Chapter 32 - The Annual Campus-Wide Dogblood Drama Live Broadcast
Translated by Eve
Edited by Karasunofight
14. The Annual Campus-Wide Dogblood Drama Live Broadcast
A profound pain emerged from within Li Hongxuan’s eyes. A long time later, he dropped his forlorn hand and left without looking back.
Xie He stood in place, dumbstruck, as if he hadn’t yet processed why this had occurred.
Could it be that Li Hongxuan hadn’t been intending to hit him?
Sun Zeyang’s feet slapped against the floor as he chased after Li Hongxuan with a pained expression on his face. Then, only Allen still remained in the dorm. Allen fixed his eyes onto Xie He as he walked towards him and said in a soft voice, “It’s OK now. He’s gone.”
Xie He shifted his gaze over and looked at Allen in a daze. The black eyes upon his palid face were full of panic and confusion.
Allen couldn’t help but feel tenderness sprout within him. He gently wrapped his arm around Xie He’s shoulder and whispered into his ear, “Don’t be afraid. I won’t let him hurt you.”
Allen knew very well that Li Hongxuan never would have done anything to purposefully harm Teacher ever again. However, he didn’t mind deepening this wonderful misunderstanding.
Probably because of the comforting effect of these words, Allen could feel Teacher’s trembling body gradually calm down. However, in the next moment, Teacher pushed him away without any hesitation and said with lowered eyes, “I need to leave.”
Allen felt the emptiness between his arms. When Teacher left, it was as if he had also taken a piece of his heart….He really wanted to force Teacher to stay, but the image of Teacher’s disappointed expression directed at him incessantly flashed in his mind, so he couldn’t do what he wanted. Actually, his situation was no better than that of Li Hongxuan’s.
Teacher was afraid of Li Hongxuan, but he also no longer held any trust towards Allen.
If he had known that he would want to have Teacher like this back then—that he would yearn for him—he definitely would have not minded spending a little more time to pursue Teacher and would have not chosen such a nasty method.
Allen let out a bitter laugh. His eyes met Xie He’s. His blue pair were full of sincerity as he spoke softly. “Sorry. I shouldn’t have treated you like that in the past. I just really like you.”
Xie He did not speak. Caution flashed through his eyes as if contemplating over whether this was a new trick of his.
Allen’s chest felt stuffy when he saw this expression and forced himself to smile, “Although Teacher does not believe me, I am still willing to help Teacher. You were only with Li Hongxuan because he threatened you, right? Will you tell me what happened? Perhaps I can help you.”
At first, Li Hongxuan had used the argument that Teacher made the choice himself in order to force Allen to retreat. Now, Allen could use the same method to deal with Li Hongxuan. This was nothing more than a mutual check and balance.
However, Xie He shook his head, “He didn’t threaten me. He helped me. I volunteered.”
Allen’s eyes glinted, and his voice became even lower and more gentle, “So what you’re saying is that you were only with him to repay him? I can help you too. Moreover, I don’t need you to pay any price. I just want you to give me another chance to pursue you.”
This kind of proposal was too enticing. Hesitancy flashed through Xie He’s eyes, but he quickly shook his head, “No need.”
Li Hongxuan had already helped him, and Xie He was not one to go back on his word. Besides, Allen was not trustworthy.
Although Allen was a bit disappointed, he did not force him and only said, “It’s fine if Teacher doesn’t want to say it now. Whenever Teacher needs me, you can come find me anytime, OK?”
Xie He stared at Allen questioningly. Why did he want to help me….could it be that he was being sincere just now? Does he really like me?
In the end, could he trust this person or not? Conflict and hesitance continually flashed through his eyes.
Allen knew that he had to take this one step at a time. Today, he ought to stop while he’s ahead. Teacher was a soft-hearted person who trusted people too easily. So long as he persevered, there would be a day where he would be forgiven. Even if he couldn’t be—he could always put on a facade again. At worst, he would act right until the end.
So long as he could have what he wanted, it made no difference to him whether he achieved his goals by fair or foul means.
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Xie He was very pleased when he returned. He also did not forget to take his thermos back.
【444：Host dada, I don’t know if I should say this or not….】
【Xie He：Baby, just say it, ba.】
【444：Actually, your actions today were just for the sake of taking revenge for that episode where he forced you to eat, right…._(:3ゝ∠)_】He had thought and thought and thought, and finally reached this conclusion!
【Xie He：Do I seem like such a petty person?】
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Xie He thought that Li Hongxuan probably wouldn’t come to find him in the next few days. After receiving such an upset, that child ought to need a couple of days before he can come back to himself. Indeed, Li Hongxuan did not come find him as an entire leisurely and carefree week passed. In the end, 444 was the first to become worried.
【444：Host dada! Li Hongxuan couldn’t have really given up, ba!? Σ(°△°|||)︴】
【Xie He：No. He isn’t that heartless. 】
【444：……】In this world, he feels like Host dada always seems to mean the opposite of what he says (:3ゝ∠)_
【Xie He：When people like him have something that they want, they will not give it up even if they died. This kind of youthful child only understands how to plunder. He doesn’t understand how to back down. Even more, he does not understand what it means to help someone else achieve their aim. Relax. He will not have given up.】
【Xie He：It seems about time.】
【444：Oh? Is he coming to look for you now?】
【Xie He：No, I have to go look for him. Rather than passively waiting, I much prefer to take the initiative to attack. Smile.jpg】
On Wednesday night, Xie He went to the library’s self-study room. As soon as he entered, he saw Li Hongxuan. However, he appeared as if he hadn’t seen the other at all, directly heading in the other direction.
A moment later, Xie He headed out after having borrowed a few books. Afterwards, he was stopped by Xu Wenhao in the hallway.
Xu Wenhao was normally at the library at this time. In the last couple of days, he had wanted to meet with Teacher, however, he hadn’t found a suitable opportunity. He didn’t expect that he would unexpectedly bump into him at the library today. Thus, Xu Wenhao immediately chased after him.
“Teacher Su!” Xu Wenhao called out excitedly.
Xie He inwardly thought, Truly a child that knows how to cooperate with me. He revealed a gentle and amiable smile, “Student Xu Wenhao.”
“Teacher Su, thank you!” Xu Wenhao blushed. He didn’t know why but when he saw Teacher’s gentle expression, his heart began to speed up. He coughed to cover up his awkwardness and then used a grateful expression to gaze at Teacher, “It’s you who requested for someone to help me, right?”
Xie He was first at a loss. Soon after, he asked, “Has the issue regarding your father been resolved?”
Xu Wenhao nodded vigorously, “Yes. Afterwards, those people no longer came to look for me! Moreover, none of the casinos permit my father to enter their establishments anymore. If they see him, they’ll beat him up….Right now, even if he wants to gamble, he can’t. Everyday, he stays at home, ne!” Although his father was getting beaten up, from his relaxed tone, it didn’t seem like a major issue. It seemed that the majority of what he felt was relief from finally unloading himself of a heavy burden.
Seeing that the fog cast over his student’s eyes had finally dispersed and that the lustre of sunlight had finally re-emerged, Xie He felt similar relief as if it were his own. Happiness leaked out of the corners of his eyes as he sincerely said, “That’s truly wonderful.”
“So…I’m truly, extremely grateful to you,” Xu Wenhao gazed at Xie He fixedly as he spoke with earnest words.
【Ding, Xu Wenhao’s Favourability Value+10. The current Favourability Value is 90.】
Xie He smiled. He was just about to tell him that it was nothing when the light overhead suddenly seemed to dim. A tall figure stood before him. When Xie He raised his head to take a glance, the smile on his face froze while fear quickly flashed through his eyes. He kept quiet with pursed lips.
Xu Wenhao also noticed Li Hongxuan and called out to greet him. After all, it was Li Hongxuan who had helped him out.
However, Li Hongxuan treated Xu Wenhao as if he was air. He didn’t even glance at him and instead headed closer towards Xie He with a profound gaze fixed onto the other.
Xie He instinctively took a step back. His thin body was rather stiff. He evidently had lingering trepidation related to what had happened last time.
Li Hongxuan held back the pain in his eyes and looked at him expressionlessly. He spoke in an indifferent tone, “Teacher Su, I have something to speak to you about.”
“O-Oh…OK…” Xie He said at once.
Li Hongxuan felt that Teacher’s obvious fear—how he didn’t dare to refuse him—was extremely unsightly. He squinted his eyes and did his best to make his tone softer, “Let’s go over there to talk.”
Xie He nodded and turned to face Xu Wenhao, “Sorry. I have something to attend to, so I will leave first.”
“OK,” Xu Wenhao said.
He felt that Teacher’s attitude towards Li Hongxuan was a bit off, but he couldn’t quite put his finger on it. Anyway, Li Hongxuan had always had that apathetic appearance that did not let others in. It was probably normal for Teacher to be unaccustomed to that, ba? He was probably overthinking matters.
Xu Wenhao said goodbye to Xie He and was just about to return to his spot to continue studying. However, he was stopped midway by Allen. Xu Wenhao did not have a good impression of Allen. This handsome man appeared to be a gentle and refined gentleman on the surface, but he was actually just as bad as Sun Zeyang on the inside. Xu Wenhao looked at him in question, not knowing why Allen had come looking for him.
Allen smiled at him politely and asked, “What did you and Teacher Su talk about just now?”
Xu Wenhao was slightly on guard, “Why are you asking?”
Allen sighed, worry seeping out of his eyes, “I just want to know what kind of hardships Teacher had encountered.”
Hearing this, Xu Wenhao felt a bit anxious and hurriedly asked, “Has Teacher encountered some difficulties?”
“Yes,” Allen blinked, “I want to help him, but he isn’t willing to tell me what happened. Just now, I saw that you and Teacher were talking and smiling, so I wondered whether you knew about his circumstances. That’s why I came over to ask you about it.”
Xu Wenhao shook his head, “I also don’t know. Teacher never said that he had any troubles.”
Allen’s eyes flashed, “Oh, it’s like this?”
“En,” Xu Wenhao also looked worried, “If I had known that Teacher was facing some difficulties, then I would have asked just now. Teacher has helped me so much, yet I can’t do anything for him.”
As he spoke, he lowered his head in vexation.
The corner of Allen’s lips raised slightly, but because Xu Wenhao had lowered his head, he did not notice.
His guess had been verified. Teacher had degraded himself to be with Li Hongxuan for Xu Wenhao’s sake. Since he now knew the reason, he could naturally figure out what appropriate steps he should take.
Allen’s tone was sincere as he spoke towards Xu Wenhao, “Since it’s like this, let’s go ask Teacher together, ba! Seeing him like this really makes me worried too.”
Xu Wenhao nodded repeatedly, “Yes. Since I now know about this, I naturally cannot watch this happen while sitting down!”
Teacher was such a good person. They weren’t familiar with each other, but he still stuck out a helping hand. Right now, he knew that Teacher was troubled. Xu Wenhao’s heart was torn with anxiety. He was just itching to go to Teacher’s side! However, he felt a bit uneasy. He sighed, “I just don’t know if I’ll be of any help….”
Allen smiled. He gazed at Xu Wenhao with a deep profoundness, “I believe that you will certainly be of great help.”
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Xie He blindly followed behind Li Hongxuan. In the end, they halted in a remote and deserted corridor.
Li Hongxuan did not speak. He used a complicated expression to gaze at Xie He. Xie He, in turn, cowered slightly upon being stared at with this sort of look. However, he didn’t dare leave and could only stand there obediently.
The fist hanging by Li Hongxuan’sside clenched, and he sucked in a deep breath. Only then was he able to remain calm. After a long time, he said, “I would never hit you.”
Xie He was startled. He looked at him dumbly.
Li Hongxuan was not a person that liked to explain himself. He, who would remain expressionless when even faced with slander hundreds of times more vilifying than this, threw away his pride and lowered his head in front of Teacher today in order to obtain the other’s forgiveness and understanding, “I said, I would never hit you.”
However, Teacher didn’t seem to understand just how difficult it was for him to say these words.
Xie He nodded his head out of habit. He did not refute his words and obediently whispered, “I know.”
Li Hongxuan’s heart sunk, his voice quiet and hoarse, “You don’t believe me?”
“No! I believe you!” Xie He’s face paled, and he did his utmost to shake his head, indicating that he was not doubting him in the least!
A self-deriding smile slowly appeared on Li Hongxuan’s face.
What was he hoping for? Did he actually think that he could make Teacher forget about that pain with just one phrase? Did he actually think that it would be so easy to erase his own mistakes and make Teacher once again open up to him?
He unexpectedly also could hope for impossible things.
This was the first time he had tried to explain himself to another person, but this person didn’t need his explanation at all.
Originally, he wanted to say I love you, but right now, it seemed that there was no need to do so. This was because, if he said it, he’d only be asking to be humiliated.
“Do…you have anything else to say?” Xie He stood there timidly, watching as Li Hongxuan’s expression kept fluctuating. Those dark eyes looked calm, but it was like a calm before a storm. A violent storm seemed to be brewing from within. He only felt extremely nervous and uneasy and was just wishing to escape from this stifling atmosphere.
Li Hongxuan fixed his eyes onto Teacher’s pale face and raised the corner of his lips, “Teacher, you don’t want to be with me for even a single moment, do you?”
“No, I…” Xie He hadn’t yet finished his sentence when he was dragged by the wrist into the Utility Room by Li Hongxuan!
This was normally the Utility Room used by the caretakers. At this time, no one would come by. Li Hongxuan kicked the door shut and pressed Xie He forcibly against the wall, ending up nose-to-nose. At such a close distance, he didn’t miss any emotion that leaked out of those clear, limpid, black eyes.
And in those eyes, there was only panic and fear.
He was really, really jealous. Teacher would show such a tender and amiable expression. He would treat his other students with such patience and gentleness. He was so easy-going, approachable, caring, and considerate to everyone else. However, he was only afraid of him.
If he could be looked at with those gentle eyes…if he could be cherished by this person, then just how good would it be?
This was because he had chosen to fall into the darkness and believe that everyone on this planet was the same. He believed that there was no one on this earth that could maintain their original convictions when faced with adversity. A person who could be like a ray of sunshine amidst desperate straits appeared though. Originally, he could have had this warmth…but because of his stupid arrogance, he had lost his chance.
Only, despite this, he didn’t want to let go. He wanted to keep this ray of sunlight in only his own personal world forever.
【444：Host dada, Allen and Xu Wenhao are coming over!】
【Xie He：I know. 🙂 】
Li Hongxuan lowered his head to kiss Xie He’s lips. His kiss was frantic and plundering. It made people unable to resist.
Xie He’s body trembled under Li Hongxuan’s forceful actions. After much difficulty, he was able to free himself of this stifling kiss and hurriedly gasped for air, his pallid face flushed red. A while later, he raised his red eyes, and his lips that had been ravaged until they were stained with an enticing colour trembled, imploring him weakly, “Not…not here, OK….”
That piteous entreating…it was clear that he was refusing him, but it also seemed like some sort of invitation, making the scorching * in Li Hongxuan’s heart unable to be pressed down. It made him restless. These past few days, he had been restraining himself to not appear in front of Teacher. Only when they met did he discover that everything had been for naught. With just a word or a look, Teacher could so easily turn the self-control he was so proud of into a joke. He wanted him. He had already become crazy from wanting him.
Li Hongxuan’s pupils darkened, and his voice was low, “Why? Actually, no matter where or when, Teacher never wants it, right? What you don’t want is me…it has nothing to do with time or place.”
“T-that’s not it…” Xie He avoided Li Hongxuan’s gaze. He wanted to hide but behind him was a wall. There was nowhere to escape to.
“But I want you, even if you don’t want me,” Li Hongxuan lowered his head, biting at Xie He’s ears. That cold and stern yet passionate voice seemed as if it was making some unbreakable pledge, “You can never get rid of me, Teacher.”
Xie He gazed at him with fear and alarm in his eyes, “You…You said that it would only be for two months.”
Li Hongxuan laughed. This laughed seemed to carry a self-mocking undertone, “Yes. I had said that you had to accompany me for two months in exchange for helping Xu Wenhao. However, right now, I regret it. I feel that two months is far from enough.”
“How could you be like this!?” Xie He stared at him in shock, angry and anxious.
“Why can’t I?” Li Hongxuan eyed Teacher’s face, his voice adoring, “To put it another way, do you want the world to see your photos?”
Xie He’s pupils constricted, “The price for the photos, I…I’ve already paid that.”
“Truly so naive and cute that it makes people want to bully you, ne…” Li Hongxuan didn’t want to continue restricting himself. He lowered his head to kiss those soft lips again and sighed lightly, “Teacher…don’t think about leaving me….”
Xie He felt cold air hit his body. His clothes were torn off, and one of his legs was raised. Then, he was violently entered.
Xie He’s body shook fiercely. He bit his lips tightly, but quiet sobs still flowed up….
“Wu…I’m begging you…Don’t do this..” Xie He’s eyes were red, and his eyelashes were stained with a layer of mist. He parted his lips to plead, “Don’t…ah…!”
“I told you before, don’t try to refuse me,” Li Hongxuan’s voice was gentle, but his actions carried a callousness that was not easy to resist.
Xie He firmly bit his lips. Only then was he able to stop himself from making those embarrassing noises. Each time he weakly tried to resist, he would be ruthlessly suppressed by a force hundreds of times stronger. In the end, he was unable to speak and could only let out quiet sobs and whimpers like a little boat rocking helplessly atop of a raging river.
The pleasure of having their bodies fused together as close they could be made Li Hongxuan feel satisfied. It was as if he already had completely possessed the person before him.
He kissed Teacher’s body with tenderness. This devoutness was like he was waiting upon an aloof and remote god.
Teacher, I love you.
Even though you don’t know.
【Ding. The target Li Hongxuan’s Favourability Value +2. The current Favourability Value is 92.】
Eve: Why is this so sad. WHY.
Kara: I knew it would be bad, but I’m more frustrated than sad actually. LH, why are you so stubborn?!! Just tell him you love him! Also, let SY/XH finish a sentence for once before you go assuming things!! AHHHHHHHHH!