Winnie was in a dilemma again. It was OK to listen to his stories of the past, and it could also make him
feel relieved.
But on this matter, it was difficult for her to control her mouth in front of Brian. She was afraid that she
would correct Brian when he said something she thought was wrong, and they would quarrel.
Every time they quarreled, she didn't know how Brian felt, but she always felt wronged and hurt herself.
Because of so many scruples, Winnie didn't know whether she should listen or not.
After hesitating for a while, Winnie put her hand back.
"Go ahead, I'll listen."
Winnie thought about it and was willing to be a listener. She would control her mouth as much as
possible, without giving any comments or judgments.
"Thank you, Winnie."
Winnie's decision was an encouragement for Brian and a beam of warm sunshine that made him dare
to face everything in the past.
"I have told you some things, but what I said is not detailed. Today I will add an explanation to let you
know all of my past."
Brian began to talk about what happened to him more than twenty years ago. The topic started with his
classmate relationship with Kevin.
"Kevin and I have become best friends since we began to study in school. At that time, I often went to
Kevin's house for fun. His parents' way of getting along is full of love. It can be said that their family is
happy and laughing every day."
"In particular, I envy the relationship between his parents, especially their love. But our family is
different. My family always made me feel depressed."
Brian closed his eyes and recalled what happened more than 20 years ago, but he was nervous for
some reason, and he was so nervous that he unconsciously grasped the sheets tightly.
"My parents didn't quarrel, but they didn't get along like song Kevin's parents. They always kept a
certain distance from each other, like unfamiliar friends."
"They don't look like a couple, but like unimportant friends."
"Finally, one day we learned that my father had a mistress outside, and I just knew why he kept a
distance from my mother. My sister and I didn't go overboard when we first knew it, but we secretly
found the woman."
"The woman was surprised when she saw us. We felt that she didn't know our existence. But she might
also know, but she didn't expect that we would go to see her."
Brian kept his eyes closed, feeling that if he opened them, he couldn't speak or the scene would
disappear.
"Wait a minute, can I say a few words?"
Winnie told herself not to speak again and again, but she didn't control herself at the beginning.
"OK."
Brian listened carefully, because he needed Winnie to help him analyze what he had not noticed and
misunderstood.
"When did the relationship between your parents become cold?"
Winnie raised her own question. Many couples had a cold relationship, but it didn't mean that this was
the performance of cheating.
"It seems that this was how they got along since I was a little child."
Brian thought for a while before giving an answer.
"Then when did Rufus cheat?"
Winnie began to doubt the time again.
"I don't know, but my grandfather said that he was sick and hospitalized, and that woman was one of
his attending doctors. They met at that time and they start having an affair."
"I don't believe it. I think they should have met earlier."
Brian directly said his opinion. It's not that he didn't believe his grandfather, it's just that, judging from
the emotional of his parents, he thought the time of his father's cheating would be earlier.
"Why don't you believe it? There is no absolute model of husband and wife in the world. Your parents'
relationship pattern may have been like this since they got married. You can't use it as a basis for
Rufus' cheat."
"I heard Rufus said that his marriage with your mother was arranged by their parents. They didn't like
each other and had to get married. They didn't love each other. How could get along with each other
like Kevin's parents?"
Winnie thought that Brian was wrong. He arbitrarily believed that the mistake of his parents' marriage
was his father's cheat from the beginning.
"Like you and Penny, weren't you a couple? Did you love each other or just treat each other like
unimportant friends?"
Winnie felt that Brian's own experience would be more convincing to him.
"You mean, they have been in this way of getting along since they got married, and it has nothing to do
with the mistress?"
Brian seemed to understand a little bit. Winnie meant that his parents had no feelings for each other at
all, so they could ignore each other's feelings in everything.
"Yes, it has nothing to do with the third party. It is precisely because they didn't love each other. So,
they would cheat when they met someone they liked."
Winnie felt that she still didn't control herself and started to interfere with Brian's affairs.
But she didn't think her analysis would exasperate Brian.
He suddenly sterned his voice and objected to Winnie's statement in a low voice.
"He could cheat at will, but my mother would never cheat."
Brian didn't even know why he trusted his mother so much, but he was vaguely defending his mother's
dignity.
"You……
"My words are not aimed at anyone. I didn't say that your mother would cheat. I just said that cheating
is normal in their marriage."
Winnie was embarrassed, and even the explanation was powerless. At this moment she realized once
again that she was nosy.
Brian felt Winnie's embarrassment and was also annoyed that he didn't watch his words. He could
defend his mother but couldn't have such an attitude towards Winnie, and he couldn't let Winnie
become his depressive punching bag for more than two decades.
"Sorry, I have a problem with my attitude."
Brian apologized, and his tone eased.
"Well... you don't have to apologize. I am used to it."
"But Brian, I have a question.... Forget it. If you want to talk about it, go ahead. If you don't want to talk
about it, go to sleep."
Winnie was not accustomed, but brought contempt upon herself
She wanted to ask Brian if he would get angry with other women casually and ignore her feelings, such
as Wendy, Gloria, or the woman he forgot but loved most.
But Winnie didn't ask this question. If she asked, the topic would change, and Brian couldn't continue to
tell the past.
"Just say it. Why don't you ask it? I promise no matter what you are talking about, I will not get angry."
Brian spoke carefully, wondering what Winnie was trying to say.
"It doesn't make much sense if I say it. You just say what you want to tell me, and if you don't say it,
let's go to sleep."
Winnie couldn't ask what she wanted. Otherwise, they would quarrel again.
She didn't want to quarrel anymore, and she didn't want the memories of her with Brian to be pictures
of quarrels.
"Then I will continue.
Winnie did not say, Brian could only continue. Because it was a rare opportunity that Winnie was willing
to listen to the opportunity is also rare.
"After my sister and I talked to that woman several times, she promised not to contact him. But he kept
looking for her until my mother jumped off the building."
"Can I not hate him? If he had given up earlier and apologized to my mother, my mother would not
have committed suicide by jumping off the building."
The past was always painful. Remembering it once was torturing himself once.
Brian had always thought that it was his father's fault, and if he didn't cheat, his mother would commit
suicide.
"Did you talk to your mother at that time?"
Winnie couldn't help asking again.
"If I didn't talk about it with her specifically, I just persuaded her."
Brian was still young at the time, and it was his sister who persuaded. It was precisely because he had
not done anything for his mother that he had always blamed himself and regretted.
"Do you think your mother's feelings for Rufus can be interpreted with life?"
Winnie asked Brian. At the same time, she was analyzing it in heart.
Brian said that his parents treated each other indifferently, and Rufus also said that there was no love
in his marriage. Both conditions indicated that they didn't love each other.
How could a person give up her life for the cheating of someone she didn't love?
Winnie's question stopped Brian. He never thought about the relationship between his mother and
father. He never thought about whether people could use life to interpret love.
"I have no idea."
Brian really didn't know before giving this answer.
"Since we have talked about this, then I will say a few words."
Winnie simply wanted to help Brian solve this matter, and wanted him to stop being affected by it. At
this moment, she had already thrown her vows away. Even if she would be disgusted by Brian, she
should say what she thought.
She wanted to ask herself if it wasn't Brian's business, would she still care it so much.
"You can't be irresponsible in deciding what you don't know and what you don't know. Your mother
committed suicide by jumping off the building, but has she ever said that she hates Rufus' cheating, or
has she said that she can't accept it? And did she cry and fight for this matter?"
"If all this didn't happen, I don't think your mother had feelings for Rufus."
"Find the reason, don't blame everything on Rufus."
Winnie knew everything. Although she was not qualified to comment on who was right and who was
wrong, she just felt that Rufus was innocent in the matter of Brian's mother's suicide.
"Also, your thoughts may have been biased at the very beginning. Neither you nor Stella analyzed the
matter objectively and rationally."
"I understand you. The pain of losing your mother suddenly makes you feel deeply involved. You may
not be able to think too much. But after so many years, you can't treat this matter as if you were a
child."
Winnie felt that there was no need for Brian to go on. The most important thing in this matter Brian and
Stella's idea, which had nothing to do with the mistress.
They put the responsibility of their mother's death on their father without hesitation, because they
couldn't revenge on their father, so they naturally tried to revenge on the mistress.
It was Brian and Stella who had to change now, not the mistress who had never appeared. It's just that
Winnie didn't know when Brian would figure it out.
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