
‘Fuck… You really stabbed me.’
I couldn’t stop vomiting blood.
“Ah… uh… Cough…”
“…”
It was only for a moment that I felt Kim Hyunsung’s hand tremble, sending vibrations to my body.
I didn’t know what he was thinking.
The Regressor Instruction Manual hadn’t yet been cut off, but I couldn’t figure out what he was thinking at that moment.
He wasn’t careful about me being able to read his thoughts. Wouldn’t it be best to say that his mind had become perfectly blank?
‘Revenge is nothing. This bastard is acting too weird right now.’
“Ah… Uh…”
‘Isn’t the timing right now?’
My hand was constantly going towards Durendal, which was stuck in my stomach.
As I looked into the telescope while grasping the sword’s handle, I realized that the timing was certainly not bad.
It was the same image as the future I saw through Yuno Kasugano.
Cha Hee-ra was confronting the enemies with a spear plugged all over her body. Jung Hayan and the gold dragon were showing the same scenery as the future as well.
I couldn’t see it through Kasugano, but I could see Dialugia falling to the ground as if I had affected her.
‘Ah, I forgot about Dialugia.’
It seemed that it was almost time except for minor issues.
Kim Hyunsung wasn’t looking down at me with cold eyes, but maybe he would do that soon.
I hadn’t passed out yet. I was definitely passed out in the future, right?
I thought of forcibly staggering and lying down, but I didn’t want to take an unnatural action.
Waiting for the right time naturally is ideal.
“You… You… took away… my life.”
“…”
“It’s… It’s all your fault. It’s… It’s all your fault. I didn’t do anything wrong. I… I… I didn’t do anything wrong. I don’t even need to… feel guilty.”
He wasn’t talking while looking at me. Kim Hyunsung was muttering to himself as he looked at his hands soaked in blood. It was creepy that he couldn’t feel anything even while talking to himself, but perhaps things would be sorted out in his head soon.
One problem was that he still wasn’t looking at me.
And…
‘Weren’t you supposed to appear when the sword pierced through my stomach?’
There was no further feedback from Lucifer. The future I saw in my head hadn’t been completed yet, but I hoped I could see some signs.
‘No, really. Won’t I die at this rate?’
The feedback would come when the scene was complete, right? It would be delivered right after the cold gaze was shown, right? If I really just died, what about Dialugia? I didn’t want to die like this. I wouldn’t be lonely since I wasn’t dying alone, but I didn’t want it anyway…
I knew that couldn’t be the case, but it wasn’t unreasonable to be anxious.
My consciousness was becoming blurry, and it was really hard to stand. I wanted to fall when he looked down on me, but that bastard still wanted to look at his hand and didn’t take any other reaction.
Finally, I watched him raising his head slightly, but he seemed to be hesitant. I wasn’t certain what face he was making because I couldn’t see it properly.
I turned the telescope slightly and looked at his face…
‘Why is this bastard crying?’
I saw tears dripping with a distorted face.
‘Are you crying?’
“You… ruined me. You… the innocent me… you… you… dragged me into a hellish place.”
“…”
“You took everything from me… Everything… you killed all my dear ones and took away what I valued… this is a fair judgment. Very… fair… you… bas… bast…”
“…”
‘Right, you have to raise your head. That’s the normal thing to do. Isn’t it the most daunting thing to see how your target of revenge is dying? Mock me. You have to show your cold eyes quickly.’
It seemed that there was still no feedback because the scene didn’t seem to be complete yet.
‘You know, the eyes full of hatred. Or maybe you have to look down with eyes that seem to have no feelings at all.’
I thought I was just going to pass out. My legs were getting rubbery… Now that I was falling, he definitely had to look down like that. He had to look at me as if he was looking at trash. He should know that.
Slowly, my body began to fall.
I noticed Kim Hyunsung reaching out his hand without knowing it. Although it seemed to have tried to grab my body, I couldn’t tell why he was doing that.
“Huh… Ah… Ah…”
He was muttering that strange sound. He couldn’t even hold me right. I didn’t know if it was simply slippery because of the amount of blood on his hands, but it was something that I couldn’t understand. Considering Kim Hyunsung’s stats, that wasn’t possible.
Maybe it was because he was exhausted. His actions seemed to be telling me that he was out of his mind. Thanks to that, I was able to dramatically twist back, but…
My mind had become increasingly blank. I couldn’t even feel my body attached to the ground anymore.
In the meantime, Kim Hyunsung’s face was still worrying. It also felt like something unconditionally reflective.
Before I even thought about it, my body moved first. My breathing became faster and faster, but at the same time difficult. I was only groaning, unable to speak properly. I wished Lucifer had a surprise party coming in, but there were still no signs of such a thing happening.
Kim Hyunsung was looking at me with concern. Instead of being cold, his eyes were trembling.
‘This son of a bitch…’
Wasn’t the bond blown away? How was he doing that? What was going on? What was wrong with him? Fuck. He shouldn’t repair it by himself right after I had torn and blown it all up.
‘Is this possible? Don’t resist. Again, fuck, don’t pick it up and put it back. Don’t pick it up again. Should I have not said, “I believe”? Did that snowball roll in this direction?’
Of course, there was no guarantee that the cold-eye ending was the switch. Lucifer might be preparing something else, and there was a chance that she would really appear just before I stop breathing.
Still, I didn’t like that he was trying something new.
From my perspective, who wanted to completely block other what Hyunsung was trying to do was nothing more than taking risks.
Regardless of my will, the image I saw before came to mind once again. It was the bond with the guy I’d struck with my hand.
‘I am… I am a regressor.’
Yes, he was the regressor of Altanus because of my choice. Hence, he didn’t have to do anything useless. He shouldn’t spoil the picture I drew. All he had to do was what I told him to do. How could he not understand that?
‘I hope you will receive it. It has a meaning of apology, and in many ways, it will be something that Kiyoung needs.’
I didn’t need anything. He just had to shut up and focus on his role.
‘I was admittedly being a little disgraceful.’
Did he know what’s the ugliest was what he was doing at that moment? What was he going to do with the pieces that had already been shredded back? Could he handle it? Could he handle what he had done?
‘Do not! Stop! Don’t let me carry any more burden!! Anymore!! Kiyoung! Get out of there! Get out of there! Do not… Sniff… Stop. What can you do anymore… No more what you do…’
I wanted him to stop what he was doing and get out of there. What was he going to do anymore? What was he going to do here? The future was changing. Unplanned twists were what I hated the most.
‘I’m sorry.’
He shouldn’t do anything to be sorry for.
‘Kiyoung?’
I didn’t want him to call my name.
‘I believe.’
Son of a bitch. I couldn’t believe anything anymore. Fuck.
‘Of course. I’m thinking that you’ll be carrying my burden together.’
Didn’t he take it off already? He didn’t have to lift it again. He was doing something he would regret in the end.
I could feel the things that had already been shattered sticking back together. I wasn’t in a state where I could in the first place, but even if I were, I still wouldn’t be able to say anything because it was absurd.
Indeed, Kim Hyunsung was resisting the Regressor Instruction Manual. No, it might be that my dominance had weakened because I was dying, but even if I tried to control him once again, he showed no further reaction.
Things I’d seen before continued to pass through my head. I had already seen it once, but it contained all the matters I inadvertently handed over.
There was a tremendous feeling of guilt. The way he was trying to cope with the emotions that he didn’t have to deal with was enough to make him look ridiculous. I couldn’t believe he was putting it back over and over again.
“D… D… Don’t… do it.”
“…”
“No… No… Cough…”
“Huh… Ugh… Sniff…”
“Son… of a… bitch… Stop… Cough…”
The future was changing. When I looked at Yuno Kasugano to confirm it, I saw her standing up.
Her face seemed perplexed. She looked very confused about the unplanned situation.
Scenes passed. Cha Hee-ra was smiling with all the spears stuck in her body, and Jung Hayan was swinging a part of Sora’s entity and conjuring more spells.
The timing for Kim Hyunsung to look down at me with cold eyes had already passed. The picture should have been made at least a minute ago.
I tried to control the Regressor Instruction Manual as much as possible, but Kim Hyunsung’s spirit was unspeakable. Likewise, that bastard wasn’t moving as I intended, unlike before when he was so easily controlled.
I tried to start moving very little emotions, but he resisted even those. I didn’t see any gaps. Rather, I noticed he was too focused on what he wanted to do.
He was only crying, and he didn’t say anything else. I felt tremendous pain coursing through my body.
It wasn’t the one coming from my stomach. It was a pain felt by Kim Hyunsung’s feelings of guilt as he put the pieces back together.
He kept picking up the broken things while chewing all the pain one by one.
Why? I couldn’t understand. Why was he picking it up, knowing that he was going to become a half idiot?
‘Another useless sense of responsibility? Really? Are you doing this because of responsibilities? Is it because you think you have to bear with what you did? I don’t you have to. You don’t have to.’
It was as if time was going back again.
Demon summons, Mirror Lake, having a meal together or going to the Griffon Festival, spending time with guild members and chatting, training together and going on an expedition, incidents that drove me to work, or a class choosing with Park Deokgu.
And then…
‘Thank you for your help. I’m Lee Kiyoung.’
Even the first meeting I cut off first.
But he…
He picked up what I threw away and put it back where it belonged.
Whooooooooooosh.
“…”
“Ah… Uh… Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Huh… Ugh… Ugh… Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Blaaaaaargh. Blaaaaaaargh… Sniff… Sniff… Blaaaargh.”
“…”
It didn’t take too long until I saw him grabbing his head and vomiting.
“Kiyoung… Kiyoung… Kiyoung?”
“…”
“Kiyoung? Ah… No… Sniff… please… please… please… No…”