It’s nice to finally be appreciated, even if it’s only because he was losing money. It’s something anyway.
From worthless and not wanting me around, to actually being needed on my own merits and skills and
nothing pertaining to sex. It gives me a little feeling of something warm, maybe pride and for the first
time in my life, I feel a little worthwhile for a talent that has nothing to do with my body or my looks.
Something to give that’s more than my flesh and something I can actually care about.
‘I will max your card, just pre-warning you.’ I add in afterthought, another little prod at him. I may as well
make the most of it while I can and Alexi brings those almost colourless eyes back to mine with another
annoyed glance.
‘Whatever; just be back before seven. I need to see you before I go. We didn’t finish talking.’
I blanch at him.
Whatever?
He gave me a ten grand limit card, and he doesn’t care if I max it?
I think he might be sick or maybe misheard what I just said. Or he might just be too distracted by
whatever he has going on in his brain and I should take full advantage of it. He said whatever, after all.
‘Why?’ I try to distract myself from the card thing and focus on the demand that we have to have
another little chat. I was hoping to avoid cosy one-on-ones with him so soon. I want to just find my feet
today and get back to being the girl I thought was dead.
‘I told you, we need to talk about money and I will have something for you by then that you need. I have
a dinner after seven, so you need to be here before I go,’ he commands, eyes on his phone as it
vibrates and that furrowed brow is back on, hints of annoyance in place … definitely not relating to me
then. I only have half his attention today and I guess he has other matters and his focus lays
elsewhere.
‘What if I am not?’ I can’t help it, he’s too easy when there are no punishments dangling over me, and
I’m irritated that he’s more interested in his phone right now. I’m in a naughty mood, high on the better
turn of luck in my life, and feeling decidedly mischievous where Carrero is concerned. I want to play
him at his own game for a little while. Being the one calling the shots. I also demand his full attention
when we are chatting.
‘You really want to test me today?’ That low tone and narrowed gaze move in fast, eyes flickering to me
quickly, and I finally lose my bottle with that uber cool and calm pitch of his that means he’s idling near
his full-on sadistic psycho switch—His text obviously getting to him.
There’s one thing poking the bear but another thing to shove the stick entirely up its arse. I should
remember that son of a bitch and nasty demonic prick still lingers under that sexy persona, and bear in
mind he does snap from time to time. I should set myself some boundaries too, on how far I push. I’ll
stay healthier for longer if I do.
‘Fine, I shall be here. I want to get some of my to-do list sorted tonight anyway, get back onto the night-
time schedule and altering my sleep pattern. Better to work late and get used to my five-a.m. knock-off
time.’ I relent, letting go of the sass for now and killing him with sweetness and smiles. Alexi looks wary
for a moment as though he doesn’t trust the change in me and softens too.
‘Good … Sorted. Don’t be late; I don’t like to be kept waiting.’
Alexi is back to oozing charm, yet that tone is still on the offensive, smiling as though he is joking but
there’s that warning edge in there. That look that says, ‘I’m still the devil underneath’.
‘Nice to see you back on form, I was starting to forget what a dickhead you are.’ I wink at him and then
brush past, waving my hands at Jackson to follow me like a good little puppy dog. Satisfied in the look
that Alexi gives me on my departure. A complete deadpan, unamused frown that equates to nothing
much, but the way he follows my progression out the door with his eyes tells me it got to him more than
he’s letting on.
He’s very sensitive since I came back, and not for the first time I wonder what went on in the four
months that I haven’t been around. He’s off his game in a lot of subtle ways, and I am picking up on it
because it’s not the Alexi I left behind four months ago—something has changed. I just can’t put my
finger on it.
‘Chop, chop, luv. I have a hair appointment to get to.’ I click my fingers in the air, full on bossy queen
mode and rush out the door with renewed happiness and a smile.
My driver obediently tails me, and I don’t stop to look back when I get to the front door.
Tapping my newly manicured pearlescent grey nails on the bar and throwing back my glossy red vixen
hair I missed so much, I feel like the old me once more. I sit gracefully sipping the red wine I poured
myself and patiently watch the cleaners running around with buckets of solution and cloths, as they
wipe down every surface in sight. They have apparently been at it all day and this place stinks of
bleach and cleaning products, so much so it’s stinging my eyes, but it’s a whole lot fresher and I can
actually see, now the new lights have been installed overhead.
The bar is gleaming, and every chrome fitting in sight is mirror sparkling. Somehow, with the switchover
of bulbs, the room feels cosier, less stale and musty, and the man who came to inspect for mould has
treated a couple of areas ready for the repaint. The air is breathable once more and I had them burn all
the bedding from the boudoirs this morning, out in the car lot … along with that filthy vibrator.
There’s a whopping chandelier over my head, giving a soft glow to the surroundings, and the new low
lights on the wall sconces are making this place feel sexy once more, rather than gloomy.
There’s a note from the electrician on the pad by the till informing me he thinks the electrics don’t need
a thorough exam as he found no evidence of moisture in the wiring from the previous flood, but a few of
my switches should be replaced because they are faulty. Something else I need to get on top of. I don’t
like this idea that something is not right and it’s something Joanne should have resolved before months
had passed. Faulty switches are deadly.
I’m feeling decidedly more like Camilla, dressed in a black Gucci dress that hugs me like a second skin
from knee to neck, it has long sleeves and is deliciously clingy, over high black stilettos and a simple
gold belt at my waist. I feel good. I look a million times better and my long sleek hair has been
pampered into gorgeous submission by the talented Claire from my hair salon.
I even managed to hide a lot of the mess on my face with a facial and a new bag of makeup from my
favourite boutique and Sephora. Spent a fortune on the top-up, although I was annoyed to find my
trademark red lipstick has changed shade subtly and I have no idea what happened to my old one. I
never found it after leaving here. I guess it got left behind and binned.
Camilla is staring back at me from the mirrored wall behind the bottles on the shelves behind the bar
and I can’t help but smile at her gleefully, happier than I ever thought I would be to see her again. It’s
divine in a way, like a long-lost friend, signalling better times.
Finger’s crossed anyway.
‘You look familiar.’ Alexi’s smooth tone falls over me as he appears in the reflection behind me and
moves to sit beside me on the stool casually, giving me a thorough look over and breaking into a wide
smile. A genuine looking one that brings out those hidden dimples and for a moment he’s very Gino.
Too charming for my liking, he has that air of predator on the prowl, always hidden in the depths; I re-
cross my legs and turn to face him more comfortably, laying my glass down. No reaction other than a
raised brow.
‘And completely out of bounds,’ I add as a warning, reminding him that no matter what, ‘No touching’ is
a deal breaker. It gives me instant delight to see that smile drop into his lap to be replaced with a tiny
frown, and he looks back towards the club from where he came with a heavy sigh for a moment.
‘You’re late.’ I point out leaning over to tap his watch with one pointed acrylic fingernail annoyingly, and
he just shrugs at me wickedly, not moving his overly expensive watch away from piercing talons.
‘I said you couldn’t be … I didn’t say anything about me.’ He smirks and goes back to that happy
twinkle in his eye he came in with. He’s definitely lost his bad mood from earlier and it seems riling one
another is a two-way hobby. Smug arsehole likes doing it as much as I do.
Wanker!
He hasn’t changed that anyway, keeping me waiting as though I have nothing better to do with my day
except hang around for his entrance. He likes to feel important.
‘You look good … nice to see this back.’ He raises a hand as though he’s going to run his fingers down
a strand of my hair and then halts mid-air, putting it down and turning in towards the bar to lay his arms
there instead. A strange twitch to that squared-off clean-shaven jawline of his.
I guess the no touching thing was forgotten for a moment but he’s playing nice and respecting that
boundary, for now at least. I have no doubts that along with the temporary reasonable behaviour, it will
soon fizzle away, and I need to get my shit together to handle him when he starts being his devious self
once more. Not that I don’t think he’s being that way now, he never does anything without prior thought,
and I know there’s got to be a reason behind the lull in sadistic since I saw him again. It’s brimming
under the surface and itching to be let out.
‘So … You wanted a little chat about money and said you had something for me! What … a cage? A
new set of handcuffs?’ I jest, bringing this conversation away from my appearance, trying to lighten the
heaviness of the air between us now we are shoulder to shoulder. Alexi just avoids looking back at me,
smirking as he points to a booze bottle, and the shadow that came with him skirts behind the bar to
pour him a drink dutifully.
I have no clue how he would survive without his ever-attentive minions at his beck and call. He is too
used to throwing around silent orders and I wonder what he would be like if he ever had to survive
alone and penniless the way I have. I don’t know if he could. As scary as he is and masterful in his
world, I couldn’t see him thriving as a street rat with nothing and no one, the way I did for years.
‘I have my lawyer drafting a contract with all your ‘suggestions’’ he says it very sassily and throws me a
naughty glance, knowing fine they are demands and non-negotiable—A little grudged nudge.
‘Hmm,’ I am not biting though.
‘How about I pay you a lump sum, set amount per month until the club starts improving, and then we
can talk over the profit margins and what you are entitled to as half partner when it starts rolling in?
Name your price, within reason, London.’ He looks over me again; something he is having a hard time
stopping while sitting here and, in a way, it pleases me. He obviously still likes what he sees. I should
use that to torment him now he can’t do anything about it anymore.
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