Chapter 17 - What Goes Around, Comes Around
Translated by Eve
Edited by Karasunofight
Xie He’s face was pale as if drained of all blood. His feeble body seemed to be on the verge of collapse as his pair of limpid, black pupils set themselves onto Zhou Yizhe.
The two men locked eyes wordlessly…
Zhou Yizhe was the first to come back to himself. A quick flash of repressed pain flitted through his eyes, but he quickly regained his calm expression. He apathetically nodded his head at Xie He before walking around him.
Xie He stood in place, both fists clenched deathly tight. His teeth grinded against each other, creating a ‘gege’ sound.
He suddenly turned around and followed after Zhou Yizhe’s silhouette with a pair of red eyes. In a hoarse voice, he asked, “What did you come here for?!”
Zhou Yizhe’s steps halted immediately. He fell silent for a moment before slowly turning around. With a deep gaze, he fixed his attention onto Xie He, “Sorry. I didn’t expect to see you.”
Xie He’s body slightly swayed. He firmly stared at the man in front of him, whose gaze was calm and tone was natural as if they had only been two very ordinary people who could barely be considered acquaintances. This man, he says he’ll let go and he lets go. It was only Xie He who was left looking like a fool. But Xie He still remembered the pain he caused him…he deeply remembered it!
In this instant, unwillingness welled up in Xie He’s eyes, and he fiercely said, “Who asked you to come?! No one wants your feigned kindness! You best not let me catch sight of you again!”
After he said this, he entered his home without looking back and closed the door with a heavy ‘bang’.
Xie He pressed his back against the door, his legs feeling weak. He slipped down onto the ground, cutting a sorry figure. He raised his head and saw Zhou Yian standing before him, watching him with a complicated expression. It was like…he didn’t recognize him.
Xie He looked embarrassed and evaded Zhou Yian’s gaze.
At this time, he suddenly had no idea how to face the person he loved. He didn’t know why he had lost control over himself upon seeing Zhou Yizhe, or why he would forget himself and say such words…He thought that he could forget all about those unbearable memories, but he couldn’t. He absolutely couldn’t.
And now, he had no way to deceive himself and accept Zhou Yian’s unconditional love. His heart was no longer pure.
This so-called facade had finally been smashed to pieces.
After a long time, Zhou Yian crouched down and pulled the trembling Xie He into his arms. With a soft voice he comforted him, “It’s OK now. It’s OK. Don’t be afraid…I won’t let him hurt you again….”
“I…” Xie He’s voice was hoarse, and he tightly grasped onto Zhou Yian’s arm, fingertips clenched so tightly that they turned white, “I….”
“You don’t need to say anything more. I understand. After all, he hurt you so badly before, it’s only normal that you would be afraid of him and loathe him. It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have let him come,” Zhou Yian patiently coaxed him. His fingers threaded themselves in Xie He’s soft hair, and he held him against his chest. Xie He thus couldn’t see the sad expression in his eyes that contrasted with his tone of voice.
His beloved would never belong solely to himself as he had once before.
At this time, he couldn’t help but clearly face reality.
But, even if it was like this, he wanted to use the rest of his life to help heal the wound in his lover’s heart, to make Zhao Qing fall in love with him all over again—to love only him. There will be a day where he will completely erase Zhou Yizhe from his beloved’s heart until not a single trace could be seen!
【444：Host dada, I feel that your performance just now had a feeling of ‘wanting to resist, but still welcomed it because of your deep love and hate’. Was it my misconception….】
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Since that day, Zhou Yian treated Xie He with a hundred-times-more caution and avoided mentioning the previous incident, as if he feared that Xie He would think of Zhou Yizhe.
Towards this kind of considerate and gentle treatment, Xie He expressed great unease. He felt greatly tormented. He wanted to confess to Zhou Yian. Every time he wanted to though, Zhou Yian would change the subject, giving Xie He no way to continue speaking about it.
One day, Zhou Yian held Xie He and suddenly said, “How about we move to another city?”
Xie He was startled, and he whispered, “Why?”
“I think that the southside isn’t bad. The climate there is good. We can buy a villa in the suburbs, go to work at sunrise, and go home at sunset…we would definitely be very happy there….” Zhou Yian’s voice carried some kind of anticipation. He stared at Xie He, a look of longing for their future in his eyes.
Xie He’s heart ached. He understood why Zhou Yian wanted to leave. Indeed, it was because of him….
But how could he be so selfish as to make Zhou Yian leave his hometown for his sake. Xie He spoke, “If we leave, then what will your parents do…did they agree to this?”
“It’s fine. My dad doesn’t care what I do. My mom…” The expression in Zhou Yian’s eyes cooled. He smiled, tone without a care, “I’ll explain it to her clearly today. She definitely will not oppose this.”
This left Xie He unable to retort. He looked at Zhou Yian a bit helplessly.
Zhou Yian loved the youth’s innocent and cute expression immensely. He kissed him gently on the lips. With deep love, he said, “Wait for me to return.”
Xie He watched Zhou Yian’s parting silhouette. His expression gradually turned impassive.
Although Zhou Yian acted indifferent before him, this matter would definitely not proceed smoothly! According to Song Ruyi’s selfish nature and cruel methods, how could she ignore Zhou Yian’s departure? If it was before, then fine. But right now, she’s gotten a sweet taste of what he can bring her, so she naturally would be unwilling to let her son go. After all, if Zhou Yian stayed in the company’s upper management, the benefits she could reap would be numerous. Moreover, there was also Zhou Yizhe’s acquiescence right now. This kind of all-around wonderful situation, she would definitely be unwilling to give up. Therefore, she would surely dispatch people to take care of Zhao Qing. Only once Zhao Qing was settled, would Zhou Yian be totally under her control.
Xie He let out a slight smile. Now, he’ll see whether or not Song Ruyi has any ability; let’s see just how far she could go.
Xie He didn’t have work today—he had requested leave. He idled his time away at home.
In the afternoon, someone indeed knocked on his door.
【444：It’s Zhou Yizhe!】
As soon as Zhou Yian left, Zhou Yizhe appeared. Xie He laughed. It seems that the people watching him were not few, though he didn’t know just how many of them there were.
Xie He walked over and opened the door. Once he saw that it was Zhou Yizhe, his expression immediately froze over.
“Can I come in?” Zhou Yizhe stood at the entrance, watching him with a profound look.
“You can’t,” Xie He spat out these two ice-cold words. He wanted to close the door, but Zhou Yizhe suddenly reached out and blocked him from doing so, forcing his way in.
Xie He revealed a ridiculing expression on his face, “I didn’t know this before, but you unexpectedly like to talk rubbish.”
Zhou Yizhe looked awkward.
Heaven knows how much strength he was using to control himself, to prevent himself from appearing before Xie He. He only watched him quietly from behind…but in actuality, as long as he still had a one-in-ten-thousand chance, he was unwilling to let him go.
And now, he realized that he was mistaken—perhaps he wasn’t completely without hope after all…if that was the case, then he would definitely not surrender without a fight.
“I want to pursue you all over again,” Zhou Yizhe looked at the youth’s expression. He made no small talk nor did he try to conceal his intention as he earnestly spoke these words.
Xie He’s expression broke into one full of embarrassment. In a loud voice, he said, “Don’t joke around! I don’t want to see your face at all!”
Zhou Yizhe’s heart felt stuffy and ached, but he continued to show a warm expression. He looked at the person before him softly and spoke with a gentle voice, “Are these your true feelings?”
“Of course,” Xie He said coldly.
Zhou Yizhe looked into his eyes and slowly spoke, “I don’t think so.”
Xie He looked at him mockingly.
Without waiting for him to speak, Zhou Yizhe suddenly stepped forward, forcing Xie He into the corner. He lowered his eyes and fixed his eyes on that handsome face he loved below him, “If you really don’t want to see me, then why wasn’t slamming the door on me the first thing you did?”
Xie He froze. He took in a deep breath and mocked, “You still love to twist words and force logic.”
“Perhaps…” Zhou Yizhe reached out, wanting to stroke the youth’s cheek, but was avoided. A flash of sorrow flitted through his eyes. Quite a while later, he whispered, “Do you blame me? When the person who threw you away left, I promised that I would never leave you. In the end, I broke my promise.”
He just…couldn’t bear to see his beloved pained. For this reason, he’d rather be the one who had to lick his own wounds all on his own.
Xie He snorted, “I just hate that you didn’t leave earlier.”
“Oh, you hate me,” Zhou Yizhe’s voice was insipid, but his expression was sharp, “Does that mean you actually hold some love for me too? You hate me because you love me.”
“I can’t beat you with words,” Xie He’s chest heaved in anger, “You’ve destroyed everything. I will never love you!”
Zhou Yizhe closed his eyes. When he reopened them, he spoke unhurriedly, “I understand.”
“If you understand, then leave. You’re not welcome here!” Xie He glared at him.
Zhou Yizhe suddenly smiled. His thin lips raised into a slight arc. His eyes were unfathomably deep, “You don’t love me, but your body remembers me. Your body loves me.”
Xie He looked at him, incredulous. This person would unexpectedly say such a shameless thing!
He would not argue with him over this sort of matter! Xie He turned to leave, but his arm was pulled back by Zhou Yizhe, and his back ended up pressed against Zhou Yizhe’s chest!
Zhou Yizhe tightly hugged him from behind. With no difficulty on his part, he suppressed his struggling. Xie He’s face flushed in shame, “Let go of me!”
Zhou Yizhe turned a deaf ear to the other’s protests. He lowered his head and moved closer to the crook of Xie He’s neck. His warm breath was like a feather caressing Xie He’s skin; his voice sounded like an echo in the night sky, carrying a deep, endless love, “During these past 6 months, I have never forgotten you. I remember your every smile, every action. I remember all the sensitive spots on your body, and the…beautiful feeling I get when I enter you. I can’t forget you…In reality, you’re the same, aren’t you. I remember you, and you remember me. You remember every time I’ve hugged you, remember all of the irritation and pleasure I’ve brought you. Although you won’t admit it…your body remembers it all clearly. You can’t forget about me.”
These words ruthlessly tore open and revealed what Xie He had hidden in the deepest depths of his heart, what he hadn’t wanted anyone to see.
He couldn’t forgive himself. He obviously hated this person, but he could clearly recall all the pleasure this person had brought him. Several times while dreaming, he’d become aware that he was being done by a man in his dream. When he tried to see just who the man was, that person…was unexpectedly Zhou Yizhe.
He couldn’t forget any of this….
He loved one person in his heart, but his body loved another.
He was so repulsive and dirty.
Xie He shut his eyes in despair, body slightly trembling.
He could feel that man’s strong, scorching chest press tightly against himself, and that deep voice that sounded by his ear stirred the bottom of his heart.
“I’m so happy….”
“Even if what you like is just my body.”
【Ding, the target’s Favorability Value +1. The current Favorability Value is 99.】
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The arc will wrap up in the next chapter, lalala \(≧▽≦)/
After that, this author would like to weakly say that the future chapters will be VIP only. Tomorrow, we’ll enter the VIP section and there will be 3 chapters updated! 3 long chapters! I hope that you dears will all continue to support this author, support me legally~ And there’s also that cliche but true saying~ Your support motives this author to update~ We are a symbiotic system together, ah, lalala ╰(*°▽°*)╯. Seeing the enthusiastic comments for this story ignites the this scum author’s passion!!!
By the way, I’d like to announce the next arc: Teacher love me one more time. It is a borderline shameless campus life story. The alternative name is “Gossip: The unspeakable story between me and the students who are beasts cloaked in human skin.” →_→
Teacher/Student campus play! I hope you dears all like it~
P.S: Don’t ask where this author’s moral integrity has gone…en, it’s like that… kiss kiss, I love you all~ I hope that we will always love one another~~! (づ￣3￣)づ╭
Eve: Slightly short chapter this week. Next week is quite a bit longer though and wraps up XH’s adventures in this world~