Chapter Ch187.2 - Undercurrent of Emotions (2)
Translated by Eve
Edited by Serefina
Xie He went outside and saw Kenny smoking in the corner. Liang Chengshan didn’t like people smoking in front of him, so Kenny would always go outside to smoke. When he saw Xie He come out, disdain flashed through his eyes but he didn’t dare say anything more.
Xie He was the person Liang Chengshan was going to marry. Kenny had followed Liang Chengshan for many years. He had now realized that his always coldhearted and terrifying boss could also love someone…. If he dared bully Xie He, he didn’t doubt that Liang Chengshan would dismember his body. That wasn’t an analogy. Liang Chengshan would actually do it.
Xie He hesitated, eyes darting from side to side. He then asked, “Why do you dislike me?”
Kenny’s expression was wooden. “I don’t dislike you.”
Xie He shook his head. “You’re lying. You clearly dislike me. Why?” He didn’t dare ask Kenny directly about himself. He could only probe like this. Even if Liang Chengshan found out, he would only think he was doing this out of a sense of inferiority and sensitivity.
Kenny turned around, wanting to leave, but Xie He cut him off, his eyes fixed on him. “You loathe me this much? To the point where you’re not even willing to speak to me? What did I do to anger you? If you won’t tell me, I’ll ask Chengshan. He’ll definitely tell me.”
Kenny: “….” F*ck, why did this youngster still have such a venomous tongue even with amnesia? He was going to tell on Kenny to Kenny’s boss, tell him that Kenny found it below himself to speak to Xie He….If his boss heard that, he’d be killed.
Right now, Xie He couldn’t beat him in a fight, but Kenny still had to bow to him and be disciplined by him. It really sucked.
Kenny’s tone was stiff. The burly fellow currently looked like an elementary schooler standing in front of the teacher he hated the most but dared not offend. “I disliked you before because you betrayed Boss.”
Xie He looked upset and continued, “How…did I betray him?”
Kenny hesitated. “You…let an undercover cop go. Moreover, you tried to kill Boss twice. I only know that much. Everyone knows about this.”
Xie He’s expression changed. He knew that he could not keep pressing. It would only incur Kenny’s doubt. He nodded, dejected, and said, “So it was like that. No wonder you hate me. I’m sorry. But don’t worry, I won’t do that again.”
Kenny nodded stiffly. “Can I leave now?”
Xie He moved out of the way at once. He stared at Kenny’s departing figure, pensive…. An undercover cop…why did he let an undercover cop go? Why did he try to kill Liang Chengshan? It couldn’t be…that he worked for the police?
But in that case, why did Liang Chengshan fall in love with him? Why did he treat Xie He so well?
Liang Chengshan was worried that Xie He would be bored so he didn’t stay at the office for long. Very soon, he came out after finishing his work. He found Xie He standing on the glass-encased balcony, staring off into space. He walked over and hugged him gently from behind. “I made you wait.”
Xie He lowered his head, hiding the complicated expression in his eyes. Recently, his heart had been entangled in a constant struggle. He had gradually learned how to hide his emotions.
He felt like his heart was no longer honest. His love for Liang Chengshan was no longer pure….
What was even scarier was the possibility of returning to that place. He didn’t dare let Liang Chengshan know any of this. He could only use all his power to hide it.
Xie He turned around and hugged Liang Chengshan back. He said in a docile tone, “It’s fine. In any case, I don’t have anything to do. I just don’t want to give you any trouble.”
Liang Chengshan kissed Xie He passionately. He smiled. “As long as it has to do with you, it won’t be any trouble.” He loved the other so much. He was willing to pamper him with everything he had. Liang Chengshan had always been very clear with his emotions. He also cherished being able to love someone.
Before, he had never loved someone so deeply. And he would never love someone else like this in the future, either.
He would probably only ever get to love like this once in his life.
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Xie He looked moved. He said, “I see&#k2026;.”
Liang Chengshan knew that Xie He hated the elevator, so he wrapped an arm around him and pulled him flush against his chest before entering. The young man in his arms was pressed tightly against him. His body trembled slightly and his arms were wrapped around Liang Chengshan’s waist. Only like this could he remain calm.
As soon as Xie He exited the elevator, he seemed to let go of Liang Chengshan out of shyness. But actually…he just didn’t want to rely on the other so much. He thought that he shouldn’t rely on someone he hated. It hurt him.
Liang Chengshan didn’t suspect a thing. Right now, he fully trusted his lover that he had personally crafted. He trusted him like he trusted himself. He didn’t want to doubt Xie He again…. Liang Chengshan had hurt him so much in the past. Now, all he wanted to do was give his all in loving him. He wanted to make up for all the past harm he had inflicted.
Liang Chengshan held Xie He’s hand and smiled. “Let’s go out to eat today.”
He felt that he should let Xie He see more of the world. That was why he would occasionally take him out to eat.
Xie He and Liang Chengshan arrived at a very famous luxury restaurant. Liang Chengshan pulled Xie He’s chair out for him. He then started to order dishes. He was refined, cultured, mature and steady the whole time.
Xie He was a bit absentminded. He was nowhere as calm as he looked. He couldn’t help but keep thinking about why he hated Liang Chengshan and why he had betrayed the other…. Liang Chengshan treated him so well, how could he bear to betray someone who loved him like this?
He felt guilty.
Xie He ate slowly. Halfway through, he stood up and said, “I have to go to the washroom.”
Liang Chengshan smiled and nodded. He watched Xie He get up.
After Xie He left, bodyguards immediately followed after him. It wasn’t to monitor him but to protect him. Liang Chengshan had too many enemies. He had now proclaimed to the world with great fanfare that Xie He was his lover. Everyone knew that Xie He was his weak spot. Therefore, they had to protect him better…. Liang Chengshan didn’t want to feel regret if he were to make a mistake.
Xie He didn’t mind. He was already used to being followed around by bodyguards. The bodyguard that followed him was a tall, young man named Gary. He didn’t appear often. He also didn’t look at Xie He with disdain or disgust, which was why Xie He had some impression of him.
【Xie He：Honestly, it’s really not easy to find an opportunity to connect with Uncle Hall. Luckily Gary is quite clever. Smile.JPG 】
【444：Why do you want to see Hall? @[email protected]】
【Xie He：There are steps to recovering one’s memory. I’m cultivating emotion. After all, I’m a dedicated actor. As for my other reasons, you’ll find out later. Anyway, I’m a filial son who wants to take revenge for my father. My heart is filled with righteousness.】
【444：……】_(:зゝ∠)_
【Xie He：Heh, now that I’m thinking about how we’ll have to break up soon, I feel a bit reluctant. After all, Uncle Liang is big, good in bed, gentle, and kinky. I’m really satisfied with him. I will definitely take good care of him. 🙂 】
【444：O(∩_∩)O~】
Gary respectfully guarded outside the washroom door. A while later, a middle-aged man wearing a hat walked over and asked Gary, “Is Yang Ling inside?”
Gary nodded, voice hushed. “He’s inside. But do you really want to see him? He’s lost his memory. He doesn’t remember anyone. And he’s loyal and devoted to Liang Chengshan. Your taking a risk to meet with him isn’t very wise.”
The man lifted the brim of his hat, revealing a broad face full of determination. Guilt flashed through his hazel eyes. “I have to see him. I can’t watch as he continues walking down this road. I am responsible for him.”
Gary knew that there was no use trying to persuade him. He could only watch as the man entered the room.
The washroom was empty save for Xie He. He had just opened the door, about to leave, when a man suddenly came in and covered his mouth!
Xie He instantly broke out into a fearful expression.
When Hall saw Xie He like this, deep pain emerged in his eyes. Back then, he had been opposed to this. He hadn’t wanted this child to get involved in the name of revenge. How could Liang Chengshan be that easy to deal with? If he was easy to deal with, the police would not have been left so helpless. However, Yang Ling hadn’t listened to him and had been insistent on joining Liang Chengshan’s organization…. Back then, he hadn’t been able to protect Yang Jin and now, he couldn’t protect Yang Jin’s son. It made him feel utterly ashamed.
“I’m your Uncle Hall, but you don’t remember me, do you?” Hall asked.
Xie He shook his head, watching the other warily. But what was surprising was that he didn’t actually feel all that afraid of this person who had made a sudden appearance. He could sense that the other would not hurt him.
Hall’s heart hurt. He stared at Xie He and said in a low voice, “I don’t know what Liang Chengshan did to you to make you like this…but I really regret not having stopped you. If I had known that this would happen, I would rather have locked you up at home then let you come here.”
Hall stressed, “I came here today to tell you that you must not marry Liang Chengshan. I don’t want to see you regretful or hurt.”
Xie He slowly calmed down. This person obviously knew him. And…he might be someone very close to him to say such things.
He must know why Xie He wanted to kill Liang Chengshan, why he hated him. He could not let this opportunity pass!
Xie He used his eyes to convey that he would not shout. He moved his lips. He had something that he wanted to say.
Hall stared into Xie He’s eyes. He knew that he would be taking a risk with letting go of Xie He. Although he was with the police, he had taken a risk coming here. No one would be able to save him if he were to be beaten to death by Liang Chengshan’s people. But…he still chose to slowly release his hold. He trusted the child he had raised. He could see that Xie He wasn’t as Gary had said. He wasn’t completely loyal to Liang Chengshan.
Xie He felt Hall loosen his hold and sighed in relief. He didn’t shout. He looked at Hall earnestly and lowered his voice. “Do you know why I wanted to kill Liang Chengshan?”
Hall regarded Xie He pensively. “You remember that you wanted to kill him?”
Xie He’s gaze was complicated. He was silent for a moment before saying, “No. Someone else told me that. All I remember is that I should hate him. But I’ve forgotten everything else. Can you tell me?” When he said this, an eager yearning for knowledge appeared in his eyes.
Hall paused, and then looked gratified. It seemed like Xie He wasn’t completely under Liang Chengshan’s control. This was the best news he had gotten all day. He didn’t hesitate to say, “I can tell you. I know everything.”
Xie He said at once, “Please tell me.”
Hall said, “Your father was an undercover officer. You parents were murdered by Liang Chengshan. Later on, I raised you…but you ended up hiding your identity and infiltrating Liang Chengshan’s organization for the sake of revenge. This is why you hate him and why you tried to kill him. You absolutely cannot marry Liang Chengshan…. I don’t want you to regret your actions when you recover your memories. I told you, the police can help you with your revenge. There’s no need for you to be involved. Are you…willing to leave with me? I can hide you and make sure that Liang Chengshan can’t find you.”
Xie He stared at him, dazed. “An undercover officer? My father? Then what about me…? Am I an undercover officer?”
Hall shook his head. “No. I didn’t let you become one.”
Xie He looked confused. He had always thought that he was perhaps an undercover cop and that was why he had tried to kill Liang Chengshan and betray him. But he wasn’t…. It was his father who had been one….
Hall asked again, anxiously, “Will you leave with me? I can protect you.”
Xie He was silent for a long time before saying, “I…can’t leave.” His feelings were complicated. Furthermore, he…couldn’t leave Liang Chengshan. He hadn’t gotten the full truth yet…so he couldn’t leave yet….
Hall sighed. “Think it over. This is my number. If you decide you want to leave, call me. I’ll figure out a way to come see you again.”
He could not hold Xie He up for long. If Liang Chengshan came looking, it’d be dangerous.
Xie He knew that Hall had to leave. He suddenly thought of something and asked, “My parents…what were their names?”
Hall said, “Your father was Yang Jin and your mother was Ji Ling.”
Xie He’s expression changed at once. His body faltered and he reached out to hold onto the wall, preventing himself from falling. His father…was Yang Jin…Yang Jin….
Hall was worried, seeing Xie He like this. He asked, “What’s wrong?”
Xie He looked up, sorrow in his eyes. His voice was hoarse, “My father…was he really killed by Liang Chengshan?”
Hall nodded.
Xie He said, “I understand. You should leave soon. When I make my decision, I’ll give you a call.”
Hall was still very concerned but he could hear a quiet knock from Gary outside—a warning. He had no choice but to leave.
Xie He stood up. There was an intense struggle and pain in his eyes. A fierce stab of pain pricked his brain and he suddenly recalled…how that bone-deep hatred had sprouted after he had fainted in front of Yang Jin’s tombstone…how it had made him uneasy….
If what Hall said were true…then that explained everything. He was about to marry his father’s murderer. His parents had died at this man’s hands and this man had even said that Xie He was going to marry him in front of Xie He’s father’s grave. His father would never forgive him!
Xie He grabbed his collar and took in a pained breath.
Suddenly, he heard a flurry of hurried footsteps. These footsteps were very familiar. Even in a crowd, he’d be able to recognize them. It was Liang Chengshan. He had come looking for him.
Xie He watched as the door opened. However, he didn’t have the strength to stand up. In his mind, one name was played over and over again: Yang Jin….
Yang Jin was his father. He used to be Liang Chengshan’s best friend. But Liang Chengshan had killed him….
He had killed him.
The author has something to say:
Actually didn’t make it to the fallout this chapter. This silly author is so tired she’s become a corpse…. I’ve already prepared their ‘happy break up’ 23333. They break up next chapter. If they don’t break up, the coffin won’t be able to hold Papa Yang back. 23333
Eve: Finally. Gotta say, LCS is crazy and cruel af but…I have this terrible realization that my fave world MLs are…the older ones HAHAHA. Something about a mature, refined man who has his life together…. Nut. Of course I would happily steer clear of psychos who murder without blinking and would torture you into loving them in real life tyvm. Not to mention the age difference is kind of creepy.
sere: lmao eve kinkyyyy jk its true tho its cuz they’re mature and have their shit together. I am also attracted to intelligence and emotional maturity.