I Was So Wrong
Nancy, if you’re reading this letter, I’m probably no longer in this world.
I’m sorry for saying goodbye like this. I am in so much pain. Many times when I regained
consciousness, I would find myself holding a piece of glass, or my arms would be full of needle
holes. Nancy, I’m sick. So I came to the psychiatric hospital, hoping that they could cure me.
But turns out, it is useless. Brandon used to appear in my mind when I fell asleep. But now, it’s
Solomon.
Nancy, I’m really crazy.
I don’t know what I’ve done these few years. I used to be obsessed with Brandon deeply. But after I
saw Solomon take Ichika home, I realized I could not be bothered regardless of how badly Brandon
had treated me.
But instead, I am upset seeing Solomon being so in love with Ichika. It feels as though a thousand
needles are stabbing through my heart. I even wanted to destroy their relationship and drive Ichika
away.
Nancy, am I scary? Am I a shameless person?
Yes, even I can’t accept myself.
So, I chose to leave you guys. Maybe it’s because I have a terrible marriage with Brandon. I got jealous
when I saw Solomon and Ichika being so happy. After I left Brandon and went back to my own life, I
figured everything would be fine.
But, Nancy, it didn’t work out.
The sufferings didn’t stop but got worse. When I locked myself up in the psychiatric hospital these two
months, I felt like dying. I kept thinking about those days back in Clear, and I’m desperate to go back to
that time. Back then, I could eat at your place after getting off work. And whenever I got into trouble, I
could find Solomon shamelessly.
Nancy, I finally understand. I’m like a kid who got spoiled by you two. I’m not the youngest among us,
but because the two of you are too outstanding and because of your care, I became someone who only
knew how to create troubles. No matter how many mistakes I made, you guys would always tolerate
me.
You guys are like my family.
But this time, after what happened with Brandon, everything’s gone.
I can’t be like before anymore. I can’t cry in your arms and I can’t find Solomon as I want and live in his
house as if it is my home.
I can’t anymore.
Nancy, how did I end up like this?
Ichika said that Solomon has suffered too much. He needed someone who could be patient with him.
Indeed, that was what I failed to do after being by his side for so many years.
In fact, I’ve never thought of it that way.
Nancy, I’ve always thought that he would never love another woman besides you.
Tears welled up in Sasha’s eyes as she read the long letter, and the glass in her hand fell to the floor.
Instantly, the glass shattered upon impact.
Sebastian, who was outside, rushed in after hearing the noise.
“Are you all right?”
After a long while, Sasha lifted her head and stared at Sebastian, her eyes moist with tears.
“So, she means she’s been in love with Solomon all this while?”
“Yes.”
Sebastian had read the email, so he nodded right away when Sasha asked the question.
Upon hearing that, Sasha began bawling her eyes out.
“Then… why didn’t she tell me? She never mentioned it all those years. Then why did she go to find
Brandon? Was she out of her mind? Surely Solomon would have responded to her if she had said
something.”
Sebastian fell silent.
No one will be able to answer these questions. Was she crazy? Nope, I doubt so. Even if she had been
honest with her true feelings, Solomon would not be moved. Don’t forget that Ichika could win
Solomon’s heart because she resembled Sasha in some ways. Thus, it would be useless even if
Willow confessed to him. Instead, she might have lost him if she did. Even though Willow was likely
aware of that truth, it seemed that she had failed to cope with it, especially since she was in a terrible
state with Brandon. That was the last straw that crushed her spirit.
“Stop crying. You can only blame her for being too dumb. Let’s get ready and go get her child back,
okay?”
In the end, Sebastian chose not to reveal the truth.
He sat by the bed and gently wiped the tears off Sasha’s face.
But when Sasha heard him mention the child, she burst into tears again.
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