Chapter 146 - I See You As a Brother But You Want to Sleep With Me
Translated by Eve
Edited by Serefina
4. I See You As a Brother But You Want to Sleep With Me
Actually, Han Wenqian had known that Xie He had left the house the moment he had walked through the doors. However, he hadn’t been planning on following the boy.
Since he had already made his decision, there was no need to hesitate. He was not an indecisive person. He had already given Xie He to someone else. It now had nothing to do with him…
He just hadn’t been expecting to receive Xie He’s text. Although the text consisted of just a few lines, it felt like he could feel the young man’s earnest desire to be understood and trusted seeping out from the screen.
Xie He trusted him like that. And he wished that Han Wenqian would trust him too….
Han Wenqian suddenly felt stuffy inside. The pain and hesitation made his head hurt once more. He threw his phone to the side, trying not to look at or think about it. But even when he shut his eyes, he would continue to see the young man’s terrified, frightened, deathly pale visage…. Why…why did he have to pretend to be innocent!
Did you think that if you acted like this I’d act like I did in the past? That I’d trust you and protect you unconditionally, only to be ruthlessly used and betrayed by you?
Han Wenqian slowly opened his eyes, his pupils having condensed into ice. He draped on a coat and left.
When Han Wenqian reached the hotel, he saw Xie He pressed onto the ground by several people.
The young man’s beautiful, slender body was completely exposed. His pretty face was full of fear and dread. His black eyes were glittering. He tried to resist with all his might but it was to no avail. Very quickly, he ran out of strength and his consciousness began to fade…. Then, he suddenly turned to face Han Wenqian. He parted his lips and weakly sobbed in despair, “Ge…save me….”
His eyes were unfocused. He was only gazing in Han Wenqian’s direction with a look of confusion. Actually, it wasn’t that he recognized him. He was only instinctively calling out for help.
He wanted Han Wenqian to save him.
Han Wenqian’s heart stopped for a moment. This was the person he had carefully protected and cherished for sixteen years…but the other had betrayed him, which was why Han Wenqian had wanted to make him get a taste of what it was like to live a life worse than death…. That was why Han Wenqian had not hesitated to abandon him and had steeled his heart to no longer concern himself with the other.
But at this moment, when he saw Xie He’s face streaked with tears, when he thought about how the other was about to be violated by other men, he suddenly couldn’t bear it. He couldn’t continue to watch.
This was the child he had considered his younger brother, the child who he had brought up single-handedly.
At this moment, the child was looking at him with such a trusting gaze, asking him for help….
How could he remain indifferent? Even if he hated him, he couldn’t.
Han Wenqian suddenly came forward, a low voice seeping out of his lips, “Let go of him.”
Zhou Yuebin was taken aback. Although he had seen Han Wenqian walk in, he hadn’t paid him any attention. Han Wenqian had agreed to letting them do this to Lin Xin but…what did Han Wenqian mean by stopping them now? It couldn’t be that he regretted it?
Zhou Yuebin’s expression changed. “Han ge, you….”
The hands hanging by the side of Han Wenqian’s body clenched. He said in a deep voice, “Don’t think too much. I’m not one to go back on my word. Wait until I expel him from the Han Family. He’ll be yours then.”
Zhou Yuebin was about to bristle. He was a bit angry at getting stopped just as he was getting excited. However, he didn’t dare go against Han Wenqian. He looked regretful but ended up letting go of Xie He. He shrugged. “Whatever you say.”
In any case, he was nothing but a toy. He didn’t have to play with him. If he had to wait, so be it.
Han Wenqian took off his coat and covered Xie He with it. He carried him into the neighbouring room and then threw him on the bed.
Xie He’s mind wasn’t very clear. He curled up on the bed and rolled around. His delicate, beautiful face still had tear streaks on it. His pink lips were slightly open and the coat fell off him. His long, pale, and slender legs were curled up. He looked weak, making others want to ravage him.
Han Wenqian stared at Xie He. This was the first time…he felt such an inappropriate impulse towards the young man. He had never had such an impulse before. He couldn’t help but think of what had happened in his previous life. Even if all the evidence pointed at Lin Xin being the traitor, he had still harboured hope that it wasn’t true and had gone to look for him. He had wanted to hear the words from the other’s mouth…. As long as Lin Xin denied it, he would have believed him and would have investigated the matter all over again.
In his previous life, he had trusted Lin Xin the entire time.
But what he wished for hadn’t happened. Lin Xin hadn’t denied it. He had even been in bed with Qin Ye at the time…shamelessly rolling in the sheets with another man while ridiculing Han Wenqian with cold, harsh words.
However much Han Wenqian used to trust him was however much he now hated him!
The rage once again flared up in Han Wenqian’s chest. He had already decided to use the cruellest of methods to take revenge! He would let Lin Xin have a taste of the pain betrayal would bring! That had been why he had made this proposal to Zhou Yuebin. That’s why he hadn’t vetoed Zhou Yuebin’s ideas. He had thought that he would never care for this boy ever again.
But why was it that, when he saw Xie He pressed down by that group of men, when he saw him weeping and begging for his help…he couldn’t go through with it?
It couldn’t be that he would have to let him off like this? To call it even like this? Impossible!
Han Wenqian’s icy gaze fell on Xie He’s body. It was truly a beautiful, seductive body. And it was precisely with this body that the boy had been able to seduce Qin Ye. It had all been for the purpose of scheming against Han Wenqian’s company.
If Qin Ye could f*ck him, why couldn’t he?
Han Wenqian reached out to pinch Xie He’s chin, forcing him to raise his head. He looked into Xie He’s misty eyes and slowly shifted his gaze downwards. Those pink lips were slightly parted, as if tempting him to kiss him&#k2026;.
Tempting him to fiercely, forcefully, f*ck him!
The last strand of reason within Han Wenqian’s eyes snapped. All that was left was hatred and desire.
Save you? No, I won’t save you. I will only make you suffer.
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【444：/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~】
【Xie He：Baby, what’s wrong?】
【444：If Han Wenqian hadn’t come yesterday, what would we have done? /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~】How frightening!
【Xie He：That’s why I reminded him to come, no? Smile.JPG】
【Xie He：My good older brother has protected and doted on me for so many years. It’s actually rather difficult for him to suddenly become heartless when it comes to me… The reason he had so callously gifted me to someone else was the timing of his rebirth. He’s currently at the peak of his anger. People are capable of doing anything when fuelled by the impulsiveness of anger. Wait until he’s calmed down a bit. Then, he will not be willing to let me be defiled by anyone else. Only you can bully the people in your family. Others aren’t allowed to. It’s a common feeling that humans have.】
【444：……】
【Xie He：How can reading a tragic story on paper or listening to hearsay compare to personally witnessing it? As long as he comes, he will not be able to remain indifferent. I obviously won’t let him let go of me that easily.】
【444：……】
【Xie He：Furthermore, compared to that group of weaklings, I much prefer my 18 cm “boyfriend” 🙂 】
【444：……】Speechless. _(:зゝ∠)_
Han Wenqian sat on the sofa, his dark gaze on the person on the bed.
The young man’s body was full of marks from having been handled roughly…. Han Wenqian narrowed his eyes. In the beginning, he had only been doing it out of anger and the desire to hurt him. But later on, his desire gradually took control. The younger man’s body seemed to have been casting some sort of spell on him, making him unable to stop. This person…made him not want to let go, made him want to see him crying and begging beneath him.
【Ding, the target Han Wenqian’s Favourability Value +10. The current Favourability Value is 30. The current Blackening Value is 80.】
Han Wenqian extinguished his cigarette. At this moment, the young man on the bed fluttered his eyelashes.
Xie He slowly opened his eyes. He stared dumbly in Han Wenqian’s direction, lips trembling. He spoke in a hoarse voice, “Ge.…”
Very soon, the young man could feel that his body ached, like all his bones had come apart. Moreover, an unspeakable part of his body throbbed. There were also those stains on the bed…. All of this put Xie He into a daze. The terrifying memories of last night flooded his brain. He remembered that he had gone to see Shu Yan but ended up getting pushed down by Zhou Yuebin and his friends….
Then, those disgusting people….
Xie He’s face turned deathly pale. He suddenly grabbed his head and screamed miserably. He couldn’t remember, he couldn’t remember, but his body did….
He shouted for a while until his throat hurt. He then stopped abruptly, eyes fixed on Han Wenqian. There was despair and fright filling his eyes. With a shaking voice, he said, “Ge…you saved me…right? You saved me…it didn’t actually happen…right…?”
Han Wenqian’s expression changed. He soon realized that Xie He didn’t remember what had happened after he had begged for help. He thought that he had been violated by those people.
Heh…Han Wenqian looked at Xie He indifferently and once again spat out coldhearted words. “By the time I came, everything had ended.”
When Xie He heard these words, the last bit of hope in him dissipated…. He curled up his body, the pain a clear reminder of his reality. He could no longer lie to himself.
So disgusting…so disgusting….
Xie He was lying on the edge of the bed and suddenly threw up. Even when nothing came out, he continued to heave.
Han Wenqian watched Xie He, a pensive look on his face. He slowly walked over and lifted Xie He’s face up slightly. He took up a handkerchief and wiped the other’s lips. The black eyes on the young man’s pale face was full of despair and an eerie stillness. It was like the sky had fallen all around him.
It was the same sense of powerlessness, the same sense of mourning that Han Wenqian had felt.
Yes…just like this…feel more anguish and despair.
Have a taste of all the suffering I had gone through.
【Ding, the target Han Wenqian’s Blackening Value -20. The current Favourability Value is 30. The current Blackening Value is 60.】
Han Wenqian threw the dirtied handkerchief into the trash and spoke in an icy voice, “I’ve already told you that I would not help you if there was a second time. What did you say to me? It’s only been a day and you’ve gone to see those people again. Not only were you doing drugs, but having sex with so many different partners. You’re okay with both guys and girls. I really underestimated you.”
“Ah ah ah—” Xie He suddenly covered his own ears and shrieked. He didn’t want to hear these words. Enough! He didn’t want to listen! His eyes were red as he stared right at Han Wenqian. “I didn’t! Zhou Yuebin had set a trap for me! He admitted it! They were trying to hurt me!”
Han Wenqian’s lips raised into a smile, “Do you have proof?”
Xie He’s lips trembled. “I….”
Han Wenqian spoke again, “If you don’t have proof, why should I believe you? After all, you’ve proven yourself to be undeserving of my trust.”
Han Wenqian’s words were like knives, stabbing into Xie He’s heart. It made it feel like his heart would stop. His blood felt cold as ice. That’s right…no one would believe him. He had no proof…. His body was dirty through and through…even his blood was dirty. Even if it were him, he wouldn’t believe such a disgusting person.
No one could help him. Even his brother who had doted on him the most wasn’t willing to help him….
This realization drained him of the last of his strength. His body crumpled, void of all strength.
Han Wenqian gave him a disdainful look. He threw some clothes at him and said, “Get dressed. You’ve been missing for an entire day. You don’t want to worry Mother, do you?”
Mother Han had already called Xie He more than once to ask him why he didn’t come home this weekend. However, no one had picked up. Therefore, she had called Han Wenqian, concerned. If it wasn’t because he was worried about Mother and Father Han’s feelings and the possibility of incurring pesky trouble, Han Wenqian would have kicked Xie He out right away…. But it didn’t matter. He had a way to make the other leave on his own.
When Xie He heard this, he didn’t move. The enormous attack had rendered him unable to react. His eyes were completely blank.
But Han Wenqian had no patience. He dragged Xie He over and dressed him. Aside from the fact that his complexion was still terrible, one couldn’t see anything wrong with him. He just looked sick.
Han Wenqian spoke in a frigid tone, “What are you doing, acting like you want to die? If you don’t want to hide this, then fine. Tell everyone what you did. Let everyone know of your actions, of what you’ve done. I can do without helping you clean up your messes.”
These words finally caused Xie He to react a bit. He shook all over.
If other people knew what had happened, how would they see him? When he thought of how everyone would look at him with contempt and disgust…how they would ridicule him for his actions….
No, everything would be destroyed.
His life, his dreams….
Han Wenqian let go of Xie He, voiced filled with impatience. “Make your decision quickly. If you really want to fall into depravity, then say it. I’m leaving now. Your life and death no longer have anything to do with me.”
Xie He gripped the side of the bed tightly. His body swayed and his eyes were unfocused. A long time later, he squeaked out, “No…I don’t want others to know.”
He couldn’t let others know….
He only had one last wish left but it was enough to make him slowly stand up. However, he nearly fell over the moment he got onto his feet. He grit his teeth and slowly followed Han Wenqian to the car.
When Mother Han saw that Xie He had finally come home, she had originally been a bit angry and had wanted to ask him why he hadn’t picked up her calls. But when she saw how pale Xie He was, her anger immediately turned to worry. “Xiao Xin, what’s wrong? Are you feeling unwell?”
Xie He looked at Mother Han and cowered back. Pain, despair and shame made him unable to look Mother Han directly in the eyes. He lowered his head and said, “I caught a cold. It’s fine.”
His voice sounded as if he were sobbing underneath. Mother Han had always treated him really well. Would she believe him? Or would she despise and loathe him like Han Wenqian did? Could he speak to her? No…he couldn’t take that risk…. This ugly thing was too disgusting….
Han Wenqian’s disgust had already brought Xie He to the brink of falling apart. He could not endure another attack by someone close to him…. Even if she treated him well, she wasn’t his biological mother. He had always known this.
But…he was really suffering…what should he do…? Who could help him…?
Han Wenqian could see the hesitation and conflict in Xie He’s eyes. He grabbed Xie He’s wrist and smiled at Mother Han. “Mother, don’t worry. I’ll take him upstairs to rest. I’ll take good care of him.”
Mother Han really trusted Han Wenqian. Her son had always had a stable and reliable personality. He also really knew how to take care of his younger brother. Therefore, she nodded and said, “Quickly take Xiao Xin to bed. Right, help him ask for a few days off of school since he’s sick. He’s about to graduate, so taking a few days off shouldn’t be an issue.”
Han Wenqian nodded and said, “Got it. I’ll get it done.”
Xie He didn’t have the courage to speak. He let Han Wenqian drag him upstairs. Han Wenqian pushed open the door to Xie He’s room and the expression on his face changed. All that was left was indifference and disgust. Without a word, he turned and left.
Xie He had no reaction. Han Wenqian’s behaviour made his heart hurt so much it went numb. This was the person he relied on and trusted the most. But now, he despised him…. The other treated him coldly in his greatest time of suffering….
No matter how he tried to explain himself, it was of no use….
【444：Host dada, why is Han Wenqian lying to you? @[email protected]】
【Xie He：He just wants to see me suffer. If I do as he wishes, won’t the Blackening Value drop? Hehe.】
【444：……】Sounds reasonable._(:зゝ∠)_
【Xie He：Moreover, a one-man show is boring. When I see how much effort he’s put into tarnishing my reputation , I can’t help but want to help him out. 🙂 】
【444：……】What kind of dark kink was this?
Xie He slowly wobbled over to the washroom. He turned on the shower and began to wash. Two hours passed but he showed no intention of coming out.
At night, the Han Family helped make dinner. Mother Han was about to call Xie He to eat but before she reached his door, she was stopped by Han Wenqian. He said with a smile, “Xiao Xin is asleep. Don’t wake him up. I’ll have someone send up warm food to him later tonight.”
Mother Han didn’t insist and smiled. “OK.”
Han Wenqian watched Mother Han leave and then entered Xie He’s room. There was no one inside but the sound of the shower could be heard from the ensuite. Han Wenqian’s expression changed and he strode in. He saw Xie He on the ground, naked, and not moving.
Han Wenqian’s breath stopped. His body reacted before his mind did as he rushed over to pick Xie He up from the ground. He placed his finger under the other’s nose. The other had just fainted. Only then did it occur to him just how worried he had been…. Han Wenqian’s expression suddenly cooled down. He actually still cared about this contemptible traitor.
【Ding, the target Han Wenqian’s Favourability Value +10. The current Favourability Value is 40. The current Blackening Value is 60.】
No, he could not allow this.
Han Wenqian carried Xie He over to the bed and threw him down. He didn’t care about whether the other would be chilled and just left.
Xie He did not leave his room after coming home.
Only on the second night did Han Wenqian come by again. He had a tray in his hands with a hot meal on it. He said to Xie He, “Come eat.”
Xie He sat on the bed, hugging his knees. He looked at Han Wenqian despondently, a sliver of hope appearing in his eyes. His voice was hoarse, “Ge….”
Han Wenqian looked at Xie He like this and his chest felt stuffy. He said coldly, “If you don’t want to die, eat. If you really want to die, go outside. Don’t stay here.”
Xie He’s expression flickered through several emotions but finally landed on sorrow and hopelessness. But he didn’t try to defend himself. In any case, no matter what he said, Han Wenqian would not believe him. He would only look down on him with ruthless words. Therefore, what was the point of inviting humiliation onto himself…?
Han Wenqian obviously didn’t have any intention of waiting on Xie He while he ate. It was just that Mother Han had asked him to bring food up. Whether he ate was Xie He’s business.
Xie He watched Han Wenqian leave and didn’t move. Shortly after, he fell asleep. When he woke up again, his stomach rumbled. He ended up climbing out of bed and eating a cold meal.
He couldn’t die…he had to persevere…he could do it…..
There were still so many things he wanted to do….
He ate and ate and couldn’t help but remember those disgusting things. He threw everything back up, his whole body weak. But he wiped his mouth and continued to eat. He then curled back up in bed.
When Han Wenqian came again, he frowned at the scent in the room.
This young man, who used to love cleanliness and tidiness, currently had a messy room. There was trash haphazardly on the floor and the desk had dried vomit on it. It was a totally dejected mess. He cast a look on the young man on the bed. The young man was curled up into a ball. It looked like he was dreaming of something really horrifying, as his eyes were shut tight and eyebrows furrowed. He looked like a hedgehog that had tightly curled up its body in self-protection….
Han Wenqian put down the food and left.
Xie He didn’t know of Han Wenqian’s coming and going. He was stuck in an endless loop of nightmares. He was in so much pain. It was like hundreds of claws were slashing at his heart. It was so painful…he had thought that it was just a nightmare, but when he opened his eyes, the pain didn’t stop. Instead, it only became more intense. He really wanted…yearned for a certain something.
Utter anguish emerged in Xie He’s eyes. He knew what he wanted…but…he couldn’t…he could not….
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Han Wenqian sat in his room. Although it was already late at night, he didn’t sleep. Instead, he sat on the sofa in neat clothes, as if waiting for something.
It was already the third day.
At midnight, his door suddenly opened with a quiet clack. Xie He staggered in and fell in front of Han Wenqian in crumpled pyjamas. His face was warped from the pain. He struggled, wanting to crawl up, but his arms and legs were shaking. He raised his head to look at Han Wenqian with his black eyes. His pale lips parted and he let out a faltering voice, “Ge…it hurts so much…help me….”
Han Wenqian’s eyes darkened. He reached out to lift Xie He’s chin, thumb pressing down on his soft lips. His index finger traced the outline of the other’s face. The pad of his finger swept over that smooth, exquisite skin…. This was the child his family had pampered and raised with the utmost care. He was pure and beautiful. Anyone who saw him would like him.
That’s why Zhou Yuebin, Qin Ye and all of them had been seduced by him….
And right now, Han Wenqian was no exception.
Han Wenqian’s eyes darkened even more. He smiled. Rather than letting others have him, he might as well use Xie He himself. In any case, you owe me this much.
Just this…I’ll take your pain, despair and body to repay the debt you owe me.
The corner of Han Wenqian’s lips quirked up and he chuckled in a low voice, “If you want my help, you’ll have to pay.”
Eve: _(:зゝ∠)_ My heart is tired.
sere: angery (╬ಠ益ಠ)