Chapter Ch186.1 - Justice Will Prevail Over Evil (1)
Translated by Eve
Edited by Serefina
Chapter will be split into three. It’s ten thousand words long. 16k Chinese characters long. An average chapter for novels is 3000 Chinese characters. Please understand that splitting is necessary for our sanity. T^T
11. Justice Will Prevail Over Evil (1)
Liang Chengshan strode in quickly, wanting to carry Xie He out. However, he suddenly felt his shoe step into something soft and wet. He paused. It felt like something ice-cold had climbed up his body from the bottom of his soles, freezing him solid.
He knew…that it was the flesh from his beloved’s arms. The flesh had been torn off by the other….
Liang Chengshan was used to seeing death. His expression would never change regardless of whatever cruel scene he was met with. Although he had witnessed worse situations in the past, it was the first time he felt like his chest hurt so much he found it hard to breathe.
His heart felt extremely heavy, but his face slowly revealed a gentle and comforting smile. He looked at Xie He with eyes that seemed to hold a sea of tolerance within them. He pulled Xie He gently into his arms and quietly said, “It’s fine now. I’m here.”
Xie He instantly calmed down as soon as he was in Liang Chengshan’s embrace. He reached out to hug Liang Chengshan tightly, his voice raspy. “I just. Went back there. It was so dark and cold….”
There had been darkness everywhere…. There hadn’t been any sounds. It had been cold metal all around him. The deeply-rooted fear and pain from his memories had once again enveloped him.
He couldn’t help but recall the endless loneliness and exhaustion that had nearly tortured him into insanity during the time in which he had been engulfed in darkness. He had had a splitting headache, which had been why he had been knocking his head against the wall—he had wanted to alleviate the pain. But it had been useless. He had then started to bite himself. He had wanted to divert the pain in his head with pain from his body.
But everything had been no use. They had only made matters worse. He had known what he had wanted. All of this would be useless. He had only wanted Liang Chengshan.
Liang Chengshan used his sleeve to gently wipe the blood from Xie He’s face. He saw the other give him a serene smile with his face completely covered in blood. His blood stained eyes were gazing at him with yearning and admiration….Liang Chengshan’s always steady voice carried an imperceptible tremble. He said, “Don’t be afraid. This isn’t that place.”
Xie He looked perplexed. This wasn’t that place? His memories were a mess. He couldn’t tell where he was right now.
Liang Chengshan glanced at the bloody mess that was Xie He’s arms. His heart ached terribly. He knew that he had to take Xie He away from here as soon as possible. He lowered his head to kiss Xie He. The taste of blood filled his mouth….
Liang Chengshan shut his eyes and said, “This isn’t that place. And you will very quickly be able to leave here.”
Liang Chengshan carried Xie He in his arms. He was prepared to hand Xie He over to someone outside.
The bodyguards outside had been nervously watching everything inside. When they saw Liang Chengshan’s actions, they went to reach out and take Xie He, but Xie He suddenly started to shriek. “No! Don’t!”
He grabbed tightly onto Liang Chengshan’s arms and wouldn’t let go. Fear once again appeared in his eyes. “Don’t throw me away.”
He didn’t want to leave Liang Chengshan. He had just returned to the other man’s side….
Xie He had cried out instinctively in fear. But soon after, he realized that he had just questioned Liang Chengshan’s decision. This might make Liang Chengshan unhappy. After all, Liang Chengshan only wanted what was best for him. He shouldn’t be so unreasonable.
Xie He looked at Liang Chengshan with pleading eyes and lowered his voice. “I’m sorry. I-I just want to be with you….”
Liang Chengshan could see the distress in Xie He’s eyes. He didn’t hesitate to pull his arms back in, bringing Xie He close to his body. He consoled him. “You didn’t do anything wrong. I was being inconsiderate. I would never throw you away.”
He gave his subordinates a look, telling them to get the elevator repaired quickly. He then carried Xie He back inside.
The elevator was stuck between two floors. Right now, they could only leave one person at a time. If he didn’t let Xie He go, there would be no way for the two of them to leave. They could only wait until the elevator was fixed. Liang Chengshan watched as the blood dripped down from Xie He’s forehead and arms. He quickly ordered his subordinates to throw medicine and bandages inside. He wrapped Xie He’s wounds simply and then continued to hold him, caressing his back. “Sleep for a while.”
Xie He reflexively felt sleepy when he heard Liang Chengshan tell him to sleep while he laid in the other’s arms. Very quickly, he fell asleep in Liang Chengshan’s embrace.
Liang Chengshan watched Xie He sleep. Pain on Xie He’s behalf appeared in his eyes.
Regret flickered through his heart. This was the first time he regretted his actions. He blamed himself for having been too careless and negligent. It was normal for Xie He to react like this. Everything had been within his expectations….
He had promised that he would protect Xie He, that he would never let anything hurt him again. He had told the other that he could rely on him.
But he hadn’t protected Xie He well. He let something happen to him….
The bloody scene before him had given Liang Chengshan a rude awakening. His actions had serious consequences and everything that had happened had been because of him.
Although he had just wanted the other to love him&#k2026;he had caused the person he loved pain.
&#k3010;Ding, the target Liang Chengshan’s Favourability Value +1. The current Favourability Value is 92.&#k3011;
The employees outside saw that their boss was stuck in the elevator and were extremely anxious as they went to find a repairman. After some time, the elevator was finally fixed. The elevator started to slowly move before finally coming to a stop on the seventh floor. The door opened.
Xie He was still asleep. Liang Chengshan carried him straight to the hospital. He had a doctor treat Xie He’s wounds.
Xie He woke up from the pain. However, he realized that Liang Chengshan was still holding him and that they were already outside. That comforted him. The physical pain was not important.
He had finally left that place. Moreover, the person he loved was with him. He gazed at Liang Chengshan intimately. He was moved. He said, “I’m lucky to have you here.”
Liang Chengshan gazed into Xie He’s eyes and saw genuine love inside of them. Xie He was truly grateful that Liang Chengshan existed in this world.
This was what Liang Chengshan had wanted…but when he saw the mottled scars on Xie He’s arms and recalled how he had bitten the flesh off, his heart slowly sank. It felt stifled and heavy.
You only feel this way because you’ve forgotten who it was that had brought you this pain.
If you remembered, you wouldn’t think this way…. You would only hate me all the more.
Liang Chengshan held Xie He tightly. He had thought that everything had been in his control but he couldn’t help but feel uneasy and worried today. He was afraid that Xie He would end up hurt somewhere without his knowledge. He was afraid that Xie He would remember it all…. The human heart was the hardest thing to control in this world.
Even if it were him, he did not dare say he could have absolute control over it.
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Because Xie He was injured, he did not go out for many days. He stayed at home and nursed his injuries the whole time. Although Liang Chengshan spent as much time at home with Xie He as he could, Xie He’s mood was still very low.
Liang Chengshan saw this and sighed. He asked, “You’re not happy?”
Xie He looked upset and responded honestly. “I think that I’m really useless. I can’t even do something that small. I even hurt myself and made you worry. I’m sorry….”
Liang Chengshan gave him a gentle smile. “It’s only a small wound. Everyone gets hurt sometimes. It’ll be fine when you get better. You don’t have to blame yourself for this.”
Xie He murmured, “Really?”
But he didn’t feel at ease. Something like that had happened to him and he had once again made Liang Chengshan worry about him. It was as if he was a burden to Liang Chengshan.
Xie He was depressed. Another day passed. Liang Chengshan came home a little later, and Xie He was unable to sit still as he waited at home. As soon as he heard the door open, he ran over. He looked at Liang Chengshan with nervous anticipation.
Liang Chengshan smiled and said, “Sorry. I went to the hospital. That’s why I came back a bit late.”
Xie He only then noticed that there was a bandage over Liang Chengshan’s arm. There was also a bit of blood that had seeped through. Immediately, he forgot about his own dispirited mood. He looked at Liang Chengshan worriedly. “You’re hurt.”
Liang Chengshan was nonchalant about it. “Yes. I accidentally wounded my arm a bit. Do you want to see it?”
Xie He nodded. He was really worried about Liang Chengshan. He wanted to know everything about him and his business.
Liang Chengshan unwrapped his arm and revealed the wound. It was a very long knife injury. The wound was flat and didn’t seem very frightening. However, it was slightly deep.
Xie He’s heart ached for him. “What happened…?”
Liang Chengshan didn’t let Xie He look at it for long. He was afraid the other would become upset. He re-wrapped his arm and calmly said, “I wasn’t careful and ended up nicked. It’s fine. It’s not my first time getting injured.”
Xie He still felt nervous and concerned.
Liang Chengshan laughed, feeling helpless. He gazed at Xie He, eyes full of affection. “It’s really fine. A small injury like this is nothing. You don’t have to worry about it at all…. Or rather, do you not like me anymore now that I’m injured? Do you think I’m useless?”
Xie He immediately explained himself, tone fretful, “Of course not! I’m just worried about you.”
How could he stop liking Liang Chengshan over something like this? How could he think the other was useless? Liang Chengshan was like a god to him. He was Xie He’s whole world. Liang Chengshan had always been so strong and reliable…. Liang Chengshan’s words made him feel like his own feelings were being misinterpreted, causing him to feel really sad.
Liang Chengshan could see that Xie He was so upset he was about to cry. He rubbed the other’s head, tone doting. “I believe you. You would definitely not despise me over something as trifling as this.”
Xie He calmed down when he heard this.
Liang Chengshan hugged Xie He and planted a loving, lingering kiss on his lips. His tone was deep and magnetic, like a strum of a guqin against your heart. “I feel the same for you. I would never despise you over a small injury or mistake. I left you at home because I was worried about you. I wanted you to get better. It’s not because I thought you were useless. If you were to continue to doubt my feelings for you, I’d feel hurt.”
Xie He’s mind blanked.
Liang Chengshan patiently looked at him and smiled. “Do you understand what I’m saying?”
Xie He gazed into his warm eyes and could see the calm sea-like depths within. His heart slowly calmed down. That’s right, ah.… His worries had been too ridiculous. Liang Chengshan loved him so much, how could he despise him over something as trifling as this? He had been letting his imagination run wild.
Actually, this wasn’t important at all….
Xie He smiled. He hugged Liang Chengshan back, feeling touched. “I understand.”
Liang Chengshan gave Xie He a praising look. He passionately kissed the other and later entered him. Xie He held onto Liang Chengshan tightly. The gloominess that had accumulated during this time gradually dissipated from his heart. In the end, he fell into a peaceful sleep in Liang Chengshan’s arms.
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【Xie He：Oh….】
【444：(⊙v⊙) Hm?】
【Xie He：Uncle Liang’s level is rather high. I quite admire him. Smile.JPG】
【444：？？？】I don’t get it…._(:зゝ∠)_
【Xie He：But the harder he is to deal with, the more I want to beat him. Does he think I don’t have tricks up my sleeve? Hehe.】
【444：……】
【Xie He：It’s not easy wanting to make up for past wrongs. 🙂 】
【444：O(∩_∩)O~】Mn, in any case, what Host dada says is right!
Xie He’s forehead had only been bumped and bruised. It wasn’t a very serious injury. It had more-or-less healed within a few days. When he took off the gauze, he could only see a faint mark. When his bangs covered it, it became unnoticeable. It would fully recover in no time.
The wounds on his arms were deeper. The bites had not been equal and it would be harder for his skin to heal there. It was still wrapped in gauze, but it didn’t affect his daily activities.
Although Xie He knew that Liang Chengshan wouldn’t spurn him for staying at home, he still wanted to go out with Liang Chengshan. He wanted to be at the other’s side. He didn’t want to stay at home all day with nothing to do.
Liang Chengshan agreed happily. He once again brought Xie He to the company.
When they reached the elevator, Xie He suddenly hesitated. Fear involuntarily emerged in his eyes. Because of the malfunction last time, he had developed a serious lingering fear of the elevator. That narrow metal room…with the door closed, it would become difficult for him to breathe. If something happened again, what should he do…?
When he recalled the hopelessness he had felt when he had been alone in the elevator, his face paled.
Liang Chengshan sensed Xie He’s hesitation. He gripped Xie He’s hand tightly and gently told him, “It’s fine. We’re together.”
Xie He held Liang Chengshan’s hand in a death grip. He actually didn’t want to take the elevator, but there were tens of floors in this giant building. He could not rely on the stairs…. If he didn’t dare to even ride the elevator, how would he be able to be with Liang Chengshan normally?
There were high rises everywhere….
Xie He grit his teeth. He slowly took a step forward. The moment he was about to cross the threshold, he saw the white metal walls inside. All of a sudden, his body was wracked with uncontrollable tremors. No matter what he did, he could not take that step in….
Liang Chengshan stared at Xie He’s profile. Heartache flashed through his eyes. He suddenly reached out and enveloped Xie He tightly into his embrace. Before Xie He could react, he then brought them into the elevator and closed the door!
Xie He didn’t think they would enter like this. His pupils dilated and he looked frightened. He struggled with all his might, wanting to escape, but Liang Chengshan was holding him tightly. The other’s deep voice rang in his ear. “I’m still here. Look, you’re fine.”
Xie He’s heart was racing. His legs went soft. He gripped Liang Chengshan’s clothes tightly. As he listened to the other’s heart beat and felt the warmth of his embrace, he slowly calmed down. That’s right…. Liang Chengshan was still here. As long as he was with him, there was nothing to fear.
He was still here.
Xie He slowly looked up. The fear had disappeared and he flashed the other a wane smile. “Mn.”
Liang Chengshan smiled back and looked at him encouragingly. “It was just an accident last time. It won’t happen again, so you don’t have to be afraid. It’s just an elevator. It won’t take you back to that place.”
Xie He nodded and he regained his cool. He gazed at Liang Chengshan admiringly.
Liang Chengshan only let go of Xie He’s hand when the elevator stopped. When Xie He set foot on stable ground again, he no longer felt any alarm. He thought that this probably wouldn’t be an issue. He could overcome it…. He still wanted to be with Liang Chengshan.
Xie He’s heart had calmed down. He began to work as usual. He didn’t have that much work though, so most of the time, he would just hang out in Liang Chengshan’s office. Occasionally he would go out, but it was rare for him to be out of Liang Chengshan’s sight.
Liang Chengshan’s secretary was rather busy. He had recently gotten a bit closer to Xie He. He knew that the young man was his boss’ lover and so he acted very amicably. He smiled and asked, “Do you have any time? There are some documents I would like you to help me take to the marketing division on the 26th floor.”
Xie He stood up and smiled. “Okay.”
He took the documents and left. Liang Chengshan’s office was on the 56th floor. There were thirty floors between them. After Xie He left the office, he stood in front of the elevator with a vexed expression. He hadn’t thought about it much earlier, but he had to ride the elevator again so soon….
He stood in front of the elevator for a long time. He watched as the door opened and closed but he never managed to gather the nerve to step in. The people who entered the elevator all cast questioning gazes at him. Xie He felt very embarrassed.
At this moment, Kenny walked down the corridor and saw that Xie He had been standing at the elevator for more than ten minutes without moving. A mocking smile appeared on his lips. “You can’t even ride the elevator?”
Kenny had also seen the tragic state Xie He had been in last time. Although he didn’t know what Xie He had experienced to have become like this, when he thought that the previously arrogant youngster had become useless, he felt delighted, like his anger had been vented. Right now, he didn’t even have any interest in provoking the other. He only felt disdain.
Xie He could see the ridicule in Kenny’s eyes and embarrassment filled his own. He couldn’t help but lower his gaze. He couldn’t refute it. He was indeed afraid….
But if he were to accept his fate like a coward, would Liang Chengshan be disappointed in him? The other had said that everything would be fine now. If Xie He couldn’t do it, then that meant the problem lay with him. He couldn’t disappoint Liang Chengshan. He didn’t want to be useless….
Xie He clenched the documents in his hands tightly. When the elevator opened again, he grit his teeth, shut his eyes, and darted in!
His body swayed to a stop and he slowly opened his eyes. He watched as the elevator doors slowly closed. He was alone here…. Liang Chengshan wasn’t with him. When the door was almost fully closed…he couldn’t help but remember what had happened last time.
Last time was the same. As soon as the door closed, the world around him had transformed into an icy darkness….
Xie He suddenly became terrified. He began to smash his hand against the ‘open’ button with all his might before running out. He knelt on the ground, hand on his chest as he took in ragged breaths. It was hard to breathe. It was so terrifying. He couldn’t go in.
The documents were scattered in front of him.
Xie He slowly looked up and saw Kenny standing in front of him and looking down at him. The other seemed to be silently laughing at him. His disdainful gaze was like an arrow, piercing Xie He’s heart and reminding him that he was useless. He had no way of proving himself. It was like what Kenny had said…he was afraid.
Xie He knelt there before slowly picking up the documents. He couldn’t ride the elevator so he would have to take the stairs. He turned around and headed for the stairwell.
A whole thirty floors. For Xie He’s current stamina, it was extremely taxing. When he came back, he almost couldn’t walk. He could only sit inside the stairwell to rest. He was drenched with sweat all over….
Liang Chengshan noticed that Xie He still hadn’t come back. He went out to inquire about him. Only then did he find out from Kenny that Xie He had taken the stairs. He immediately understood what must have happened and glared at Kenny with cold eyes. “I’ll warn you once. You ought to treat him with more respect. If you can’t even follow that order, then you don’t have to follow me anymore.”
Kenny had worked at Liang Chengshan’s side for many years. This was the first time he had received such a solemn warning. He was startled into breaking out into a cold sweat. “I’m sorry, Boss.”
Liang Chengshan left. He descended the stairs anxiously, looking for Xie He. Finally, he found Xie He who was sitting down and leaning against the wall.
His heart ached terribly. He promptly went over to carry the other in his arms. He said, “I told you before, if you can’t do it, tell me. Don’t force yourself.”
Xie He looked up at Liang Chengshan. There was worry and concern in the other’s eyes. Xie He couldn’t stop the tears from coming out. He grabbed Liang Chengshan’s arms and sadly said, “I can’t do it…I can’t do it….”
He didn’t dare take the elevator. Without Liang Chengshan, he couldn’t even take the elevator.
He was useless trash.
Liang Chengshan knew that there was something wrong with Xie He’s current state. He gently stroked him, soothing him. He then carried him out of the building and took him home.
Liang Chengshan told Xie He, “No one is omnipotent. It’s normal to be unable to do something. There’s no need to feel upset.”
But this time, he couldn’t comfort Xie He. The young man’s eyes were dim and although his lips moved, no words came out…. Xie He knew that Liang Chengshan was only trying to console him. He knew that he was not normal. He was not a normal person….
Liang Chengshan could read the sadness in Xie He’s eyes and for the first time, he felt truly helpless. For the first time, he felt like things were out of his control.
For Xie He, the elevator and that dark place were the same terrifying place. It was what he was most afraid of. He would never be able to overcome it…. Although Liang Chengshan could give him temporary solace now, as long as he wasn’t around, Xie He would never be able to do it on his own.
sere: well rip in pieces u scummy man you deserve it